Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

bit of a lecture there!

hi ladies
hope your all doing ok
yommy - i have 3 kids ds(11) dd (8) and ds (2.9) bloody knackered .pic's are on my profile
ive had a good few days trying to relax and keep busy when i feel anxious seems to help ,cleaned the dreaded oven today -ew it was so minging but glad its something off my list of things i must do !
done some gardening today i really enjoy it ,im growing all my own veg this year,its very relaxing as long as the two year old doesnt get involved.
am worrying about my little sister at the moment she had her dd 2 weeks ago ,she already has ds (5yrs) and her husband has just told her he wants to split he doesnt love her anymore and hasnt for ages .
she is devastated and has a history of pnd so i made sure she went to see tha gp and is now on fluoxetine and being referred to a counsellor ,poor poor girl that the worst timing,she lives in birmingham an 2 hr drive from where we live.she has asked if she can come and stay for a few days but i just cant do it have asked her to go to our mums (close by) instead i can only just about cope with my own childern without having a colicky baby in the house it would send me into anxiety central.i do feel bad coz she needs me.
do you think im being selfish?
my ibs has been bad today i think the time of the month doesnt help ,had awful tummy pain and constant backache
need a very hot bath.
hope everyone had a nice day weather has been good her plenty of sunshine !

oh dear candy. I think you did the right thing to say no.You have enough to deal with at mo. Like you say, you can always pop see her.

Try that hot bath if you can escape from everyone. I like to read the sunday mags in the bath, but never seem to get one - just a quick shower!

Yommy i have had panic attacks and they are really hard to bring under control. make me feel very faint. I have just worked on getting breathing slower. I have had a spell of struggling to get my breath, and that has gone on for days. Deep relaxation and breathing exercises sorted that, as it gets to be a habit. More lately I just get overwhelming feelings of sadness and I want to really cry. usually when i am out and had enough of being out, or somewhere new, or busy. Wonder if they will ever go really.

I also meant to say that my counsellor tells me not to drink because the drink will make you feel more anxious, as it will only enhance the mood that you are already in - it wont change it.

i agree about the alcohol,best to avoid it

also agree about the alcohol cos if you drink to take the anxiety away it can become a second problem to deal with and has a tendency to make everything worse.

Morning Girls,

Guess you will all be busy doing the schools runs, etc this morning! My ds had is first day at Nursery today! I have had a very anxious morning, but am feeling okay now. I feel daft saying I had a bad morning as when I feel okay I look back and think well it wasn;t actually that bad, but at the time it felt that bad! Nightmare!

Thanks for the advice on alcohal! I wasn;t meaning that I drink it to take away the anxiety, far from it! The problem I have it that I live in the west of Scotland and people can;t socialise without having a drink! I have a very large socialble family - so you see the problem, lol!

Candy, I am so sorry to hear about ur sister - how awful for her! Especially with having a new baby! Didn;t her husband think to tell her this before they extended the family??? I hope she gets through! I don;t think you are selfish to say no, I agree with ML - you have enough on your plate! And it might be good for her to go to your Mums for some tlc, i'm sure your mum will be able to help her out with the kids more than you will be able too!

Hope you all have a good day!
x x x

Hi Yommy - How was nursey for ds? Bet he had great time!

I knew you ddn't mean you intended to turn to drink!! I'd rather have a cuppa with a choccie biscuit anyway!

Am having a quiet stay at home day today - worrying bout work tomorrow, and have a migriane niggling.......

Hope work goes well for you tomorrow moosex

Good luck with work tomorrow ml. Think about us girls thinking about you x x x

DS had a great first day - he is looking forward to going back tomorrow!

good luck at work mooseloose
will be thinking of you and try to remember its never as bad as it seems.

Hi girls

Good luck for tommorrow moose, will be thinking of you xx Oh and the cross stitch hasn't arrived yet, but my cucumber plants are sprouting!!

Hope your ds enjoyed his first day yommy, is he doing every day? I've been off alcohol since I was ill, have missed my wine though. Hadn't really thought of it regarding the anxiety, was planning to use it as a blood thinner when I come off the medication, guess I'll have to stick to cranberry juice . I've suffered a few panic attacks in recent months. Mine tend to start when I focus on a symptom and then convince myself it's a clot. Then I get more symptoms which then makes me worse and it goes in a circle. The last one lasted for 2 hours and I was exhausted. I found reading about the symptoms brought me down, so I could say to myself ok it is just a panic attack and I'm not dying.

Sorry to hear about your sister candy. I remember your thread from when she went into labour, she had a bit of a tough time didn't she? I think you've done the right thing, you've got a lot to deal with yourself and I'm sure she understands that.

I've been a really busy bee today, tescos, park with ds and then again after school for 2 hours. Feel knackared. My legs keep feeling like jelly, think it's something to do with my back? I don't know I'm falling apart! Sitting here with a plate of chips and cheese, yum xx

Thanks girls. Am in a tizz. Migraine still niggling. Have changed beds, cleaned bathroom, dug garden, vaccumed, cleaned kitchen. Ate biscuits. Drank tea.
I know I am making work more extreme in my head than it will be. But i am worry about walking in (its a huge open plan office) and haviung a panic in front of everyone and them all looking at me.
I struggles to walk to school today, and went into the playground the back way through the staff carpark to avoid talking to people .

evening all - just wanted to pop in tosay good luck for tomorrow Mooseloose.

things are up and down here. have my first psych session for a month on Friday and it feels like the first time.

I have been trying to work out what the important things from the last month have been to tell her.

I have made a note of the more major panic attacks, but also have stupid day to day stuff that needs sorting.

ANYWAY - I lurk on the thread alot. Thinking about you all.

Hi greyskull nice to 'see' you

What time do you go in tomorrow moose?

moose just remember its unlikly your work colleuges will be able to tell how ur feeling,take ur self off to the loo's sit in the cubical and do the deep breahing exercises.when you get a break or at lucnh go out in the sun and fresh air
you will be fine and telling us how you had wished you hadnt got so worked up .
hugs for you
stay strong

Thanks........ Am only doing an hour....!!!! But it will be a long hour. have some lovely friends there, its just the other 30 or so in my department i dont want to see! And the other 50 I will have to wealk thru to get to me desk.
The aim is that i come out thinking 'that was ok and I will go back'. Then am doing 2 hours thurs and 3 fri. Not a lot, but is plenty! I just worry I will not be able to sit there and need to come out. I wont be doing any work, just getting myself 'in'.

Hello greyskull - (waves to greyskull) nice to see you, pop and join us moanin sometime if you like - you will be welcome!!

Is there a pc at your desk moose? Any chance you can come on here for the hour We could meet and get you through.

Sometimes I find repeatedly telling myself what I'm doing helps "I'm just going to work then I will go home, and it'll be ok". Can you treat yourself to something afterwards/ Something to look forward to

Thanks Blissa - great idea, but think I will get the sack !

I also talk to myself 'you're ok, it's ok' nonsense like that.

Blissa - if you had pulled your finger out and got that knitting done you could have made me a 'good luck scarf' .

Moose - can you write a lovely thing about yourself on a piece of paper. put it in your pocket and if you start to feel unsure or wibbly open it and read it.

Glad it's not just me then!

I'm off to bed now moose, I'm sure tomorrow will go well and I look forward to hearing about it xxx

Lol, yes sorry moose I could have. Probably would've been a bit holey though

Don't the holey bits keep you warm?