Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

wow blissa you will put us all to shame ive done nothing today but put some washing on the line
need to mop floors
hoover and wash up

Candy I have done naff all all week, bar hanging washing out, so I can't ignore it anymore! I've done enough for today though!

How are you feeling?

felt rough this morning tummy cramps but it seems to of settled down now
done all my housework now so im having asome mn time before doing the school run
how are you ?
i dont know much about anyone on here,how many kids have you got ?

I've got 3, 2 dds and 1 ds.

I'm not too bad today thanks, just walked up to drs with ds on his bike. Just time for a cuppa before school run.

hope moose is ok at work today

Morning Girls,

Glad to hear you are all sounding well today!

MS - hope all goes well with your daughter today! She sounds like a right little madam! Well done her!

Blissa, can we all come for tea??? lol! We had chicken curry last night too. I am venturing out for my tea tonight to a new restaurant in town then taking ds1 to the fair ground for a little while! Looking forward to pushing myself to the limits, lol!

My house is a mess too! When my dh is away I run it like a military operation, but when he is home I can;t be bothered because he is here to help and as we all will know if a job is worth doing you better do it yourself!

My dh done the nursery run today in the am. Ds was hysterical again, but teacher called to say he had settled quicker today and so far he is happy to go back tomorrow . I went to pick him up and watched for 5 mins ds seemed very happy and was chatty so I'm not so worried about him now! Not sure what they were feeding him this morning at nursery, but he has been hyper all afternoon thats after a trip to the park too!

Moose - how did work go today, better???

Hi to everyone else!
Hope you enjoy the rest fo your day x x x

Evening ladies

Picked up my INR result was 1.9, aaarrrggghhh lowest it's been! Dr has upped the rat poison by 1mg a week. Has also written a note to say that if I'm feeling ok I can stop taking it on the 18th June. OMG OMG OMG. I kind of read it and had a confident 10 minutes on the walk home thinking that's ok, he's confident, so I should be, my body just went wrong, it was a blip, over with now, I'll be fine. But it's a bit scarey. In a way it's good to come off so I can have the tests done to see if there is anything wrong. But I'll be a bloomin wreck when the time comes. Any ways I'm waffling, hope you all had a good day

Oh and the dcs didn't like my pie, little beggars

hi. Blissa, does that mean its good?? You then said they upping the meds by 1mg. Am confused .

Hi moose, a normal persons INR is 1. They want mine at 2.5 but it's never stabilized there, usually between 2 and 3. So he's upped it a bit to get it back to being theraputic.

How was work today?

Work was marginally better! Didn't cry today! but still struggled to breath when I went in the doors. Still took me a good twenty mins to get in and sit down.
Still couldn't speak.......
Sat there and didn't want to be there. felt shut in, dark, and enclosed. And am sooooo tired and sleepy now. Need go bed early.
Took 2 kalms pills last night cos all shaky, and again this morning.
3 Hours tomorrow.

Well done you.
Little steps remember, it will get easier.
Keep meaning to ask you how your friend is?

I know Blissa, but it's a right faff isn't it! God knows what they all think of me at work!
Been see my friend today actually. After 18 biopsies (!) they found cancer cells and she has to have a mastectomy. She seems very positive and brave though. makes my worries seem nothing!

It doesn't matter what they think, I know that's easy for me to say though.

Oh I am sorry to hear that. It's good that she is being positive, I hope all goes well for her

Have you been okay today then? You sound fed up. Aren't the kids swines not eating tea. makes me so cross when you have gone to the trouble of clloking something nice and different!
better off with beans on toast i think!

I made a nice tea - Hunters chicken - DH very impressed! Chicken wrapped in bacon, slice of pineapple on top. BBq sauce, an the grated cheese. Wa really nice! Kids ate most of it too, except ds7 who is either turning veggie or just can't be bothered to chew the meat!

I've had an ok day. I feel a bit like I'm treading water at the moment. I knew the kids would probably not eat the pie but Im so sick of having the same meals over and over. The girls weren't too impressed with the curry last night either

OO that sounds yummy moose. I think that's probably the problem with mine, it's too much effort to chew it. The only way we can get dd2 to eat meat is with pickled beetroot

pickled beetroot!!! That is so funny! mine wouldnt touch that!
Mine adore my yorkshire puddings - they argue over who is having which.
They did more or less eat my lasagne the other day. They like my macaroni cheese. And they love dumplings!
ds14 eats anything sweet that he finds in any cupboard 24/7. I have to hide lunchbox nibbles!

Oh mine won't touch lasagne, which annoys me cos I love it. They all have sweet tooths, can't think where they get it from.

Off to bed now, hope you sleep well and that tomorrow goes ok for you xx

Morning Girls,

How are ou all today? I woke with and upset tummy today and after getting showered I am feeling worse. Sore skin, sore bones and joints! I am due on in 2 days so not sure if thats making everything worse! Who'd be a woman!

Good luck with your last day moose!

x x x

Hi yommy, sorry you're not feeling well. How as ds at nursery today?

I have no children at the moment and my house is very quiet and tidy for a change. Making the most of the peace as they're all invited to a party at a soft play centre after school so will be manic!

Hi girls!
Yommy~hope you feel better soon
Moose~hope work went ok
Blissa~you're all organised!Do you mean you're taking an extra mg a day?

My dd coped ok with her blood test and noones phoned so far so can't be anything too drastic on them!

Can I ask you girls for some advice?

How do you girls feel day to day~I find lately I'm a bit up and down.Last night I didn't take my little ds to his swimming lesson ~he is not a full swimmer yet and his new class is in the deep end and I can't see him from the balcony.He was tired but I was happy not to take him as I was apprehensive,then all the bad thoughts were there about his accident this morning

If you feel anxious or have bad memories how do you keep them at bay?

I wonder if I should
1 make more effort to get a job
2 go for someCBT

Hi morningsun, no an extra mg a week, so i take 2mg mon - thurs and 3mg fri-sun.

Sorry you're feeling down. I haven't totally found a way to deal with my thoughts but I know distracting myself and keeping busy helps. I've had a much more positive week this week because I've made a concsious (sp?) effort to get out of the house. I don't know a lot about CBT, my friend lent me a book called Mind over Mood which is a manuel that shows you how to improve your life using cognitive therapy (yes I am reading from the cover). I haven't started it yet but she said she found it helpful.

Do you think getting a job would help you? Could you maybe do some more hours of your volunteer work?

xx

bliss thanks~yes I think getting a job would help me,and just moving on really~but then you sort of wonder if you need counselling to properly move on iyswim?
I'm being really lazy atm cos i'm really tired and have sore feet and feel unwell~most unlike me~I think I'll do more and see how it goes.
thanks

Morning - what is wrong with your feet?!! Have you been dancing all night? If I were you I would let him swim (But thats just me). They have lifeguards. The swim teacher should know ds abilities (we hope!). have you spoken to the swim teacher about your worries?

Yommy, hope you feeling better too as the day gone on?

Work was worse. I ground to a halt walking in. Could not physically make myself walk in. But did. Sat for three hours with shaky hands, felt sick, and like I was going to cry... I thought it would be easier today.
I did pick up a couple of bits of work, and found my way round the computer system, so that was a good refresher. Did two letters too, so pleased on that front. My manager says she has no expectations from me, so no pressure. Asked what she could do to make things better for me. But I said I dont know, nothing particular.
What am i going to do?