I am putting this here so it goes away. Please hold my hand

[hathorinareddress]

But at the same time I was going to name change but I don't want to because I want to be able to find this again if I need to in the future and because (on the back of the PND thread even though this isn't PND) I have nothing to be ashamed of.

If any of you recognise me in my previous names please don't out me on this thread.

I am going to ring the doctor and get an emergency appointment and see if they can give me antidepressants or something to help I am crying I can't stop I'm stressed I'm not sleeping and my DP told me last night I am over thinking everything and tying myself in knots and could I please go and do something

So I came home in a strop with him and in tears but he's right.

My ex is a head wreck and very difficult to deal with.

I'm a single parent.

I work part time and go to uni full time.

I am having gynae issues and bleeding out every month for 2 or 3 days to the point where I last an hour before I'm soaked through.

I'm so tired just so so tired and I can't sleep

I have a bad shoulder and it hurts all the time it's the hand/arm I use the most and I have to do tons of typing and sitting at the computer for uni and driving and it hurts and I am swallowing ibuprofen every day and they aren't helping

So I am going to ring the doctor this morning and get an emergency appointment and tell them how bad I feel.

I'm scared. Stupid stupid stupid scared.

Well done for going. You have so much on your plate it's no wonder you are not coping. And not coping is ok. It's nothing to be ashamed of. This is your mind and body telling you that you are not in fact superwoman and need to look after yourself.

Wonderful!!

Well done you! I'm glad the GP has asked to see you again next week - this is a very good sign that she's going to help you get sorted out.

great news

Great news, and well done you.

OP I skimmed only as I am rushing out but I wanted to respond because I think this might help. If you are bleeding heavily please get your iron levels checked. It is so easy to become aenemic (sp??) in that situation without realising it and you would be astounded to know how important iron is in the body. If you are low in iron (and if you are bleeding heavily then you almost certainly are) then you will feel tired, weepy, unable to cope for much of the time. It takes a while for iron stores to build up in the body but when they do you will be amazed at how different you feel (this is all from personal experience)

Thank youall really.

Have to see her next week - she's made the appointment so that it's her again and not any of the other doctors - she was so nice.

And I'm crying again.

FFS.

anyone? (sorry I know I shouldn't but i need my coffee)

I'm so pleased for you - you were really brave going and so happy she is taking care of you. Now have that cuppa and take care of yourself. Sending a hug x

Can we go back to being vipers now?

Yes please BIWI we'll be getting someone from HQ on here in a minute having stern words because you're tarnishing the good name of MN by being too nice

I haven't been in so long she didn't know about the divorce or anything and she was amazed I'd not been and that I'd just coped with it all.

(I'd seen a couple of docs about the heavy bleeding but not mentioned the divorce and then just rung through for repeat scripts coz I knew if I went in there and got her as the doc I'd burst in tears and I was ashamed)

So pleased she's taking everything so seriously! Hope she also warned you that you can feel a bit worse before starting to feel better on AD's so don't let that panic you!! She does sound like an ace doctor!! Well done and get better soon.

Maryz - I was a smear dodger too have to get that done.

And she's referring me for my shoulder too (forgot that bit)

I wish I'd gone months ago.

Although I have all these tablets now just sitting here looking at me.

And I have to take them. DP has texted "you better fucking take them"

He really was very very cross last night. Which was the kick up the arse I needed I think.

she warned me of that - that I might feel worse for a few days.

Thanks everyone - I will start taking them on Saturday, the doc knows that we discussed it.

In the meantime they're here. Just looking at me.

Might take the sleeping tablet tonight though to get some kip because I am really quite desperately in need of sleep.

Well done and great result.

Now tell your DP to stop being cross with you

Or right all the time

That's great news. Really, it's brave to admit to someone else that you think there's something wrong in your head. :)

It's hard to say it. And the doctor was amazed I'd not been sooner and said some of it could be anaemia and thyroid related. She also remarked that I looked terrible she said she was doing the blood tests but that she could see by looking at me I was anaemic because I'm so pale

TBH, hathor, you sound so much better already! Glad it all went well for you.