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Anyone else hit-the-wall?

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GrumpiestOldWoman · 15/05/2020 17:01

I have lots to be grateful for, can WFH, big house, big garden, laid back kids/DH and I had been coping well with lockdown.

Really slumped now though, finding it hard to get my head into gear for work and a bit teary and down. I'm being disciplined about work/family time and have downtime at weekends but still find myself dreading Monday morning. Oh to be able to go for a swim/see a film/have a day out.

Has anyone else found it really tough just lately? What's keeping you going?

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JemimaPyjamas · 15/05/2020 17:03

Yes, me! More irritable than tearful a lot of the time. I’m also drinking too much wine, largely due to boredom

onemouseplace · 15/05/2020 17:05

Yes. I totally hit a wall today with homeschooling and was a complete arse towards my kids this afternoon - who are, to be fair, as tired and fed up with it as I am.

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GrumpiestOldWoman · 15/05/2020 17:07

Is it work or home that feels toughest Jemima?

For me it's work but I'm not sure it's the cause rather than it simply being hard to work effectively when feeling so urgh.

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Isitnextyearyet · 15/05/2020 17:09

Me too. My kids have been fantastic, I'm still working, we have a lovely walk each day. Nearly two hours on the beach today. But I am so so fed up. My children spend part of the week with their dad and I am done with my own company.

Would love a trip to the cinema, a wander in town, a coffee with a friend.

Sorry, haven't got any great tips on getting through. Clichéd one day at a time is what I've been focusing on so far but it's failing me just now.

Antibles · 15/05/2020 17:12

I hit a bit of a wall the other week. Just kept going and now feel quite normal again like I've got a second wind. It did coincide with the greyer weather though. Also realised I'd been having a couple of glasses of wine a night and despite that not sounding very much, it really wasn't helping so I've scrapped it.

Bathbedandbeyond · 15/05/2020 17:12

I am right at the edge of what I can cope with emotionally. I’m tearful. Failing at work (keyworker) and as a parent. I am so sick of life at the moment. I’ve lost all hope for returning to normality and my pre-lockdown life, which I loved cert very much. I’m completely broken. This is a ridiculous thing to say, but things feel so awful I’m not even bothered if I get Covid and die. I’m no use to my children, or anyone else at the moment.

rwalker · 15/05/2020 17:13

Been like this all week just can't honestly see an end to it .

hopeishere · 15/05/2020 17:13

I think it's partly the anticipation of "the weekend" when there isn't really a difference apart from not working. But all my work equipment is still set up. I find Sunday really, really long!!

cadburyegg · 15/05/2020 17:15

I’m the same. Was feeling quite up and down until a week ago and now I’ve just hit a wall. I don’t see the point of it all. My DH won’t have a job after July and I can’t see him getting another. I don’t know when I’m going to be able to hug my parents again. We are finding it harder and harder to homeschool, wfh and keep the toddler occupied.

Cherry111 · 15/05/2020 17:16

Yes, I've completed had it. I bumped my elbow the other day and started sobbing like an uncontrollable loon. My toddler is whinging all day, I'm fed up cooking and cleaning 24/7 and picking shit up. I want to be alone, and no one talk to me for at least a week. My motivation has gone right out the window and I feel so flat. It's horrible.

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GrumpiestOldWoman · 15/05/2020 17:16

Oh bath Cake Flowers

I'm hoping it's just a phase which will pass. I was the opposite antibles as I was quite cheerful whilst drinking but mainly eating my way through. Having stood on the scales I've stopped the constant munching and drinking and I look much healthier but have lost the holiday spirit too Sad

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Armi · 15/05/2020 17:19

I’m like this, too. Cried over a minor work thing - proper ‘head on the table’ tears - that normally I would barely have noticed. Very anxious and struggling to do anything. I make myself get up, shower, dress in clean clothes, do hair and make up but really I want to lie in bed. Working hard to keep DD happy and to get her school stuff done but feel it’s all such an effort.

I feel frightened and depressed, which isn’t like me at all.

Spinakker · 15/05/2020 17:20

I feel the same ! 3 active boys at home age 1,5 And 7. Trying to home school and feel a failure. Everyone's ending up with too much screen time and there's nothing i can do about it. I'm getting fatter by the day as well. Feels like I'm on a hamster wheel with no relief ! I'm trying to think of some radical way to escape my responsibilities ! Please hang in there people, this can't go on forever x

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GrumpiestOldWoman · 15/05/2020 17:21

I cried today thinking about Eurovision not happening, I never normally bother with it Sad Grin Confused

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MaureenMLove · 15/05/2020 17:22

This is absolutely the worst time of the week for me. Especially as the sun is out. My circle of friends are all finishing work and moving in to the garden for a beer and chill, as it's Friday.

I live on my own and it's a bit bloody sad. I am longing for a beer with friends, either in their garden or the pub garden.

It's all pants.

curious79 · 15/05/2020 17:22

I am at the end of my tether. I’m finding the essential oversight of my kids’ schoolwork really stressful. My company is going down the drain with turnover down 95%. I hate being constantly here at home, even though (I have to confess) we have a beautiful house. I want to be able to get out, socialise. I want to be able to plan a holiday. I feel like the government has stolen any ability for people to plan with its shit decision-making and ineffectual initial lockdown. Matt Hancock is opining on us not having holidays this year. Who the hell is he? The holiday spokesman? Putting quarantine into place when we’ve already got raging CV 19 across the country is a bit the horse has bolted

Wfhwithnoschool · 15/05/2020 17:25

I’m at the end of my tether. Really low, stressed and tired and told the kids to not even bother getting any schoolwork out today as they couldn’t bear it and neither could I.

Mercedes519 · 15/05/2020 17:26

I’ve found my people. Trying so bloody hard, getting organised with work and kids and home.

A work email this morning which I didn’t understand had me in tears. I never cry about work.

I then had a rant at someone about something which wasn’t their fault so now I feel awful for upsetting them. I have apologised but not good.

DD spent the day in a duvet nest on the sofa. She is wiser than me!

And now they want feeding again

ginsparkles · 15/05/2020 17:27

I had been, but today I went for a socially distance walk with my mum and I feel so much better. It feels like progress. We could chat about options for the next stages, and it felt really good to physically see her. The 2m felt weird but it's certainly better and feels like things are a bit brighter.

whatisforteamum · 15/05/2020 17:29

I think this week has been the hardest too.Personally I am blaming my strict new exercise regime.Also dh has more and more lie ins and it demotivated me.
I think this transitional phase is the hardest bit.Not knowing when ds or dh will go back to work or have jobs.Glad I am not alone.

monkeyonthetable · 15/05/2020 17:29

I have. Totally lost motivation. I can barely do the basics. All I want to do is read rubbish novels, scroll through FB and MN and sleep. Even basics like cooking and tidying up seem like a massive effort, and i usually do these on autopilot.

Beebyonthewold · 15/05/2020 17:33

This week has been the worst so far! And Friday nights are miserable, there is no real difference between the weekday and weekend apart from switching my laptop on. Plus my neighbours are having a BBQ and I have no one else to sit outside with a beer with.

LostandLockeddown · 15/05/2020 17:36

Yep me too. The ex declared he was too busy to have ds until further notice. I'm trying to work, shop (now with ds) and do the schooling thing. I've given up.

I lost my relationship too and I'm still so very sad about that. Feel like I have nothing to look forward to and feel shit for not having the mental strength to do better for ds just now.

I cried pretty much every day lately. I actually got drunk on my own last night and woke up on the sofa at 3am. What an idiot.

I'll sort myself out but feel very low

headachehenry · 15/05/2020 17:40

I'm feeling very sad today. Just don't see the point in anything any more.

All the talk of 'new normal', 'we'll have to deal with this for a LONG LONG time' from the government, furlough till October???? Schools going back but they won't and even in September we will be having the same arguments because it's never going to be safe for the next 18 months, and we are on this covid hamster wheel Groundhog Day thing that's so fucking pointless.

I've had some dark thoughts tbh.

derxa · 15/05/2020 17:43

I have. Went to breast clinic yesterday and it's likely I have breast cancer. Again. Very low and flat. DH is 350 miles away and I can't see him.