Thank you for your lwoovely , lovely post choc . I wasn't expecting you to post - perhaps for a few days - as you say you don't process written word easily when v stressed .
When you say it's been too many days in a row of feeling as bad as you have for it not to be meds , do you mean you're thinking the meds are causing you problems ? < v dim , sorry >
When you mentioned the issues with family & work friend , giant lightbulbs came on for me . Very distressing about work friend on several levels, but sounds wise to be extrememly wary of her. No nder you've been feeling dreadful .
Re : your relatives , I'm going to make the ludicrously sweeping statement that when my friends have had longterm mh struggles of the sort you describe , at the root of the problem a sense of - as you describe so well - insecurity with their choices when at odds with parents .
I've been wondering for a while whether to ask whether you've looked again at that part of your life ... why don't you talk to therapist / keyworker who's trying to work out how you can move forward with treatment . In my experience , though , a less experienced therapist may see this type of family problem as totally normal - , where more experienced one & anyone who's worked "through" such issues , sees how damaging these dynamics may be .
Nose still not quite sharp enough , thank you , best get back to it - I need a skype bicep - flexing emoticon here !
Thinking of you often , Keziah emoticon . So hope you're getting some rest after v stressful wek , and that all is well .
Hope we all have a good evening .