Mums of angels! wishing, carrying and holding rainbows.

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May this thread bring us luck and lots of support through the journey of life after the death of our little ones.

Fan that is so true but i hope it doesn't have the other effect, that he feels too pressured as it will be our only chance iyswim? Thanks for the link, I shall have a look later when I'm on the laptop.

Just had a look on that website and reading about CM realised that Im on my most fertile day! eek, see you all laters!

fan

Fan, enjoy!

Hi Rue, welcome to the thread. Your story is so sad. To conceive triplets and then lose two of them...my heart goes out to you. I hope you conceive again very quickly and have as smooth a pregnancy as possible.

Blizy, that will be rough only having DH around part-time . How long will that be for? FX you beat the odds anyway.

Ciwi, lovely to hear from you! Good to hear that Cillian is doing well, although the bf sounds very stressful. Don't beat yourself up about it - you're trying as hard as you can. If he's not strong enough right now to get the hindmilk, can the doctors give you any idea of how long it will be until he is? Maybe if you had a goal it would be easier to keep going - it might be only another week or so. My mum managed to get bf to work even though we were born at 35 weeks and spent 5 weeks in hospital without her, so she was expressing and only feeding once a day - she got it back, supplementing with formula to begin with and then dropping that, and went on to bf us for a year. Popular bf advice would say that's impossible - I wanted to tell you that it is possible to keep going even if you do have to top up with formula a bit at first. You can build up your supply later - right now the important thing is that you're still feeding. How much longer will your DH be at home to help?

I find my answer to 'how many children do you have/is this your first?' varies depending on how emotionally robust I'm feeling. If I feel like I might burst into tears then I tend not to answer honestly! I don't want to cry all over random strangers.

Spilt, that poem is beautiful and very sad.

Thanks for the welcomes everyone :) we did name our boys, they were Daniel and Thomas. It's very hard (though lovely) having a survivor - he's 2, but we've never really celebrated his birthday yet as it's such a hard day for us all. I can't help looking at him now and then and thinking that there should be 2 more, just like him. The weeks between knowing we'd lost 2 and delivering them all were hardest though.

I think the very fact that there has to be threads like this is incredibly sad and it's a shame that anyone has to be here :(

I struggle with the "how many children do you have?" question too, and my answer does depend on who I'm talking to/the circumstances. Mostly I say 2, but then explain about DS being a triplet. I'm strangely looking forward to a booking in appt if we do get our rainbow - history of 3 PGs, 2 living children, 1 MMC, 2 stillbirth. Good job I'm always consultant-led care and all the MWs at the hospital already know us...

Hello all, a whole new thread, gosh I feel like I have been away forever!! I will look up the old thread later as Im sure I have missed much. Hi to the two new ladies, so sorry that you find yourself here but hope that you gain all of the support that i have from the fabulous woman on this thread. I lost my little boy, Thomas, last April at 22 weeks and have just given birth to my rainbow baby boy, Samuel, 10 days ago.
Im not sure where the time has gone since Samuel was born!!! After coming back from special care he had to have 48hrs of IV antibiotics and then 3 jaundice tests (his poor little heel) to make sure his levels remained below the treatment line. Then when we came home he managed to loose 12% of his birth weight so we had to go back off to SCBU where they put together a feeding plan, bit silly really, as the saying goes, you can take a horse to water.......Anyway, the weigh in yesterday has seen him reduce his loss to 10.3% so he is on the way up!! I still can not stop staring at him, with a mixture of relief and disbelief that he is here. He is such a good, content baby. My dd is showing classic 'baby envy' bless her, she loves him but is really quite rotton to me at the moment .
Well, I intend to catch up properly with all you news later, got to try to get a feed in to little man now before I watch my big boy run a cross country race (rather him than me). So glad that things are going well with your new rainbow babies too and ciwi.
Back later...........

Hey, still in the fertile zone! Just wondering how miasmum, blizy and all the other ttcers are doing?

Oh my goodness, a new thread and it's already on page 2! Thanks fan - i hope it brings you good luck and a Bfp! spilt you had me in tears with your poem. Feeling emotional today. I'm so tired having lost an hour plus we had a party on Saturday night for DH's birthday and we're moving house on Friday so I'm just a teensy bit stressed and my house is a mess!
First, welcome rued - sorry to hear about your baby boys. I have 2ds and we lost our 3rd last summer - I look at my boys and think 'there should be another one' and I can almost, not quite, picture how he might be so I can't imagine how hard it must be to have that echo of your little ones in your surviving son. I hope you Find a such support here as I have found - good luck ttc.
Lovely to hear about all the new little ones, too I can understand why you must be feeling a bit out of sorts not being able to think of Thea as much now Maia is here... I just wanted to tell you something I heard a while ago - a mother has always has enough love for all her children, it's time that there,s not enough of.... Or something along those lines.
Hi to everyone else... I have news and I also need to ask you all something:
As you know, we had our 20 week scan last week and DH found out the sex but I didn't. Well, I knew it wouldn't be long before I sussed it out and yesterday he let slip, in a roundabout way, that we are having another boy :) !!
Anyway, I'm delighted and feel like its meant to be and today was looking at my scan pictures of Jacob and my scan pictures of our rainbow baby and they are identical! I know it sounds odd, but today I have had a very strong urge to suggest to DH that we call our boy Jake.... BUT I realise some people migt think its a bit odd or that we are tring to replace our lost son, which is not the case, it just feels like they Re connected somehow. Please be honest and tell me what you think - would this be strange?
Thanks ladies, my beautiful DS2 has just run into the room completely naked ready for his bath so I must be off... Xx

august to be totally honest I would not, but that's me. If you feel strongly enough then go for it. Jacob and Jake are similar and different at the same time. Do you think your rainbow boy will mind having a name associated with his angel brother? Some people might think it weird but its your baby. People used to do it all the time centuries ago.

Maybe a name beginning with the same letter would be better? caz did that and we are thinking of doing it if we have another girl.

August totally up to you what you call your son, oh congrats , !!! At one point last year when we found out we were having another girl Ant mentioned giving her ( Phebs) Georgina as her middle name however , I felt/ feel quite strongly that Georgie is Georgie's name IYSWIM?? Also if Georgie was here we wouldn t have given Phebs her name then????
However, it's whatever makes you happy
Razz hi... Glad alls going well? Time does fly by doesn t it? Enjoy ... Xx
Fan hope the swi is going to plan??? Lost another 2.5 lbs this week so happy. That's 9 lbs in total aiming to reach a stone in the next 2 weeks . That's my first day back at work, hopefully. Good luck for your weigh in. Xxx
Hi all; hope you re all enjoying the sun. Been de- cluttering & major spring cleaning last week & today. Now all the house done couldn t have coped with it returning to work. We have stuff in every nook & cranny & as fast as I chuck it Ant buys more gadgets!!!
At our old house our loft was half the size of this one & we didn t have a shed but still no spare space now!?! I m trying to make our house " baby friendly" fior when Phebs starts crawling. Binned some of our old ornaments/ trinkets that were out on display in reach of little hands!! ( vases full of stones, candles etc...)
Lots going on with job situations with both me & Ant but I ll let you know later.
Right off for tea.... Love to all xxxx

Wow angel 9lbs is amazing

Right, just been looking up meanings and Jake means 'supplanter' - to take the place of. It was a silly idea. I just love that name. :(

Oh August congratulations Being honest I wouldn't use Erin's name or a derivative for this baby. Like Angel that name is hers and hers alone. But it's a decision you and dh have to come to together. Maybe Jake for a middle name? Good luck with the move - sounds stressful! Don't do too much!

Angel 9lbs wow!! Amazing well done you

Fan I hope dh's swimmers are like little heat seeking missiles searching out your egg

I will admit something here that I'm not prepared to in RL a small part of me is hoping this bean is a girl. Of course I'd be ecstatic with a boy too but there is that teeny part that really wants K to have an earth sister as well as her angel one. Ah well a month til we find out! 17 weeks now,woohoo!

X post. Oh bless you it wasn't a silly idea. But I'd agree 'to take the place of' is probably not the best meaning in the circumstances. I know what you mean I love the name Erin and can't believe we didn't come up with it for Katie.

Hello all. Feeling a bit of a fraud here, not at all convinced that my body is ready in any way for a rainbow baby, despite ttc-ing at the right times, temp checking and taking folic acid, just in case.

Regarding names - with our permission, my brother has legally changed his own daughter's name to include Mia as her second name. His little daughter is only three months older than Mia, and they wanted to show their love for their little red-headed cousin in this way. We were very touched. As for us, if ever we managed to have another baby, and it was a girl, I think I would definitely want her to have Mia as a second name. I just don't know how we can ever think of a more beautiful name than we already did though... but I guess I should concentrate on the more immediate issue of focussing on that elusive BFP first.

wtw I understand there's a part of me that wishes the next was a girl, so I'm not missing out. Its a strange feeling.

angel well done, my weigh in is tomorrow. Don't feel like I've lost a thing but then again I didn't last week but did 4 1/2 pounds.

Congratulations August - your DH lasted loads longer before telling you than I would, I'm rubbish!!

We have decided that if we have another little girl, we will give her Nancy as a middle name - I feel that middle names are kind of for family names or to remember people that were/are important to you, so I think it's fitting. Totally understand both sides though, it is a totally personal decision, isn't it.

Well done angel, that's fantastic - my weigh in is Wed night, so fingers crossed, although after yesterday's beer garden session, I don't have much hope!!

Well, AF was due today, not arrived yet, so might do a test in the morning if it still hasn't arrived and if I feel strong enough. Just hope that it isn't teasing me! Gosh, this is such an emotional roller-coaster journey, isn't it.

August, reusing names was common in the past (am a family history buff :o ) but less so now - I think as a middle name like Ellypoo says would be lovely though.

wtw I can completely understand your hopes - my secret wish (have never admitted this anywhere before) would be to have another multiple pregnancy, even though it would cause complete havoc in terms of numbers of kids and things like the ability to fit everyone into one car.

Found you! Hello all, must keep up more! Ella is a very velcro baby at the moment but I do so love it and her so much. We had a lovely bbq yesterday and another today as it was such a lovely day after walking home from school. I'm still surprised that I'm coping so well and not feeling down in the slightest, not knocking it though :)

I need to have a catch up and read through, off to lay down soon but I'm sure I'll have time during one of the night feeds :) I'll try to remember everyone's news and post then from my phone but my brain is mush lately. Wishing everyone well and looking forward to seeing some more BFP's and rainbow babies soon!

Good luck Ellypoo for your weigh in xxx double good luck for AF staying away. Xxx
Fan so hope the swi is working. Come on mr Fan's" swimmers!!! Swim far & be strong , well, far enough to Fan*'s eggs!!!
Whatever it's not a silly idea ... Everyone is different. You have to do what makes you happy. Thanks xxx
Hi Spilt thanks xxx I m very pleased soon I ll be a yummy mummy!!!
Can t remember who posted about being happy about their rainbow baby being the same sex as their elder angel ( August???) I too was very happy when we found out Phebs was a girl. She looks quite similar to Georgie or what I imagine Georgie would look like now & although she is totally a person in her own right it also gives me some degree of comfort we had another girl. It's quite odd & hope I ve explained myself ...xxxx

Meant August re: names... Sorry xx

Morning girls.

August I see your keeping up with thread tradition and having another boy! I wouldn't use Zoe's name for my (future) baby. But you should do what you feel comfortable with, sod everyone else.

Well done with the weight losses!

Af is due on Saturday for me, unusually start spotting about 3 days before so I should know by tomorrow. I won't test until/if af is late.

It another lovely day here and I have no work, in off to loch lomond for the day with a friend. Have a good Tuesday all.

Well, still no AF, but I got a BFN this morning :( Rubbish - even though I wasn't expecting to have managed it this month due to an epic fail on my part in terms of remembering timings etc(!), I still hoped we might have beaten the odds. Oh well, better luck for next month I guess, hopefully AF will arrive today so that I can restart the cycle!!

I hope you all enjoy the lovely sun again today!

Fx to fan and blizy

Elypoo- it's not over until af arrives, my fingers are firmly crossed for you.