HTT are handing me over

[EnpoTree]

Woop! Just got a call asking if I wanted to be visited today (er, no, ta) and telling me that they're about to call CMHT to hand me over to them. Finally getting off this daily checking up soon I hope

It seems to have started thickening up again.

But then I had too much hair in the first place. I went down a hat size on my diet and I don't think it was just fat.

I take a combined calcium and vit d supplement, another vit d supplement, vitamin c, and folic acid. Yes I know there is evidence that vitamin supplementation detrimentally affects lifespan etc. in the population as a whole but these are carefully chosen supplements.

I wonder if I should add zinc.

Sorry you had alopecia

I was lucky and my thinner hair didn't look too weird.

I know everyone's supplements are carefully chosen supplements

I buy vitamins because I am gullible.

am bit rubbish at remembering supplements but I know zinc is supposed to be helpful although for most things food is the medicine

I rarely forget lithium lately so that has to be good

didn't know vitamins shortened life expectancy, I must be running out of time to do all the stuff on my list!

Well it was some longitudinal thing, I think, and I don't remember exactly. These things are always confounded anyway.

don't want to live for toooo long anyway

20 years or so more should be pleny

not sure anyone in my family makes it past 80 which is quite old enough to be honest

Been to the pub, had too much to eat and drink

Surely not. On a Friday? Scandal.

I know, it's an outrage, isn't it?

what did you have?

I feel bad for that poor social worker and baby psychiatrist who sat there for half an hour over my appointment at LEAST while I wailed on at them.

Yes what did you have?

I had mussels then roast pork belly and two pints of ale. It was delicious.

Don't worry about wailing the psychiatrist, we're very used to it.

no pud?

No room and I don't generally eat puddings anyway. Have an eye on my weight at all times.

there is something oddly soothing watching or at least hearing about other people eating puddings

fully intend to broaden my range of interests any minute now though

I just are 1300kcal worth of oatcakes, nut butters, and milk, if that's any good to you

buggers up blood sugar beyond all redemption

I'm going to have to give this shit back to Mavis, I think.

^ate

Think I need to stop smoking this stuff. I don't want to get addicted to tobacco, I won't be able to tell if the pregabalin's working, it might be causing the anxiety in the first place, it smells horrible, it's making my lungs hurt, and I stopped wanting to, really, as soon as I stopped feeling singy and dancy and agitated and confused and wonderful. Everything that seemed like a good idea three weeks ago is seeming like a really really bad idea at the moment. Why am I such a fuckwit? What is wrong with my personality that makes me do stupid shit?

Oh and it's making me eat 1300kcal extra shit every time I smoke.

Also I have said way too much on this thread and my previous ones and am beginning to wish mental health threads disappeared the way chat threads do, or that at least I'd had the gumption to post in 30 days only or something. Stupid stupid fucker.

you could ask for it to be deleted if it's bothering you? I can't see what you've said about yourself that is so awful in the context of this board as a whole but 1. not v observant or sensitive as too busy thinking about self usually and 2. if it makes you feel uncomfortable it makes you feel uncomfortable

have a Saturday morning hug anyway

am desperate to start work on the muddy pony (we also have stuff to do with the orange one, and need to muck out other people's as a returned favour, plus I need a short run or a long walk or won't cope well later in day) but need co-operation of recalcitrant teen who insists she is too tired to get up GRRR