Mums of angels! wishing, carrying and holding rainbows.

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May this thread bring us luck and lots of support through the journey of life after the death of our little ones.

Yay!!! welcome to the worry for the tww. We can all hold hands together, I ovulate today so that probably means good cm tomorrow.

So I will be testing on, tuesday 19th I think thats CD30.

FX for us all, would be wonderful if we were all pg together.

Green and elly, fingers are crossed for you both too. I am not due to ov until next weekend. Only on cd 7. I don't tend to test until af is late, I can't stand to see the bfn. I am taking the boots version on pregnacare an Dh takes zinc (for his swimmers)

I have the doctors on wed morning for my day 21 blood results (finally), I am so nervous.

August how are you today?

blizy fx for wednesday.

Fx for all the ttc ladies! :)

Ooh big fx for all the ladies testing soon xx

August how are you feeling today? I seem to be getting lots of BH this pregnancy,maybe it's the closeness of the two pregnancies? Honestly though if something doesn't feel quite right get yourself back to the hospital for reassurance. Big hugs lovely - I know this is the last thing you need right now xxxx

Just been for a lovely day out at Lulworth Cove in Dorset - it's right near Monkeyworld Blizy when you come down you should try and go there it's so beautiful.

DH on menshealth (morrisons men v's), I got the sanatogen mother to be ones which are supposed to be ok for conception too - are there other better ones I could get for next month onwards? I was taking folic avid too but these bits include it, also consultant has recommended baby aspirin for when we do conceive.
Am on cd 9 I think (do you count from spotting or full AF?) so aiming to dtd eod til weekend then every day, hoping to catch ewcm & ov etc, that's plan anyway!
Fx for you too green, it's hard but we started trying/not preventing as soon as consultant said we could. We have been offered an early scan and basically as much help/reassurance as we want/need - that's if we ever manage to conceive again! Think we are lucky with our consultant though, she's been really good.

Fx for wed blizy.

elly I have those vits, but at the moment I am taking pregnacare vits for conception. And DH is taking wellman vits for conception. We have found they make us both very up for SWI.

wtw lulworth cove beautiful. Love that place.

Just going to sit down for the jubilee concert.

I'm pretty upset... It's just been on the news that there has been an illegal rave in the woods where we scattered merryns ashes in the river. It's quite trashed, with damage to trees and rubbish everywhere. They are worried about the wild ponies who have just foaled.....It's Merryn's due date on Wednesday and now I don't want to take the kids there because they'll be upset... You couldn't make this stuff up. It's a nature reserve in the middle of dartmoor ffs! We thought it was safe and peaceful. I don't feel as if I ever got anything right for her, not a bloody thing, not even this.

green that's terribble. Have they trashed the whole site or just a part of it. Bloody people they just don't caree do they. I hope the area you picked for Merryn is untouched. Hugs to you.

FAN... I don't know... The news reports are a bit vague, but there were over 1200 people and hundreds of cars, and it's not that big an area really. We are too scared to go and look. The wardens were going in today to access the damage done but it sounds quite bad. I might phone up the parks department later and ask if it's at our 'bit'.
Our oldest boy will be really upset by it, he likes to go and sit there and talk to Merryn. I don't think I know how to explain it to him. He's had enough. I'm so angry and upset. I just feel so guilty about choosing that place for her...

green ring the ranger and ask them. Also tell them what the site means to you. Maybe you will be able to go down there.

Oh Green that's horrible Last thing you need to have to deal with. I hope the ranger can give you some more information on if Merryn's area is affected. Big hugs, please dont blame yourself. It sounds like a gorgeous spot, you weren't to know this was going to happen xxx

How are you doing August?

Loving the 4 day weekend - wish every week was like this!!

green I hope the rangers will be able to help you, or put your mind at rest. Maybe its too early to say but they might allow you to help look after that part of the nature reserve. Hopefully its not too damaged. But your Merryn is there adding to its beauty and making the area beautiful with her presence.
Nature is very adaptable and the area will restore itself very quickly. Please do not blame yourslef you could not have seen this coming.

I've emailed the rangers. I didn't think i could phone them without crying, so that seemed easier. I hope it's not the same part of the forest....

AUGUST.... How are you doing lovely? I hope you have had a peaceful weekend, and are being looked after well! ( and spoiled a bit too)!

I am now officially on tww, which feels very bizarre. I hope we are doing the right thing. To begin with I though another baby would make dealing with merryns death a little less painful, but I know now it will if anything make it harder. It still feels right though. I hate how much I want it to be a girl though....

green its only natural that you want to have another baby and that you want it to be a girl. I had the same feelings early on. Now my thoughts have changed and I just want a baby, a healthy one and it does not matter what sex it is.
I'm with you on the tww. Fx for you and me and blizy and ellypoo, may our ttc journey be a short one and with a happy ending.

Oh green, that's awful - I hope the rangers get back to you quickly and that Merryns area wasn't affected. You absolutely couldn't have ever foreseen this happening in your special place.

august, how are you feeling? I hope everything is ok & that you're being looked after.

Not quite at the 2ww yet myself, and trying so hard not to get my hopes up again this month - I just get so down when AF arrives, it's so hard when you're just so desperate to get pg again, even though it's going to be so hard this time.

Am loving this extra long wknd though, really wish I didn't have to go back to work tomorrow :(

Hello all,
The very best of luck sent to all of you ttc and on the dreaded tww.
august really hope you are feeling better and that baby boy is staying put!!
wtw I had 4d scans with Samuel, wanted to collect as many memories of him as I could......just incase, Im sure that makes sense to you all. Anyway, they are fab as you now know, Samuel really did look like the pictures when born, not sure why I was so stunned at that!!
We are off at 2pm to have his tounge tie snipped so really not looking forward to it, they dont even give any local, poor little man.

razz poor little Samuel. Hope it doesnt hurt him too much.

Just a littleheads up girls, this thread is nearly at an end, would someone like to start a new one.

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/1488079-Rainbow-Babies-hoping-and-trying-for-rainbows-loving-and-remembering-our-Angels-xxx

Our new thread curtesy of Ellypoo

Feeling a bit better today - a bit wretched for not having done anything the whole weekend (!) but boys have been trashing helping in the garden with their dad and riding their bikes so don't seem too bothered to have missed any street parties!
Good luck to all of you ttc right now xx

Hi all - im new - im not the most wordy of people but it is coming up to my twin boys first remember day (31st May 2012. they were born at 22.2 weeks).

Me and their dad started trying again in january but i am having next to no luck. I am having fairly regular periods but the odd thing about them is that they are never painful, (i know i shouldnt be complaining) its just a weird thing that has happened since the boys were born. anyone else have anything like this or is this a dr type thing x

Ladies, if there is anyone out there that is still reading this thread (I am a newbie and don't now how or where to post)?

8 weeks ago, i lost my first baby. We were 36 weeks. My partner and I opted for a c section as I was in no state to deliver naturally.

Apart from the gut wrenching despair we both feel over loosing our daughter, we had our first OB appointment 2 days ago, and the Dr has suggested we wait a year to 18 months before trying again.

I am completely devastated and heartbroken all over again, I feel we need to keep the momentum going and to fall as soon as we can. I am still having some discomfort from the caesar- but I have also started exercising which i am sure is part of the discomfort. We have started having sex again, for both the emotional comfort we feel together and obviously to try again. I have discomfort but no more so than what I experienced with the fibroids of my first pregnancy.

I am not ready emotionally to go back to work yet, the whole experience has really only just hit me. I can not go a minute without thinking of what happened or how our baby Poppy looked, or how I felt when I was pregnant (I didn't enjoy the pregnancy at all- I suffered with fibroids and morning sickness the whole 8 months, and wasn't able to work). I feel massive guilt over not enjoying the pregnancy and wonder if it contributed to our stillbirth- I know its not physically possible, but my mind won't leave it alone.

Please, can anyone relate or share their experience, or suggest how I can allow myself to move onwards in a positive manner.

I am so desperately sad all the time.

Hi wegotsoclose we are all over on a the thread "angels and rainbows -remembering our angels and hoping for rainbows" I have just posted so it should be the thread below this one. I have marked you a spot so the ladies know you are coming, we are all there waiting to support you. You are not alone x