Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

Rained all day here!

You would be very brave to try the diy cut! Do you straighten it, or leave it wavy, or curl it up? Mine looks better longer, as when short it just does 'rounds!' and i look like I have a helmet on! It's like loose soft ringlets now. just wash and leave it to dry naturally. Got used to it now, and tried every product know to man!

I have got a facebook, but no pics on. It confuses me where i need to message!

If I blow dry it it goes quite straight, if I've time/ can be bothered I run the straighteners over. If I leave it to dry naturally it goes wavy but not in a nice way, it just looks messy. I really like curly hair.

I couldn't explain to anyone how to put photos on FB, I just kind of bumble my way through it and somehow it works, kind of like everything I do on the computer

Hi Guys,

Hope you have all been having a good day! I had a good one! Been shopping today and bought some new cloths for the dc'n. My DS1 is a real wee fatty, lol! Honestly he has just turned 6 months and he is in 9 to 12 month clothes! I'm sure he will start to loose it all when he is walking! Even managed a wee trip to ASDA although I kept feeling like I wanted to run out! I probably would have if I was alone!

Had a wee night out with my friend tonight, went for tea then a walk and a craooy piece of apply pie!

Moose - do you feel like work is getting any easier?

I finally got round to making an appointment to see my GP next week to discuss why I am going down this slippery road again! I know I am going to cry the minute I step in her office, but I really don't want to! Maybe I can be really brave! She is just so nice and understanding! Might see if she will refer my for CBT! No nursery run tomorrow as its the may weekend Woo Hoo!

Going off to bed now as shattered after all the hard work today! lol !

Hope you are all well!
x x x

P.S I have a facebook too with photos, lol! Its easy one you get the hang of it x x x

Hi Yommy, glad you've had a good day. Well done for making an appointment, it doesn't matter if you get upset, it just matters that you get the help you need.

Hope ds gives you a good nights sleep

xx

Hi all ,family have all been poorly this week with run of trips to drs and taking temperatures and the like!
Apart from me,I have been ok and not as tired now
Blissa~are you going to be on your own this weekend then-if so hope it goes well

had a very bad day culminating in a trip to gp coz ive felt so ill all week and he couldnt find anything wrong with me ,its anxiety again ,its always that and what if its not
everytime i go they look at my notes and see im anxious and thats always the diagnosis
had my blood test results back all ok apart from higher than normal liver enzymes mine was 43 normal is 36 or less
they said not to worry and it might be the ad's making it high and to re test in 2 months
so there is no reason for why i feel so sodding ill all the time

Hi Girls,

Hi MS - Sorry to hear that your family have all been poorly! Nothing worse especially when the kids are ill!

Candy - You sound like you have been living a nightmare this week! I'm sure I have read it already, but how long have you been suffering anxiety??? Do you feel its getting worse rather than better? When I was first suffering with anxiety and I didnlt know that was what it was then I felt ill all the time! Really tired - physically and mentally!I was worrying that there was something so serious wrong with me! Please believe me you will get better once you start getting over this! What ad's are you taking and do you not feel they are helping any??? One of my friends used to suffer from anxiety and she said she was put on a mild course of Ad's, but quickly came off them as they were making her ill! Could this be the case for you?

Blissa - Hope your weekend alone goes okay! You will be fine! Just keep chilled!

Moose - how was last day at work? Enjoy your time off!

I haven't done much today - the weather was so crap! Ended up down our local soft play area and was doing well until I got into the last half hour and the panic started to set in! At that point I just wanted to hop, skip and jump out of there! Argh! Bloody anxiety!

Hope you all have a nice, relaxing friday night! x x x

Hi - piggin' computer still playin up.
Yommy, I just bawled and bawled when i went to docs. I've been ill six months.
Was brave and walked in work on my own, upstairs and downstairs again though!
Sat at my desk in tears for a bit though.

Hi girls,

Hope you're all having a nice weekend.

It's not too bad this being on my own! I can please myself and not worry about having to cater for dp, just sort the kids out. Sounds a bit mean doesn't it.

Had a lovely day yesterday, was my friends dds communion and we went to the 'after party', weather was lovely so the kids could just play, and I could relax. Didn't get them to bed til quite late and ds didn't get up til gone 9 this morning. The fair is visiting so took them over there for a bit this afternoon.

Well done for yesterday moose, I hope you're relaxing this weekend.

Sorry to hear you've been nursing a sick bay this week morning. Hope they feel better soon. Good to hear your feeling a bit better.

It's interesting what Yommy says about the ADs Candy, could be something to talk to the dr about?

hi Blissa glad its going well this weekend.
Had a nice day today had bbq in the garden

Hi, I've just done a mountain of ironing, and off to bed now - washed all the bedding, so i just adore going up early (on my own) and will read the papers in luxury!

See you tomorrow x (my lovely friend goes in for her mastectomy on Tues - she is being so brave)

hi ladies
had a crap weekend
felt ill all the time
im on the highest dose of ad's ive ever been on and they dont seem to be helping re the anxiety,have helped with the depression i was feeling
i just want to sleep or lie down all the time
dh is really getting fed up with me,i find it hard to tell him how im feeling -whats the point he cant help me and the doctors dont give a monkeys about me
all they see is anxiety on my notes and after that they put anything im feeling down to that.
have had a constant headache for a week ,tight chest and throat,surely anxiety isnt constant ????
wish i could turn back the clock to life before kids

candy~sorry you're feeling so awful,no,not everything is anxiety!
Can you take your temperature to see if you are unwell~an ear one is best.
Think what concrete symptoms you have like sore throat,headache,and if you have a temp or rash etc,to try and distinguish from the anxiety.

Hi, oh Candy.... Has the day got any better? Did you take your temp? Did you try to be busy, or has that made it worse?

I have a migraine niggling, had some pills now. had a panic in the garden too, and felt fed up today. But I think/know it's cos I've got my friend on my mind.

Aren't we a right lot today!

Morning Girls,

Candy - Sounds like you are still having an awful time! Please believe me you won't always feel as bad as you do right now! Start looking for the light at the end of the tunnel? You have probably posted this a hundred time before, But what ages are your little ones! When I had anxiety the last time round I used to worder if life would have been any better had I not had DS1, but I would never ever have life without them and I am pretty much guessing you are the same when you think about it! Try to focus on the positives you have in life! Your health (other than this metal health blip, and thats all it is a blip!) Your wonderful DC, your dh, a roof over your head and food in your belly! All good things in life! Is there any chance you could move to another doctor if you feel they are not helping you! I doubt your husband will be getting fed up with you, as you said its hard to understand what YOU are going through if you haven;t been through it yourself! How do you tell people you are not well when you look a picture of health?! Its can;t be easy for him either! I haven;t even told my husband how I am feeling this time round and its not because he isn;t supportive, its because I don't want him thinking I'm not coping or that I want him feeling sorry for me becasue its the last thing I want! I just want to get back to being ME!

I have started looking for a job, I am coming to the end of my Maternity pay. I am just looking for something part time at the moment, but there isn;t a lot out there so may have to take something full time until I can get something else! Too many somethings, lol!

Anyway, I hope you all have a better day today!

Say no to Panic! lol!

x x x

Hi all,

I hope work goes ok today moose, and all goes well with your friend, she sounds a very brave lady.

I hope you are feeling a little better today, Candy. Have you had all of your blood test results back? Anxiety can make you feel pretty unwell on its own, but you have had a lot of seperate illnessess in the past few weeks. I would agree with what both morningsun and yommy have posted. Maybe keeping a diary of how you feel day to day would help? Not just physically, but emotionally too. I've started doing this and just getting it out, even just on paper helps, as, like you say, it is difficult for dps and others to understand.

Good luck with the job hunting yommy, what sort of thing are you looking for?

Hi everyone

I'm new to this thread and have been reading some of your comments re panic/anxiety and depression. I have been trying to go it alone too. This is my second baby (6mths) and I have found it really difficult this time around. He was born by emergency c-section so I found it really hard to bond with him.

I would like to return to work but find it difficult to even hang the washing out incase someone sees me. Dr sent me to Beating the Blues (computer based cognitive behavioural therapy) and has now decided to send me to a psychiatrist for further diagnosis.

A website I have been given by BTB's is Moodjuice.co.uk - maybe you will find the answers you are looking for there.

Thank you for listening/reading.

Hi Kyle, sorry to hear how you've been feeling.

Congratulations on the birth of your lo, sounds like a difficult time for you. Have you suffered from anxiety before, or just since the birth?

Hi Bliss, thx for your reply. Not sure I know how to work this as I've sent a message but it hasn't come up on screen.

It worked this time.I have had anxiety/panic and depression for years but became worse after having 1st baby in 2005.

Hello girls. Just a quickie before dc go to bed! Hello Kyle....

I keep a diary for the counsellor, good things and bad. I colour the good yellow, and it looks like streaks of sunshine across the page. they do get more and more....

Did 3 hours today, a usual Tuesday now. Was ok, I was shaky, and have been all day though, and jittery. I am supposed to have a catch up chat with my team leader on a Fri to see how my hours are working out, and how i am etc, but TL wasn't in Fri, so i asked manager if i needed her to do it - but she replied after I went home. She then asked TL to catch up with me today, but guess what - he didn't do.

So i am a bit fed up feeling yes they did their job and got me back to work, and now washing their hands of me! When i was off sick, as you know, they drove me mad keep hassling me for meetings and appointments to come in after work to 'walk up office and see how I am' etc etc. grrrrrrr...

hi all just refound a link that I think gives information in a no panic way;
www.rcpsych.ac.uk/mentalhealthinfoforall.aspx

Thanks - am going to have a read now xx

Morning Girls,

Welcome Kyle!

Moose - your work sounds exaclty like my old work place, talk me back into coming back to work with the promise that the would reduce my hours, once I was back told me it wasnlt possible as they were too busy! I had to leave in the end! Nightmare!

Blissa - I am just looking for any type of work just now! I have a profession as a QS but the job can be very stressful and I have decided to take a break form it while the kids are young and I am feeling this way! Hopefully will be able to go back to it in a few years time! Ideally I am wanting something part time at the moment!

Candy - I hope I haven;t offended you with my post the other day! Hope you are okay x x x

Hope you all have a wonderful day! I have a smeat today - the joys of being a lady! x x x

Hi all how is everyone today?
hello kyle,welcome to the thread and how are you feeling today?
Hi yommy,good luck with the job hunting.I have just applied for regristration for childminding~its not what I did originally but I love los and think it will be something flexible I can do re hours.
Hi moose~ annoying that you don't feel you are getting the support they promised,you must tell them altho you are doing your best you still need support.
Hi candy how are you today,a bit better I hope.
Hi bliss how are you doing~ seems like you are doing well what with staying alone at the weekend and enjoying it~good on you!
I am good atm,feel happy most days and looking forward to some projects at home I need to sort out and getting part time work sorted.Its funny,but as the anxiety and down feelings go,its like they're replaced by proper feelings of sadness,or happiness~has anyone else noticed this?
Am also trying to make more friends at the school etc~have usually had a lot of friends but being so withdrawn lately has made me more on my own so now trying to sort that too!

Thats a fair bit of sorting overall..