Anyone else hit-the-wall?

[GrumpiestOldWoman]

I have lots to be grateful for, can WFH, big house, big garden, laid back kids/DH and I had been coping well with lockdown.

Really slumped now though, finding it hard to get my head into gear for work and a bit teary and down. I'm being disciplined about work/family time and have downtime at weekends but still find myself dreading Monday morning. Oh to be able to go for a swim/see a film/have a day out.

Has anyone else found it really tough just lately? What's keeping you going?

[Thebearsbunny]

It happened to me about 2 weeks ago. I’m working from home, but very little to do. I can’t even be bothered with housework and cooking anymore. DP has just found out he’s being made redundant, and my job is under threat. If it wasn’t for our son I think I’d throw myself under a bus.

[chickedeee]

Made worse by my neighbours sitting in their garden sunbathing

[Nixen]

I thought today that at least if I ended up in hospital with COVID I would get a break and someone else would look after me for a change. That’s pretty fucked up isn’t it 😔

[XxrosesxX]

hi yes I have. I have a 2-year old and a 5-year old. My partner is working from home so that's quite nice. The problem is I'm getting more and more aware as time goes on on how this is affecting all of us. I mean we didn't go out every weekend doing loads of things but we did used to have a structure to our lives. My daughter used to have a swimming lesson on a Saturday morning and then we often got a McDonald's or something for dinner for a treat. Sunday's we would go to our local national trust park because it has a huge play area and the kids just have so much fun running around and playing with other children. Then we would go for a walk in the gardens at the back of the play area and it's just so peaceful and relaxing. We would often have a picnic there too. We were also supposed to go on holiday at Easter for a week. We had been counting down for 7 months and then we realised the month before that we just won't be able to go. Such a shame for the kids.
I was also looking through my phone earlier at older days out we had and all the things we've done as a family and it just hit me that we haven't done anything for so long now and there's no sign that we will be able too much anytime soon. it's also making me feel sluggish and fed up and my body just can't settle at night-time.

I just think it's mad that my children haven't even been in the shop for 2 months. it's just really hard on everybody now I think and everyone's starting to get more and more anxious and worried about the future and how this is all going to work out.

I've actually made a decision not to send my daughter back to school next month because I just don't like the plan. So now it's pretty much guaranteed we're home until September. I'm trying not to focus on my daughter never going back into reception and finishing off her first year at school in the play environment that is reception. I think we've all been robbed of alot because of this virus and it's ok to say you're struggling now.

[Oysterbabe]

I've hit a wall today.

I've had such a shit week. Really stressed trying to work from home and look after a 2 and 4 year old. Failing at both. I'm exhausted and today was sent over the edge by some people implying a terrible person for sending the kids to nursery next month. I've been quite tearful all day.
I’m looking forward to tasty pies that are lower in all the crap that’s for sale at the moment.

If YOU are in the high risk group then YOU stay at home. If YOU have symptoms then YOU stay at home. If YOU are scared of catching covid then YOU stay at home. If YOU want to keep your kids safe at home until there's a vaccine then crack on.
If I want to send my kids to nursery next month I will. Fuck off.

[Isitnextyearyet]

I'm really sorry to read about other's circumstances.

[Oysterbabe]

Haha!
At least I'm cheered up by phone randomly pasting something from a different thread in

[crackofdoom]

I was having a really bad day anyway- PMT, fasting to desperately try to lose some of the weight I put on in the first 5 weeks of lockdown, which went on oh-so-easily but didn't come off the same way, not enough sleep....

.I'm a LP to a reception and a Y5, they will. not. stop. bickering and screaming, and I'm autistic and the constant noise has been getting closer and closer to pushing me to the point of extreme burnout where I go effectively catatonic....and now the cunting, fucking school has declared that they're not going to have Reception kids back when they should, and all the fucking smug earth mummies are congratulating the head on Facebook for making the right decision.

...I just can't. I'm sitting here shaking. Is that even legal? I would start my own thread, but I just cannot deal with being ripped apart and told how selfish, evil etc etc etc I am for wanting, no, needing my youngest back at school.

[Thatbitchcarolebaskin]

I can feel my mental health getting worse and worse by the day. It’s a real struggle. I haven’t done any home schooling this week, all I have done is sat on my phone ignoring my kids. Any housework feels like a momentous task and I just can’t do it. The youngest two don’t stop whining and fighting. I just want them to fuck off. This is not me

[Whitewinetonight]

OP, half been thinking about a similar post myself. I have my family, we all have our jobs at the moment, okish house, lovely area, friends out there, but it's been a hard week.

I said I'd go back to one of my jobs despite knowing I wasn't comforable there before lockdown (I have a second job in retail which I'm a lot happier about), having a wobbly about that now. My friend working for a similar organization and has been in, telling me it was awful when she went in during the week. Another friend has lost her baby, another I know isn't replying (she's had depression when she moved away from family, so I'm worried about her). My Mum has hit the wall as well as she's in the over 70s and not seeing many people, hasn't got the simple freedom of chosing her own food. Just read Scottish unis are really going to struggle and may collapse as they have a high proportion of Scottish students, DD is at one of them

Really trying to stay strong. Am keeping myself as busy as I can, exercising, I love reading (and despite lockdown have a few to read) and I completely get lost in a jigsaw for a day, but ...

[derxa]

derxa I am so sorry. Thanks

[purplepandas]

So many having an utterly crap time. @Thatbitchcarolebaskin, I agree re MH. Mine is appalling and sliding further into an abyss.

[chunkyrun]

Yes turning into a slog. Nothing to look forward to. Miss being on my own. Fed up of just going on walks.

[AdoptedBumpkin]

I am getting a bit bored of things. The worry is if it drags on for months and begins to feel like a war rather than an extended school holiday.

[GrumpiestOldWoman]

and hugs (bugger social distancing) to everyone x

[GabrielleChanel]

Yes.
This is me. Have spent the day googling anti depressants

[DamnYankee]

Yes, Groundhog Day is getting to me.
Was exercising, cleaning, cooking, homeschooling, shopping, brushing up on professional skills, foreign languages, blah-blah-blah.
And then, the last two days >>> Bam!
And here's something I'm wondering if anybody else is experiencing:
Light sleeper now sleeping like the dead.
The kind of sleep where you might wake up for a moment after - and then feel "dragged" back under.
Very hard to get up in the morning, too.
And then feel like I'm treading through mud the rest of the day.
Not eating or drinking immoderately.
The uncertainty and constant moving of the Covid goalposts have just taxed my adrenal glands, I expect. (?) One can only sustain "fight or flight" mode for so long...

[backaftera2yearbreak]

Working from home.
The same routine.
A son who’s getting more and more sad by the day.
I’ve turned into a pathetic weepy mess. Bring back my routine. And don’t tell me there are people who are worse off. I know. I feel for them. But my feelings are valid too!

[Wishihadanalgorithm]

I’m a teacher and working from home (not doing live lessons but doing full on lessons via PPT then turning them into videos so more work than when I’m at school) and I hit the wall last week and still feel like I am there. Some of us have noticed the children are not putting the effort into their work now, even the Super keen Year 9 girls are making less of an effort and saying they can’t motivate themselves.

Apparently weeks 7 and 8 in Spain and Italy were the difficult weeks for people so I’m a hoping this will pass as it did for them.

It is difficult for everyone regardless of their situation and, whilst we may have a lot to be grateful for, there is still a huge amount of pressure and stress.

[GrumpiestOldWoman]

Yes damnyankee I could sleep for a week. Today first morning I've not been wide awake by 6.30. I'm weary rather than tired, I'm happy curled up with a book, but ask me to switch my laptop on...

[GrumpiestOldWoman]

Thanks wishihadanalgorithm the idea that this is a hump we'll get over is very welcome news, fingers crossed!

[Wishihadanalgorithm]

derxa I am sorry you have had such shitty, awful news.

[whatisforteamum]

Thank you to the poster who said they felt like this last week and it passed.
I need.to remember this😁

[yearinyearout]

Yep. I don't even have young kids or have to go to work as I've been furloughed so I can't say I'm stressed.

But, I'm waking up every morning with a feeling of dread, I'm generally irritable and having regular tearful breakdowns, and to top it all I'm pigging out on junk.

[TheDogsMother]

I've coped through 7 weeks then have become someone who breaks down at the slightest thing. Ddog was put to sleep (all very sudden), should have been getting married last Saturday, then a depressing though not life threatening health issue (after a very scary few days). I don't even let myself think about work and financial future. Perhaps we all have an in built limit to locking down.