Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

Know what you mean, takes me ages to type what I want to say!

How's the paper mork going? I've done nothing today except make choc chip flapjacks. DD2 finishes school early this afternoon, but dd1 has to stay for the whole day, which isn't fair and a bit of a pain!

mork??? work- see!!!

oh my dd has been achey with a cough

Oh dear, is she at home today? Not a good start to the hols, hope she feels better soon

no shes in school,she was off on tues then did a dance exam wedbut still a bit peaky

hello, sorry I cant get on lately - ds 14 hogging it! Am ok ish. Not really - had 3 panics yest- rubbish!!!! I know its cos thinking about work, and my friend with breast lump. The biopsy was ok but the mamogram shows different, so she had more done today. I just cant understand why my mind is doing its own thing! Watched Gordon Ramsey tonight and that made me shake!
Sounds like we are all busy with the children. I have been to an Easter bonnnet parade and church today - in and out all day!
Will be nice not to make any sarnies for a few days!

Hiya moose.I thought of you on wednesday when I parked my car right by where my ds had his accident and my heart was racing and I couldn't look at the building,as you say my mind was trying to tell the rest of me not to be silly but it didn't work.
Hope you've had better day today anyway

Hi Morning, yes been ok today, no problems. But its daft isnt it.
You will always think of that in that spot - Its a flashbulb memory - like you know where you were when you heard that Princess Diana died.
Where I used to work we had money stolen, and I still cant go near the place without reliving the whole ordeal. I cant even buy the same biscuits we always used to eat when I worked there! And its years ago!

I have memories of events like Dianas death but I don't get that adrenaline surge of heat and fast heartrate with those memories,only with this sort of traumatic memory i suppose.My ds was put in a different swimming lesson too on thursday in the deep end which i didn't like.
I was wondering how your ds is,is his arm better now and do you know any more about his possible op[if you do't mind me asking and are ok talking about it of course]

course I dont mind - am ok about it. He is back in after easter for a review of operation. To see if he needs another. But I am really fine about it, surprisingly! We wont know for a while if the growth is affected (growth plate), until he grows more. That is what will upset me more.

Did he swim ok in the deep after your worry?

thats good that you are calm about his review i hope it goes well
he swam ok going across but can't get to the side easily after going under ,needs to learn to tread water better.He has been within his depth for lessons for the last year or more since i changed pools

Hi girls, sorry to hear of your panic attacks moose, I hope you haven't had any today. I hope the further tests your friend needs are good news. xx

How are you morning? Having a better saturday than last week, I hope xx

ok but not my usual chirpy self but thanks for asking
hope your pains have settled down for the holsx

hello girls. Just logged on quick but am yawning away!Am ok today. Hope you are all too....?

Hi all, hope you've all had a good weekend.

I was a bit weepy this morning but have been ok. Managed to get a bit of gardening done. Am taking the dcs to stay at my sisters tomorrow for the week, so won't be here. Hopefully we're going to take them to the pictures to see that Monsters versus Aliens.
The only thing I'm not looking forward to is the 50 mile journey. I've driven it countless times but not since being ill so feeling a bit anxious about it.

Have a nice time blissa!

Hello all. Been counselling today. She has knocked a bit more sense into me!
Am planning to go back to work in two weeks - phased return.
Hope you are all ok - my tooth has a crack in it!

Hi girls, bit quiet round here! Hope that means you're all having lovely holidays.

I made it to my sisters and back, has given my confidence a boost.

Glad your counselling went well moose, hope you're feeling more confident about going back to work. How's your tooth?

xx

hi ladis
not been on for a while
well i know think i have health anxiety
ive been ill since january with real illnesses not just made up ones
and now i have the dreaded ibs back
ive had it b4 when dd was little
its so painful
am going to the gp later
im so fed up
what wrong with wanting to be healthy
its just been one thing after another

do any of you suffer with this
its my health and my kids that i worry the most about

hi, been away for the weekend - camping with friends . Was really nice. Done me good. had a laugh. Start a phased return next Tues. Not looking forward to it at all, but just an hour the first day. Went in last week for a walk up office, and it made me panic and cry - and it was empty!

Tooth ok - its a crown and i need a new one!

Hope you all okay. xx

Hi,

I am new to this site, but I just found this thread today and may I say how refreshing it is to find a chat site on anxiety where people are being positive about recovery!

I have been suffering from anxiety attacks since my eldest son was about 8 months old. Not really sure what brought them on a number of things getting on top of me I guess! At first I thought I was going mad and I eventully went to see my GP when the pain in my chest got so bad that I thought there was something seriously wrong with me! When she explained to me what she thought might have been the problem I felt light a total weight had been lifted. She refered me to a counsellor, but that didn;t really work out as I didn;t click with him. I then paid for myself to go for hypnotheray which helped to an extent but after the last session I went for I felt a little paniced when I came out and thats stopped me going back for more! I decided that I was going to get myself through with a lot of distraction and possitive thinking! This worked for a while and up til now I was beginning to get my life back on track!

I now have another gorgeous little boy who is now 6 months old and I feel that the anxiety is starting to creep back into my life! I am so angry as I don't want to go back to that place in my life again!

Please tell me that this has happened to others and I will get through it again! I haven't been to see my GP this time as I feel embarassed and I don;t want to tell my husband or Mum thats its back again! I just don't want then feeling sorry for me, does that make sense! I also sort of feel like I am failing myself and others if I tell them. Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some advice please ???

Hi Yommy. It's horrible to feel like this isn't it. I haven't ever really told my ds all my worries, beacuse they have no idea what it's like, and you feel a bit daft, even though it feels very real to feel so panicked. Whan I was first ill, my hands physically shook for weeks. that was just awful. People who have never experience anxiety really can't comprehend what it's like.
My gp got cross with me because i wouldnt take any anti dep, so i have had to work really hard to get by without. It makes a huge difference to me to run or walk every day - the endorphins and seratonin release is the same as would be in a pill. have a try with this. Sunshine definatly helps.
I have looked on other websites, and they too made me feel worse. The counselling really helped me. the lady is lovely. I'm not sure i would really want to talk to a man - perhaps this would make a difference to you?
It's quiet on here this week, but pop back in and out and there are usually some updates from our handful or regulars. (I have three boys by the way!)

I meant my dh not ds!!!!!

hi Mooseloose,

Thansk for your reply! I think in some sort of daft way its even feels goo to know that you are not going through it alone. Anxiety is very loanly because as you say until you experience it for yourself you will never know what people actually go through!

The coucelling was a total let down as I felt that the guy wasn;t really listening to anything I was saying, more just nodding his head in agreement with what I was saying and handed me some leaflets. I only went for 2 sessions out of 5 as I didn;t really like him! Not sure if I could get allocated to anothe CPN! Was thinking about paying to go for some private councelling? I just want to get better again! I think you are correct it may be better to speak to a woman!

I will keep watching for more posts!

What age are your boys? You are brave having three, I am def stopping at 2! lol!

Hi all!
moose~brilliant going camping sounds just the sort of thing i imagine you would enjoy!
blissa~hi,glad your trip went well its good to have a change isn't it~and sort of an achievement doing different things iykwim
I have also been away with family which was a real break from routine and pepped me up as i'd been a bit down before.
Hi candy you've been thru a lot lately hope you're ok and keep posting
Hi yommymommy welcome to the thread maybe it can prevent you getting that unwelcome visitor as i call it back.btw I also had a male counsellor~it was his personality not his gender i didn't click with[i think tho i would prefer a woman] he was very one dimensional and wanting to move on and shut me up whereas i obviously wanted to talk it all thru at my own speed lol!