HTT are handing me over

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Woop! Just got a call asking if I wanted to be visited today (er, no, ta) and telling me that they're about to call CMHT to hand me over to them. Finally getting off this daily checking up soon I hope

Yeah, maybe. I'll just have to go anyway and ignore the fact it's no fun, since I've only just prepaid this month. Also am fat and ate 600kcal of peanut butter yesterday, which will take about two hours to work off.

hopefully you will enjoy it once you get started

sometimes the first 30 seconds are the worst but by then it's too late, you could always tell yourself you only have to do ten or twenty minutes and have permission to go after that (but will prob go on to complete routine anyway?)

am trying to like Homeland, just watched s4ep4 (I think? Was first one on 4od) but is irritating to think someone with bipolar can hide in plain sight like that, running international intelligence operations maybe she's not hiding, maybe they know? But episode closed with her seducing some young vulnerable virgin asset that she'd falsely promised asylum and a place at KCL to continue his medical training and that seems like behaviour everyone can relate to

Maybe. I'll just tell myself to walk there for a start.

I don't know any bipolar people; maybe some are really good at hiding it? The only ones I've met have been in hospital, at which point it's usually pretty obvious.

I watched the first episode of Homeland and found it boring. I think I drifted off and started doing something on the internet.

I did have a friend with schizophrenia once whom nobody would ever have suspected of being ill. His Valium addiction, however, was obvious.

Disaster. Headphones missing.

Oh goody. Found them.

I like to wear my headphones when I go out. It means I get to choose whether or not to interact with people. I wore them throughout the psychiatric appointment but I hope he didn't notice as I kept my hood up. Just cuts the edges off things, too. And also can't go to the gym without them.

Does that sound odd? It doesn't seem to be unusual to wear headphones all the time in my age group.

It sounds odd to an old gimmer like me but if you feel more comfortable wearing earphones then wear them.

You don't seem old… but then I guess it depends on your definition of old

And definitely headphones, not earphones because I have tiny lugholes and earphones hurt. Koss PortaPro, to be specific.

Nice headphones.

Thanks for saying I don't sound old even though I suspect I'm quite a bit older than you.

I have been a model of efficiency today and am ready to head home at 17:03. Hurrah.

Rah. Success! I'm impressed.

And thank you for saying my headphones are nice Most people laugh at them cause they're so retro they've gone right past fashionable and back into unfashionable. I picked them because they sound GOOOOD.

Gym was a bit crap. Gave up after half an hour as they were painting the weights room and I couldn't stop wheezing. But I WENT multiplegodsdammit.

I'm 28. Suspect no more, your suspicions being either confirmed or dashed to smithereens.

FWIW, I've never found age to correlate well with oldness. Or indeed maturity.

I'm 43 but I feel like 23, and probably have the same level of maturity.

Assuming you're using old as a pejorative anyway. I tend not to think about people's ages on MN as I'm terrible at gueßing. I do usually assume they're women though.

43? You're lots younger than my DP. Not old.

Fraid you don't get to legitimately for a while yet.

Thanks for the reassurances

How are you feeling today? Started the pregabalin yet?

No, not taken any pregabalin yet as a bit anxious about taking it

Feeling mostly better than yesterday thanks.

I'd quite like to be quite a bit older than I am.

Anxious about taking an anxiety med, vicious circle that one.

Glad to hear you're feeling better today.

Have you any plans for the weekend? I'm going riding in the morning, as usual and then to friends for dinner tomorrow night. Sunday will probably be spent recovering.

I'm kind of anti-meds, despite chatting a lot about different ones on-thread.

I just found out that valproate in under-18s can cause PCOS, so thanks for that, too, doctor-who-put-me-on-atypical-antipsychotics-for-years.

I wonder if she thinks about all the patients living with the lifelong side effects of the drugs she prescribed while telling them there were none.

I'm going to get high do lots of healthful exercise.

Probably need to buy food.