Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

hi everyone i had an awful awful day yesterday
i either had bad ibs or a tummy bug ,about 20 trips to the loo,felt so anxious and dizzy and sick ,didnt take ds to opticians it was all i could do to get them home from school,i thought i would pass out at school my legs went to jelly,i had to pinch myself hard on the arm to distract myself.
went to bed when dh got home and rested with a hot water bottle ,i took some propranolol tab's .
ds3 is at playschool today so i hope i can get there and back without too much trouble.
so scared i felt so out of control yesterday.
i know today is another day and im trying to relax (very hard)
why is it that you think you have overcome it then i comes and bites you hard on the arse again .
im soo hungry but havent got a clue what to have that wont upset my tummy ,
been a few times already today!.
fucks sake

Awe Candy,

Sounds like you have about as good a day as me yesterday! Anxiety is a nasty piece of work! When are you due to go for CBT??? I am not sure what my GP will advise for me this time! She is really fantastic. I keep telling myself that I am okay and just having a bad day, but when I think back I have actually been feeling like this for a while now so I am trying to bury my head in the sand! Candy you def sound like you had a tummy bug yesterday so I hope you are feeling better today!

Moose good luck with work today, hope it goes well!

Hi to everyone else! x x x

Hi girls, sorry to hear you both had bad days yesterday.

Candy, is there any chance you have a food intolerance? Although yesterday does sound like it could have been a bug. Hope you manage to eat something today.

Did your ds go into nursery ok today Yommy?

Hope today goes well moose xx

Morning Blissa,

DS went to nursery fine this morning! Even managed to say goodbye to dh without any sign of being upset! Happy Days!

How are you today? Got anything nice planned? The weather is pants up our way again.

x x x

im going for cbt in june sometime still waiting for an appointment
took ds to playschool and am here alone enjoying the peace
didnt sleep well at all last night stomach churning all night
been to the loo 3 times already today ,i really dont know wheres its all coming from i hardly ate yesterday!!!
had a rice cake and 2 digestives so far.
i hate anxiety so much ,im sick of it running my life

Hi yommy

Bless him that's good. Did you get another good night's sleep?

It's not raining here, the sun is shining, but it's very chilly. I feel cold and I'm sat with a vest, jumper and cardigan on! No plans for today, have planted some lettuce seeds with ds and now he is watching Scooby Doo.

xx

Hello, am new here! I have not read this whole thread yet, but today I finally had the courage to visit my GP after suffering for the past year with increasing anxiety. I have been prescribed propananol(beta blocker) - has anyone any experience of taking this, will it really help? At the moment I feel like I am going mad, and I am desperate to feel "normal" again. I have also been referred to a therapist for CBT but there is a 2month waiting list. I would appreciate any advice x x

Hi theabear, sorry to hear how you are feeling. Well done for going to your gp today. I don't know about beta blockers, but I'm sure one of the others will know something. I am currently waiting for an appointment to come through for councelling, have no idea how long I will have to wait. Do you know if your anxiety has triggered by anything?

I don't know what has triggered this anxiety but it has been getting worse over the past year. I think it started soon after I had my dd 2 years ago but has only really become this bad over the past year. I feel as if my whole life is ruled by anxiety and I just want to feel "normal" again!!

hi theabear and welcome ,we all know what your going through!
im on propranolol too i just take them when i really need to like yesterday ,i had a terrible time with my anxiety ,they slow your heart rate down and make you feel a little drowsy ,what strength are you on i have 40 mg,
im also on ad's are you on any?

I have been given 40 mg propranolol as well but have not taken any yet! I do not have any ad's although the GP offered me citalopram. I am a bit scared of taking tablets to be honest. Do you take the propranolol regularily or only when you feel you need it?

Hi girls. Welcome Bear!

Oh Candy, sorry you feel so bad. For a long time I always had an upset tum every morning, and I did today too. I know mine is anxiety. Hope you got thru the day okay xx
I went to work, and had a better time of it. My stomach lurched and my legs and tummy tingled as I was driving towards it. makes me actually shudder (very odd feeling).
But my friend met me and I went straight in (albeit detouring along another floor so i don't have to walk past people I know), and instead of having a panic behind the door, as I had been having, had a little shake and just went in.
Still shook all morning, but felt better, and managed to chat to a couple.
Shattered again though!

Bear, I can't imagine you will want to plough all through 28 pages to catch up anyway - the theme is the same on most posts! So you aren't missing much! I don't take meds, but am 'doing it' with fresh air and excercise! I am having counselling too.

Hi moose, good to hear you've had a better day at work. Are you in again tomorrow?

Hi Girls,

Welcome theabear! Sorry to hear you are having tough time with anxiety! I am fairly new to this threat too, but not to anxiety! Like you started suffering from it when my ds1 was about 8 months, it was probably festering before that, but I never managed to go see my GP til he was over 1. Also like you I felt like I was going mad and anxiety was ruling my life! I was afraid of taking meds too, ever pain killers at my worst point! I didn;t want to take any meds so went to speak to CPN, but that didn;t work out either as I didn't click with him. I ended up going for hypnotherapy which helped to an extent! I was getting back on track, but my nastly little friend has come back for a visit! (He won;t be staying long!!!) It won;t feel like it just now, but you can get over this! How bad are you on a daily basis??? All the girls here are a great support so stick around and chat!

Blissa - DS2 went for another 12 hours last night getting up to feed once wonder if he will make it 3 nights . My ds1 loves Scooby Doo!

Candy - How are you feeling now? Has the tummy settled any??? How is your sister getting on with he break?

Moose - How did work go today? Are you back in tomorrow?

I am going to head off to bed now, bloody shattered. Have a cheek, almost slept in this morning! I am doing the nursery run tomorrow so need my beauty sleep, lol!

Hope you have all had a good day! x x x

Hope you have another undisturbed night yommy xx

Hi Blissa, no Wednesdays off! 3 Hours on Thurs and Friday.

Morning Girls,

How are you all today? I thought I was going to have a bad morning this morning, but has been good so far! Dropped dh at the fishery and DS1 at nursery - he was very happy! DS2 has just gone down for a nap after many tears and I am going to have to wake him shortly to get back to get DS1 from nursery! lol! Typical! I have stripped all my beds, washed the bottles done the dishes just need to hoover and thats the basics done for the day!

Moose are you enjoying your wee day off?

Candy, hows the tummy?

Blissa - the dreams were shattered last night - twice, lol! DS2 was up at 12.45 then 5 and didn't want to go back to sleep after that! Little darling lol! How are you today???

Hi to everyone else!
x x x

Oh no yommy, hopefully it's just a blip?! I remember when ds was around 18 months and would get up at 5 every morning, sometimes earlier, it's a killer.

I'm ok today, took ds to the garden centre and bought some more seeds, hoovered and peeled potatoes for tea. Ds is a pre-school now so I am enjoying the peace.

Hope everyone is having a good day
xx

hi all
not be too great today tummy has calmed down (thank god) just lots of anxiety ,took ds to toddler club then on from there to the gp to tell her about my endless symptoms,she told me to go for blood tests and so i went straight there to do them ,really hurt doesnt usually.
she testing me for bowel infections and my thyroid
am worried about results and feeling very anxious and very tired although i cant seem to relax at all
have some diazepam to take if it gets too much
have my counsellor again in the morning,dont think she is really helping.
i seem to be up and down like a yo yo re my anxiety
im so sick of being me

Hi girls. oh Candy you do sound so fed up.... At least Doc has ran some tests, so you will know if something is causing you to feel rough, or just the anxiety (Just!!!).

My counsellor always makes me feel a lot calmer, and things are put into perspective for me.

I have been okay today, a bit shaky thats all. Just had a cadburys cream egg for medicinal purposes!

Had my hair cut and coloured today, so that was a nice treat. It had got really long, but looked nice today (isn't that just typical when you are going to get it cut!). My hair is long and curly, and I have to watch that she doesn't get scissor happy, as its much longer when stretched straight, but springs back up!

I had it straightened once, but the boys cried (honestly they did), so I just wear it curly, but it's a nice curly (I think!).

I told hairdresser that I had heard (on mumsnet) about making a ponytail and cutting it off to get a layered look - yes nightmare she said - I get them in here to try and fix it!

Hi all,

Moose I have seriouslt considered that doing the pony tail hair cut, just haven't been brave enough yet! I'm in desperate need of a cut, but haven't really got the money at the moment. It gives you a lift doesn't it? Bless your ds's for crying when you went near them. I remember when dd1 was little and I got glammed up to go out, straightened my hair, slap, bright red lipstick, and she wouldn't come anywhere near me! Was so used to my tired, covered in baby food and bad hair look!

How long will you have to wait for your test results Candy? It's good that the gp has done them, so things can be ruled out or acted on if there is anything. I hope your session goes well today.

I still wake up with that butteryfly feeling in my stomach, and sometimes feel like I can't breathe properly. But I know it's (just) anxiety and not a clot! My sciatica is playing up today too.

Still no sign of morningsun. Maybe she has decided to take a break for a while. Hope she's ok xx

hi all
moose hope you get on at work ok ,it will get easier im sure of it
give your self a pat on the back for doing so well
hi blissa
i have to wait until friday afternoon at the earliest or until tuesday if not coz of the bank holiday. hoping it will be tomorrow
have a thing at school with dd in the morning about alcohol and cigarettes talk on the dangers
not sure if i will feel well enough
i know she will be very disapointed if i call off,
why does my anxiety make me feel im being stranggled? it goes on for hrs sometimes,had my last session at the counsellor today only had 3 in the end as the cbt wont start until i finish with her so im waiting for an appointment am pinning all my hopes on this working for me
has anyone had it and what does it involve ? i know its tries to change the way you think and there fore feel .
how are you yommy and all the others whoose names i cant remember

Fingers crossed you do hear tomorrow so that you can enjoy the bank holiday.

Dp is going away over the weekend. I've not spent a night alone since before I was in hospital. I always worry about something happening at night when I'm on my own with the dcs.

I know what you mean about the strangling feeling, it's horrible. I also get a feeling like there's a big bubble in my throat.

My sister had CBT a few years ago and said it was very helpful. I hope you get an appointment through soon. I am readingthis book at the moment, it is based on cognitive therapy and teaches coping strategies.

Hi, work ok. Again I didn't fanny around at the door - just went in! I still sat there shaky, and got all nervous when i had speak. Still couldn't get up for a wee! Just did 3 hours. Sat eating left over macaroni cheese and havin cuppa. My sciatica bad today too - either from sitting at work I guess, or three hours digging on the allotment!

Blissa I laughed about your glam experience! hairdresser said the ponytail thing is ok if you have thick hair that will kick out and have body of its own..... I know i wouldn't be brave enough!

But try it tonight and post some pics on your profile. We will assemble here at 9pm for a viewing!

candy, my counselling is more counselling than cbt. My doc recomended www.moodgym.co.uk (i think, or com/org)and that is like cbt.

have a good day - raining here!

Well done moose, just tomorrow to go and then it's the weekend!

I think my sciatica might be bad seeing I've been sat on mn a lot this week, although I don't think bending over while I planted up my potatoes helped yesterday either!

My hairs pretty thin and wavy so maybe the diy cut wouldn't work? Even if I did it and took photos it would take me ages to work out how to upload them to my profile, I can just about manage it on Facebook!

Looks like it's going to start raing here, sky's gone very dark, will probably wait for another hour though, it alwasy seems to rain on the school run