Hey everyone, I’ve generally resisted joining the TTC threads because they tend to send me insane, but I feel in need of a bit of company at the moment and hopefully I can also provide some to everyone else on this difficult but hopeful journey we’re all on.
My history is CP (at 4.5) in Nov 2021, MMC (at 8.1) in 2022, baby born in 2023, MMC (at 8.1 again) at end of July 2024. We found out that the MC this year was genetically abnormal, Trisomy 15. And the consultant said that the previous ones were very likely also genetic issues given timing and the fact that I had a successful pregnancy in-between. All RMC tests have come back normal, except we’re waiting for our karyotyping results.
My cycle has been very strange since the MMC and I haven’t really felt like we’ve had much of a chance in any of the cycles since, didn’t ovulate one cycle, late ovulation falling when OH was away (twice - SIGH), then two randomly very short luteal phases. All I want is to be pregnant again and hopefully finally complete our family, so it’s been a frustrating and difficult few months. I console myself with the fact that probably being a little bit older when their sibling arrives is better for our current LO, and also that I have a major thing due in April that would never have got done if I’d got pregnant before now. But it still sucks, especially as i’m 38 and have that time-not-on-my-side feeling constantly.
I’m now 14DPO (first time I’ve made it past 10DPO without spotting heralding early period in 3 months). I'm driving myself crazy because I’m at the in-laws and intentionally didn’t bring any tests with me because I didn’t want to ruin Christmas by testing early and then having to hide any reactions (positive/negative). This month felt very cursed; I never properly caught the LH peak on a dipstick, although based on other signs I know about when it happened, if it happened, and then in the last week I’ve had a cold AND a UTI simultaneously. Which has made symptom spotting tricky since I can’t tell if it’s the cold, the UTI, the luteal phase generally, or maybe pregnancy. Although no sign of period on 14DPO should be a good sign given how strange my period has been since the last MMC it feels very likely that I could just be having a randomly long LP this time.
I switched from Proceive Max + Omega-3 to Zita West Vitafem + Ubiquinol + Omega-3 this month in case the Proceive was messing up my cycle. Feels like spending inordinate amounts on premium vitamins is the only thing I can control.
Anyway, my morale is quite low so if anyone could offer a hand-hold I would accept it gratefully.
PS @Superscientist I remember you from the Due March ’24 thread, you must have had to tap out only a week or so after me? Sorry to read about your loss and the loss since. 😔
PPS sorry for the long post, I have a lot of feelings