Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

Hello all, ty belissa and mooseloose for your help im wondering today if it is the coil causing anxiety or me- maybe the latter as ive been better today
sorry to hear you got pains Belissa- have yu told GP ? oh mooseloose wringing neighbours neck prob isnt advisable ... hope you're all having relaxed evening

Evening girls,

Which pain moose? I seem to have a new one everyday! I'm getting pissed off with myself now, I've had enough. Got to go to a funeral tomorrow, dps nan. It's over an hours drive away so getting a bit wobbly about it, God knows why. Hope your friend is ok, just ignore your neighbour. Are you any closer to returning to work?

Loulou I've lost count of the times I've been to dr, all goes back to me being hospitalised before christmas and now I'm a raging hypochondriac.

Glad your feeling better candy.

Bit lost this evening as mistresses has finished!

Hi girls I'm becoming a right old know it all aren't I thats what happens when you are 102 an older mum!
Hi lou glad you're feeling better
Hi blissa hope you're pain's gone
Hi moose sorry about your friend
Hi candy glad you've got over your tooth
Phew! we're a real gang now aren't we!

x posts blissa!

no such thing as hypochondria- just medical people dont know how else to label something Sorry to hear youre going to a funeral- travelling can be dodgy for me when emotions are high, sure will be ok.

Hi morning how was your day?

Thanks lou, it's weird how things I wouldn't have thought twice about 4 months ago, have me all worried now. Did you manage to keep busy today?

yes, it is strange how things change, changes can be for the better as well thank goodness

i have been busy today (cleaning!! ) feeling a bit better for achieving something

I should have done that, did manage the shopping though. Trying to resist the urge to scoff the chocolate cake!

You didnt say Blissa about dp nan, - are you ok about that and not too upset?

My friend has lump in breast and had a biopsy - waiting for results. had a momogram which found it - no lump! But poor girl has just had an operation, hysterectomy, and still poorly with that. She looked awful today.

Is it your wisom tooth candy? Not a front one .

I am lost too without mistresses. Got that singing thing on, but not really watchin it cos stuck on here!

morning - how old are you, cos bet you aren't old- you just mean you aren't 18!

i am considering tescos direct - am in no fit state to deal with supermarkets

I only met her twice I think moose, her and dp didn't really get on, so there hasn't been much emotion here. I'm more jittery about travelling and being out for a long time, not really done that since before. I'm sorry about your friend, that is horrible. How long will she have to wait for results? I had the singing thing on too, but couldn't get into it. Dp has turned over. Missing my Dominic fix

Tesco direct is a good way to go lou, my pc is playing up and won't let me place orders, maybe thats a good thing? I just tell myself if I need to run out of Tesco then I can

I usually panic getting out of the car on the way into tesco! Okay when in though. Saw a girl from work and came over all odd and couldnt speak!
Results for lump on Thurs.

I was talking to a mum at school today who was saying how she'd like to lose weight and then said I didn't need to. So I ended up telling her that I had the opposite problem and that I'd lost a lot of weight with stress after being in hospital, and explained what I'd been in for. I found myself getting all anxious and couldn't speak properly. It's embarrassing. I'll be thinking of your friend, fingers crossed

Cant get into TV- even Eastenders was a bit much tonight! could do with some comedies !!
Sorry to hear about your friend mooseloose- least shes got the lump tested, fingers crossed.

good luck tomorow Blissa- you are obviuously getting better as you are able to do things again outside your comfort zone (just an objective observation from the outside) think you will manage fine, if youre anything like me youve just got to remember to breathe !!!

Blissa why can't we talk - its very odd! I am the person who will talk to anyone - shopkeepers, old ladies, you name it. But i have a real problem at mo. Am due back to work 21 April. Scared. I know I'm not well really, but this could go on for months. Doc said that. So i think its a suck it and see really. Will be on phased return. Cried last night about it. I have meeting with Hr and my manager next Wed, and I have to walk into my big noisy office. scared scared scared.

Its not just you guys- I don't talk either, my friends not aware of my anxiety and i am still working (shifts) my boyfriend aware (but lives 8o miles away) - got to work tomorow so know i wont sleep well tonight,usually get chest pains driving in..... ffs, am trying to work through it. cannot afford to be off. Also worried if i stop i wont be able to get going again. I admire you guys having seen Doc and 'gone public' - now you can begin to recover... think maybe you've already done the hardest part dont be scared, everyone is there to help you mooseloose, it will be OK .
gosh now i just sound silly- hopefully you know what i mean.

Its not just you guys- I don't talk either, my friends not aware of my anxiety and i am still working (shifts) my boyfriend aware (but lives 8o miles away) - got to work tomorow so know i wont sleep well tonight,usually get chest pains driving in..... ffs, am trying to work through it. cannot afford to be off. Also worried if i stop i wont be able to get going again. I admire you guys having seen Doc and 'gone public' - now you can begin to recover... think maybe you've already done the hardest part dont be scared, everyone is there to help you mooseloose, it will be OK .
gosh now i just sound silly- hopefully you know what i mean.

hi all
it was by bootom molar tooth i had out
im not too good today bit wobbly all beacause last night when i was eating my tea i pulled a muscle in my throat (at least i think thats what it was ) and now im worrying myself silly about it ,it painfull and im scared its something worse although not sure what ?
i know its silly really but thats me all over !

candy can only think you might have been chewing lop sidedly becos of tooth and strained a muscle?
can't think of anything worrying it could be off the top of my head

yes morningsun it is exactly that
im being stupid i know
anyway how are you doing?

not stupid,mouth things are a pain!
i've got the dentist tomorrow!
and i ate lots of christmas toffees yikes!

Hi all hope you all happy today
Please remind me in future not to have a whole family group check up appt at the dentist at 9 am which involves missed gcse oral exam[dd i thought i'd be back in time so i didn't mention it],fillings,xrays,new orthodontic issues,feeling sick!!
aaarrrggghhh

Hellooo anybody out there...
you're all getting ready for the easter holidays aren't you?
well done
ms decides to finish paperwork and stop being lazy

Morning!

Poor you ms, that trip to the dentist sounds a nightmare. Will dd be able to sit her oral exam again? (God I hated oral exams!) Hope you're feeling better today. Not really ready for the Easter hols, my house is a tip, I could tidy it but the dcs will only trash it again so what's the point.

Hope your neck is better today Candy

How are you today moose? I think it's confidence with the talking to people thing. Some days I find it quite easy to chat and others days I can't think straight enough to put a sentence together!

How was work loulou? Have you spoken to a dr or anyone about how you are feeling?

The funeral went ok. Dp drove and I was ok. We took all 3 dcs with us and they were very good, brobably having to watch over them helped. Had a busy day yesterday too, both dds had school disco's so was rushing around all evening. My legs feeling better now, still a few little twinges, but I'm managing to ignore them. I've lost my voice, started on wednesday. My throats not treally sore but I've got a bit of annoying cough, especially at night.

blissa i'm glad you got through the funeral okx

my post about the dentist was a jokey one don't worry ~ I knew when the receptionist added us all in together it would be chaos and take ages!!

was ds feeling car sick btw not me !!seem to have lost my self expression atm lol!