I am putting this here so it goes away. Please hold my hand

[hathorinareddress]

But at the same time I was going to name change but I don't want to because I want to be able to find this again if I need to in the future and because (on the back of the PND thread even though this isn't PND) I have nothing to be ashamed of.

If any of you recognise me in my previous names please don't out me on this thread.

I am going to ring the doctor and get an emergency appointment and see if they can give me antidepressants or something to help I am crying I can't stop I'm stressed I'm not sleeping and my DP told me last night I am over thinking everything and tying myself in knots and could I please go and do something

So I came home in a strop with him and in tears but he's right.

My ex is a head wreck and very difficult to deal with.

I'm a single parent.

I work part time and go to uni full time.

I am having gynae issues and bleeding out every month for 2 or 3 days to the point where I last an hour before I'm soaked through.

I'm so tired just so so tired and I can't sleep

I have a bad shoulder and it hurts all the time it's the hand/arm I use the most and I have to do tons of typing and sitting at the computer for uni and driving and it hurts and I am swallowing ibuprofen every day and they aren't helping

So I am going to ring the doctor this morning and get an emergency appointment and tell them how bad I feel.

I'm scared. Stupid stupid stupid scared.

Apparently I will be spending a lot of time "resting" and getting "waited on hand and foot". And I have a feeling I will be drugged up to the eyeballs and I won't be allowed to argue.

What a lovely DP you have! Will massage, chocolate and alcohol be involved in there somewhere as well?

Morning Hathor, bad news about the shoulder. Be open with your GP, she will be able to help if you are. And your plan for the weekend sounds grand. As does your DP.

There better be massage and chocolate. Not sure about alcohol with the tablets

Did I never tell you all the story about when we got back together after we'd split? It's soppy a bit though might not be suitable for MN

GP has given me different tabs to take for shoulder and done a referral. Meh.

On the whole she's happy with me although I'm very anaemic so I've to take iron but I kind of guessed that anyway.

I like a good romance! Spill ...

Well, ok then since you asked.....

I'm grinning like a loon even thinking about it

We had been together and split for stupid reasons - I was very busy, he was very busy, we just didn't have time - but we stayed friends. Used to see each other occasionally socially and chat and laugh and stuff and text and phone each other every day but no romance .

(I should add one of my best friends was always going on at me about us being perfect together and how we should get back together)

So I was a bit stressed with life the universe and everything and he asked me down for a DVD and take away night.

Cue much much much angst and many phone calls to my friend about "OMG will he make a move on me? I don't think I want him to. OMG what if he doesn't fancy me does he fancy me will he want to shag me OMG what if what if what if "

So, down goes I to his house. Determined, after many late night phone calls to mate that I was JUST going for a DVD and a takeaway and there was no sex on the agenda and I was reading the signs all wrong.

Knock the door. He opens the door. I step in. He kisses me before the door is even shut.

We adjourn upstairs.

Afterwards, we are lying in bed and he brings me a and as he's handing it to me (and I'm still dozy in bed) he says

"if you reach your hand out your bar of chocolate is on the bedside table"

I said "you were confident"

He just laughed.

That's very sweet and funny.

It's good you're getting referred for your shoulder.

Enjoy your weekend of massage and chocolate. :o

. Nice story! Funny guy too.

Spatone sachets are a not too bad way of taking iron. Mix with orange juice.

He's very funny and very sweet

I feel like a fricking sick person now looking at all these tablets. Fuckksake last week I only took hayfever tabs and paracetamol.

Well at the moment you are a sick person! But you are getting better. And you WILL get better. You just need to knuckle down and approach this the way I would imagine you approach other challenges. Just do it. You need to take the tablets to start the healing process. You also need rest, relaxation and healthy food. And a good multivit supplement. And the iron. And once your shoulder and period issues are sorted and you build your strength back up you will again be a person who only takes hay fever tabs and paracetamol!

Have you ever had acupuncture? Can be very helpful for the 'whole' person - can help allergies, hormonal issues and pain. Might be worth thinking about.

What a lovely story!

Like Buda says, you are ill. We are starting to see green shoots. Keep on with your tablets, especially those new ones for your shoulder.

Anyway, only one more sleep till your weekend of pampering.

I cannot wait til tomorrow.

I am planning ... sex bath, sex, takeaway, sex, cuddles on the sofa sex, tablets sex sleep

Haven't thought about Saturday yet thought

Great plan! :o

D'ya think I might wear him out? [snurk]

I should've got the doc to give me the wee blue pills ...

Chrikey. Poor bloke won't know what's hit him!

I don't think he'll be complaining.

If he's anything like me, no you won't wear him out. :o :o

And even if you do....... What a way to go!

I can't wait. Ex is being a dickhead (not totally his fault but it's still stressing me) and he's also moved the drop off kids time so I won't be down in the afternoon it'll be teatime but OMG I cannot wait.

Really stressed and headachey and meh this morning.

Know I have to say something to ex when I drop the kids off and am dreading it.

So tense and nervous.

What do you have to say to him? Can't you just let it go? (sorry, obviously I don't know the background and I'm trying not to be nosey yes I am)

Just let yourself focus on the sex how much you're going to enjoy being with DP instead, if you can.

And take some tablets for your headache .... [bugrin]

Hang on I posted it on another thread will cut n paste if you gimme 2 secs ...

I'm making you pour your lifestory out here, aren't I? [bugrin]