HTT are handing me over

[EnpoTree]

Woop! Just got a call asking if I wanted to be visited today (er, no, ta) and telling me that they're about to call CMHT to hand me over to them. Finally getting off this daily checking up soon I hope

Haven't heard that song in a long time. Thanks for the reminder.

Sort of mitchy. It's still not really talked about although my dad is getting better at acknowledging it. My mum died last year.

it is really hard to know when stuff is within normal adolescent range and when to medicalise/pathologise behaviours though

felt like we had all served our time in various family therapies so was not keen to go crawling back to CAMHS when it was obvious that youngest child needed more support - luckily it barely exists now

sorry about your mum

Thanks for the flowers. Her anniversary is coming up and I'm dreading it.

Sorry to hear about your mum Mental. Hope the anniversary isn't too bad.

I grew up in a house with two copies of DSOTM.

Have just got off the phone to my mum who has apparently taken pregabalin and says it's not so bad. Though her contention was "why can't they just give you a bit of diazepam" So I feel a bit better about taking it.

So do you think you'll give the pregabalin a whirl then?

will you be in NY for it or otherwise have anything planned? I hope it won't be too hard

for someone with a poor grasp of the passage of time am affected by anniversaries I think, in 3 weeks it will be the anniversary of my cousin's death from complications arising from that most fatal of all mental disorders, she was in her early 30s, she had looked well actually so it was an awful shock

(not all my relatives are mentals, there are a lot of us so even if mental disorders are overrepresented there are still plenty of normals eg: have 6 siblings and about 3 or 4 of those pass for normal in the wider world)

Really bad timing for me to be talking about having rung my mum, sorry

She'd tried to contact me today to commiserate about the anxiety of told my dad about as it happens. Not sure if she knows I've been up though; I could understand if he hadn't passed that on.

I think I'm going to try the pregabalin; see what it does.

I have lots of mental relatives too. Mood disorders, eating disorders and OCD/anxiety type things, mostly.

The anniversary is the beginning of December and I'll be spending it with my family. We can then all start dreading Christmas!

I have a couple of mental relatives. Mental illness runs through my family like Brighton through rock

anxiety I'd.

And been "up".

Oh really quite soon then Mental.

report back so we can be reassured that the nocebo effect in form of sudden death hasn't kicked in Enpo

Ha . Would save me a lot of bother.

is it working yet?

tragic Friday night, in bed already but work starts early tomorrow on muddy rodeo machine (someone coming to try him on Sunday afternoon! First person to not be put off by the honest description in advertisement!) so need to remind him what walk, trot and canter are and how to jump (at least we have lovely new jumps)

then there is the mixed blessing of the man-in-my-life cooking for me and mutual friends in his scarily clean flat (I always leave a trail of mud, my hair, animal hair, half sucked nicotine lozenges) it will be fun but hard to get away for early night and RACE early Sunday

I haven't taken it yet Putting it off til ten.

Sounds like an excellent plan for a weekend, Mitchy.

My plan is already going to plan.

And you will know her by the trail of hair - oh gods yes. I lost loads of weight really quickly earlier this year (very quickly at first - 12lb in two weeks at one point in the early stages) and at least fifty per cent of my hair fell out. I was leaving everywhere carpeted in the stuff. Clogged every vacuum, plugged every drain…

I've taken 15mg of diazepam which was prescribed in 2012 and probably out of date, don't think they degrade into anything interesting but maybe less effective?

what was your plan?

Smoking.

I've taken diazepam that had lived naked in a mint tin in my handbag for two years and it was fine.

take zinc it should help

hair takes ages to catch up even when diet inproves, months I think

had alopecia as a teen but am not Gail Porter