Keziah, City, Choc et al support thread

[Keziahhopes]

Hi - found us a new home. Just didn't like the title of my old thread - and have found your support so helpful but would also like this thread to be less egocentric .

Choc -hope cbt assessment goes well.

City - how are you doing?

My physio exercises are helping me, but don't see stroke consultant until beginning of July. Still not had OT assessment, but dont' think will need it by then - just been horrible for dh to do everything for me since Easter. Now more independend - just had my first shower by myself!!

Oh thatwas a nasty virus for dd and ages for her to have been home - must indeed have been really intense . Hope she v soon resumes her normal eating .

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay for feeling pretty good , & brilliant you managed group & enjoyed < puts soft blanket over Choc for nap when winds down >

Am with you on the feelig helpless behind our pcs . PM us if you want to chat won't you, Keziah< sendbombards K and DM with positive vibes >

Aaaaargh snails ... I let one munch its way through some cat treats that I'd put on patio puss hadn't found - could that be the way forward , tempting them away from our poor plants .

Don't know about the fairy dance hall fungal problem but will look up < future blowdries Choc's lawn > .

Lots of love to you both and we're thinking of you , Keziah < and hope ds not out of kilter with naps xxx

Yes very intense future. And so much for feeling pretty good. Having bounced my way to see my gp yesterday a.m. saying how good I've been feeling the last 3 days or so, it all came crashing down p.m. triggered by an incident with dd. I just don't know what to do with her. We move one step forward then two steps back. I'm exhausted. I can't do another school year like this. I just feel completely helpless. I'm reluctant to talk to gp about her because I'm scared she'll be labelled so young. But on the other hand it doesn't seem to be working. She is so extreme. It's making me panic. < choc wonders whether there's boot camp for children who 'aren't-quite-right-but you-can't-figure-out-why>.

Can't believe this week has flown by. Hope you managed to do some of the things you'd hope you would with dh home. How is your dm doing? Yours too Keziah? I imagine you're probably visiting - she's lucky to have you .

I didn't know snails eat cat treats!! Neighbour has a cat so maybe the snails should check her garden out for treats!

Oh so sorry it's been so extreme , Choc .... you need support coping with dd but agree with your concerns about labels < helpful > Why arent there any groups magically abvailable of grandmother-age mums who've seen it all before ? when you wouldn't think that possible. Well, Keziah will have brilliant advice when things have settled down with her Mum -
sending love & prayers , Keziah , and dread to think how worrying & exhausting the visits must be . Choc so right about you being a fabulous daughter . Really praying the pain issues arr better managed & soon explained.

What , Choc - you mean you & dd haven't already lured next door's puss over ? Of course , if you put cat treat snail attractors out , you'll be mobbed by foxes too
love to you both & sorry not a complete post xxx

Your reply means a lot future . Today has been a struggle with pins & needles. Definitely worst yet - it's reached my lower face and it feels weird . I'm not imagining it but so scared of being dismissed by hcps.

We trend not to lure cat over (don't want him digging up vege beds ) - in fact cat is scared of dd and nearly always runs a mile because she's so loud . Certainly do not want foxes .

Here's hoping you're bearing up Keziah. Thinking positive thoughts for you.

Thank you lovely Choc - thanks completely < sniffles hopelessly at undeservedthanks > How are the p& n today ? Sorry didn't come back for ages - horrible for p&n and odd feeling to have to happen now ... I feel awful for wailing on about hcps having disbelieved me Most GPs are much more aware &respectful now

We know the way it works in the UK is you usually have to take same symptom several times before investigated more thoroughly which can lead to great misunderstandings or patient slinking away to worry further ... but please don't fall into that trap either likeI did with several conditions it is good to get into the process of diagnosising this

If you do experience further ups & downs getting this looked at ., you can build a little support system as you waiting to see whether p&n goes or you need to go back till any , hopefully minor, cause is found such as pinched nerve/ cramped muscles causing pressure on nerves < dr city failed that module >
will PM you with suggestion a friend gave me for appts , but probably not very useful for atm . Would definitely ask for emergency appt with GP tomorrow , and might be an idea to go to A&E if face still feeling v strange-obviously Keziah has advises a&e .
If face still feeling strange & could be of any help , very welcome to PM me saying how face feels as a sounding board as to how concerned anothe r person might be Or even better , post in Gen Health .

Just have to remember that even A&E might probably still only be start of a fairly long process to find answer or exclude neck problems etc , hyperventilation , thyroid -but you can do it , we're here, Mners will help and there are other source of support , which might also help with the extra pressues you're under with dd .

Heh heh Choc , do you really think your garden isn't a foxes' playground at night ? Maybe not , if they're not leaving presents
All cats flee the noise of all dc !! < soothes felines >Hope you can feel wel enough to gt some sunshine todayxxx

Sending loads of love , Keziah , so very sorry you're having so much
worry . I know how I would be feeling. Really hope it's not too complex or extra serious and God knows how you're supposed t get enough rest to recover from bad infection & deal with ds < joins Choc in feeling very helpless >xxx

< waves to Choc in case of late visit and Keziah in case Mning whils doing night wakings/ feeds >
, though hope you are both getting a good sleep ... What did I mean earlier "thank you completely ? Think was for completely undeserved thanks
< addled >

Really hope you are feeling better, Choc - sorry still haven't PM ed as have been visiting FIL for birthday , but tip not really useful yet- if at all ... but am determined you will get better peer support so this summer will be less unrelenting than would otherwise be
< sprinkles super-strength sleeping dust >

Praying things will soon improve for DM & your family , Keziah

Take care you twoxxx

Hi sorry not really around - don't easily have internet access. Please don't worry, but would appreciate kind thoughts as life is not easy right now. Baby ds is being amazing! xx

You are brilliant amazing Keziah to think of us at such a hard time . Sending love , hugs and prayers and hoping for some better news for you & your family .
Please do all you can to look after yourself as well as your loved ones < wishes the odd orange or bio yoghurt would protect as much as I'd like it to and realises has brought out the giant rolls of cottonwool again >
< catches Chocby surprise instead , wrapping her tightly in it >

Aaaaaaaaaaaaah at baby son ... just when we soppy cyberaunties thought we couldn't be more besotted . Glad he is helping his Mummy and hope he likes his first taste f blazing summer.

How are you feeling , good Choc ? Been trying not to worry but not suceeding - sorry haven't posted but been thinking about you as you can imagine
< hands round icecreams and hopes sunshine has comforting effect >

Am doing well and DM trying hard to be more open to options which would make he more settled and secure in the long term .You would smile seing DH & I in garden , trying to snatch victory from the slimy ones

... and thank you Keziah for worrying about us not worrying !xxx

Hi just to let you know sad news - my dm passed away. Was with her. Am to and fro now planning the funeral, so little internet access. Will post and pm more in coming weeks, but for now have to "do". Milk supply is fading, which am sad about also.

((((((((Keziah))))))) am in tears for you . So very , very sorry . Glad you were with your DM and many hugs to you and beloved baby son

Dh sending condolences .

Hugs to you Choc , who will be so sad for you .
Thank you so much for posting and also saying about net access . Love and prayersxxx

((((((Keziah)))))) more hugs from me to you. Sending my condolences at this very sad time. I'm pleased you were able to be with your dear mum when she passed and hope you are able to find some comfort in those final moments - if not now, then in the future. Sorry about your milk supply - i think it's the shock - I do understand your sadness though. Extra little hug for ds (I hope he's not too unsettled by the changes). I'm sure dh is supporting you both well.

Sorry to worry you, future. I should have posted a very short message on Tues when I saw K's post. But wasn't thinking straight. Since my last post I'd been suffering terribly with a migraine and Tues was the first day of good health. I'm just battling the exhaustion now and last night woke up on rug in lounge. Good to hear you're doing well. Things with your dm sound more promising too.

Will hopefully be around a bit more xx

Many hugs to you too, Choc , who fiound such lovely words at such a hard time . Sorry too Keziah about milk supply , upsetting for you but baby son has had all these months of it already, amazing achievemnet< clumsy >

Oh God Choc at days-long migraine. Wish I could donate my painless ones . Think this weather sets them off . Sorry for worrying you with my fretting ! Hope you feel OK and weather will be calm but still nice for outdoor time .
love to you bothxxx

< little wave from choc >

Don't fear, I have already been to sleep - went to sleep with dd as had headache and didn't want it to be another migraine - but woke up an hour ago. Yes please future do donate you painless migraines . I read somewhere that the average length of time for a migraine is 22 hours - I'm not usually far off that.

I'm rather stressed today as saw occ H again - think that triggered headache. Now enjoying the less oppressive air following the early evening torrential downpour here. Did manage to spend time in park with dd.

Soothing thoughts to Keziah, flowers too if they help. Oh have some more hugs too < choc wonders if there's anything she can do to help > xxxx

< waves back to Choc , hoping is headache-free >
Me too on asking Keziah that...feeling helpless here

Thread medal of the highest order for getting throught that yesterday , Choc , and please do not bottle up stress if I can be useful ear . Hope you get some resting-outdoors time this weekend

< wraps Choc's dd in spare cottonwool to give her mum a brief rest >
< dd breaks out in seconds, more energetic than ever >

Many hugs , Keziah , and prayers xxxxx

^< wraps Choc's dd in spare cottonwool to give her mum a brief rest >
< dd breaks out in seconds, more energetic than ever >^

future, I needed that laugh!! Tomorrow is rest day . Not headache-free but not debilitating. Painkillers aren't really working but the pain is manageable.

Still in our thoughts Keziah xx

grrr where's the italics when you need them?!!

*ChOc> Aaaaaargh at still having headache ... please remember to keep a note , along with any other symptoms . You might see patterns to them - I certainly did , especially but you probably daren't look at screen for too long atm
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/general_health/1524472-Migraine
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/am_i_being_unreasonable/1523822-To-think-migraine-tablets-should-get-rid-of-a-migraine -please don't listen worry about the doomsayersGlad pain manageable & will talk migraines as long as you can standlike , have foun lots to help .

Hope time off helped massively !

Fervently hoping dd and K's baby son will be able to rest a bit in day time atm

Very much in our thoughts , Keziah... hoping you will feel unexpected periods of calm , & strength xxx

Bless you both. Seems weird that I have one cancelled christening and now planning a funeral. Am travelling to and fro, which 3hrs each way at worst with a baby is hard work. Funeral not yet, due to delay with coroner's paperwork so home now for a few days. Had to take over lots of actual things for my familly which means am in "doing" mode, so no time for my brain - which may not be a bad thing. Mum's condition was such that there was nothing one could do, was with her in last days. Ds was amazing, but playing up now as so used to being held all those days (had to hold him as only had pram with me, as it wasn't expected until the end so I visited her and ended up staying and not coming home!!)

think I will crash very much in following weeks.

Ouch for migraines. Hope the Occ H appointment went better than last one Choc for you. Were they supportive of you this time?

Sunny weather good for getting out for dd Choc so hope that helps.

Was so looking forward to Olympics, as love the different sports you don't normally see on normal tv, but have no interest right now - but will watch some whilst feeding Ds. Am determined to get milk supply back - though he is over 20wks now so soon be weaning.

Ah Keziah thanks for the update. It sounds like you are coping so admirably right now at such an emotional time. You are definately a rock-in-a-crisis kind of lass . Try not to worry about any potential forthcoming crashes - we can deal with any then (don't forget we'll be here for a bit of away-from-RL contact/distraction - oh maybe that's enough to worry you ). Hope you managing to sleep ok. It's admirable you're trying to get your milk supply back. Have you got support on how to do it? I'd recommend La Leche League if you haven't.

future although I'm very religious at keeping a note of my P&N symptoms I hadn't bothered with the headaches or migraines. The migraines I've got since not working have been less frequent but more painful and of longer duration. This weeks are noted though.

Occ H appt was much better than last one. Dr was definitely more human and was much more knowledgeable about mental health issues which helped massively.

Hope you managed to catch some of the Olympics Keziah (interested future?). I wouldn't say I was looking looking forward to the games however I wasn't not looking forward to them. I still want to watch the opening ceremony so will hopefully do so sometime soon. I watched my first bit of sport today with DD (womens beach volleyball GBR vs Canada) who was getting quite interested and excited, screaming out "we've won!!!" at the end of the match . < choc congratulates self for managing to raise such a patriotic child!!! >

Keziah , you are beyond amazing . So sorry , mis posted earlier & just lost another one , so will have to come back when more human ...

So upset for you Keziahabout cancelled Christening and hope there will be some unforeseen time where you have a spiritual /comforting moment to help you about that . Am just agog at your efforts for your family ,& agree with what you say ,Choc about any future crash .

You are brilliant at knowing what to do & say at horrible times , Choc . So glad this occ h doctor was better .
Have been having nice calm times here , very grateful
lots of love to you bothxxx

Choc I am just sitting and feeding on demand, which is what the health visitor said to do ... little ds is not so little, in fact he has put on nearly 2lb in 5 weeks, wow!! Weaning starts in 4/5 weeks... eek!

Choc proud of your patriotic little dd... I have been watching lots of Olympics whilst feeding. Good distraction.

Glad OH appointment better - any chance of support from them?

Don't feel am coping, just numb and doing. Away again this weeknd, doing funeral prep etc. So got to sort things out at home and keep ds in some sort of routine. He slept through last night - and I went to bed at 9pm!! 11 whole hours.

My cpn on holiday now - not the best of timing!!

Hope lots of olypmics enjoyed by us all so we can relax and not worry about our gardens during all this rain!! I watched gymnastics whilst podding peas today, whilst giving ds a pea pod to hold to keep him busy (holding him between my knees) - he decided to gnaw on it... I did think that was baby led weaning gone a bit mad, but thankfully he decided it wasn't a toy and threw it on the floor!!

Am a bit hyper ... need to calm down before bed.

Chosen Deep Peace by John Rutter for opening music for funeral ....

So sorry you feel you're not coping, Keziah . You are doing extra amazingly , in that case , with managing so many tasks .
You don't sound as though you are trying to "avoid" the agonising emotions < clumsy > Numbness is the main sensation I remember with my Dad at the same point , and that was not at all sudden , which must increase such a feeling .

Deep Peace has my favourite words ever & there are such beautiful arrangements / versions ( obviously too identifying to say which here ) Very glad you've found the right piece of music .

< applauds ds' incredible weight gain and hangs thread medal on nursery wall > & aaaaaaaaaaaah at ds nearly weaning himself on raw peapod , then throwing it down for being insufficiently amusing .... he knows how to make his cyberaunties smile . Wow wow wow that he will beweaning in around a month >

Oh no at cpn being on holiday . I guess the team is still contactable ?- but I think I remember there was no answer last time you needed cpn ?
Can GP offer any support till cpn returns ... I guess you would have gone to them by now if you thought they would be .
Have you seen any of the links on the new resources thread here in MH ? Wondering if there are any local drop-ingroups which might help , but you can hardly be feeling up to them yet ..

I like the Olympics too- so good you have been able to watch some . I missed the women's football & it doesn't seem to be on catch-up service .
< takes dd and ds to education tent to show them alternative perspectives on nationalism >

PS Hope you were able to calm down for sleep , Keziah , and that you are reasonably OK Choc for a summer holiday week .Has dd mentioned taking up any sport which would channel her energy for the next 15 years or so ?< witty >

Sorry am so lacking in interesting conversation - been more little outings here than climbing of cleaning mountains , as Dh needs some fun . He's having loads of follow -up tests from his new GP , which is brilliant .

Rain , Keziah ? Not too much here -well, load last night ...and the odd shower every few hours .Hope not so bad you two can't go into garden to watch slug bliss