Mothers of Angel Babies United - wishing for, some of us pg with and some of us holding our Rainbow babies

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Here we go again!
lots of love to all our angel babies! xxx

Lovely thread title xx

What a lovely note on which to start a new thread.
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yay a new thread, and what a great way to start with another Rainbow baby arriving yesterday heres to more good news on this thread.

(I thought of that thread title all afternoon instead of doing work )

marking place

at Green thinking up threads instead of working. Clinks (non-alcoholic, natch!)

Angel, hope you and Phoebe had a good night and the feeding is continuing well. Tell those staff to look after you properly or they'll have the wrath of MN to deal with! We'll all come down and give them what for.

Am ridiculously wide awake despite having the day off. Didn't sleep very well - finding it difficult to believe that it's over and everything's ok now. DH was a bit sad before bed - tired and emotional, and he said that it's not over, we've got 20 weeks of worry still before us. This is true, if pessimistic. I wish Bean would kick a bit to reassure me. Perhaps breakfast would help. I think we're both so used to bad news that good news is hard to take in!

too I really feel for you and your DH, well for everyone really who is pg with their rainbow babies. DH was discussing this last night with me, saying how it is going to be 9 months of worry when we do get pg. He also said he really hopes we are this month. Usually its me saying this but this month Im pretty calm about it (well so far) and hes the one usually telling me well if we are not we just try again, so it was a bit sureal that we had swapped roles.

green your DH sounds like mine, as soon as it seems to him that I'm 'ok' he let's his guard down and I realise he's thinking and feeling all the same things but at different times and in different ways. Sometimes makes me so sad to see how much he misses our baby and all the hopes we had for him.
Morning everyone

Hi everyone, lovely thread title, what a good use of work's time green
too I know how you feel, I thought I would feel massively relieved once the scan was ok but I don't, I suppose the relief will only come once we hold our babies in our arms. I am feeling movement but even that only reassures me for the time I feel it and when I dont I worry again, even if I only last felt it an hour ago! It's a tough road but it will all be worth it when we are where angel and spilt are now x
green and august I was told by a psychologist that it is a sign of a strong relationship when you swap roles in grief like that, its like one has to stay strong for the other so when you see your oh down you try to pick them up and vice versa, fx you both get your bfp's soon x

Yay Happy new thread! Just marking my place, i will catch up later.

Lovely thread title
too I am so with you!! Do you think we maybe expect bad things to happen to protect ourselves from falling so hard??? I got my nuchal results back 1 in 40,000 and do you no what, I actually felt myself shrug, Thomas was 1 in 800,000 for his genetic condition and he still got that. I guess I just think somebody has to be that 1 so why not me again. Your poor dh.
green I really hope you get your bfp this month also. Did you say testing around the 30th??
I have a really sore back shooting right into my bottom and down my left leg now and then. If I have been sitting down it really hurts to get up again, must have strained something, typical!!!

oh did I mention already that I might be further along in my cycle than I thought I was?
I had downloaded this app on my phone to keep track of things, been taking temperatures since beginning of this cycle. I had put in that my average cycle was 44 days, based on previous one, so they calculated my ov would be on 17th of October...
Now I put all the data in Fertility Friend, and according to my temperatures I ov'd about a week earlier! so I should be half way through my 2 ww! I should now be 9DPO... exciting stuff!

Morning ciwi and jane, I obviously took too long writing my post (confesses to scoffing a mcdonalds breakfast at same time).

Morning to you also blue. When do you think you will test??

Too I kind of feel the same way, still all that worry to come but each day at a time, it's the only way I think.

green and august dh and I are the same, he's always there for me when I'm down and vise versa. He's struggled a lot recently and I suppose that's because I was so low for the first while after Scarlett died but his counselling and tablets help a little.

ciwi I wish I could be further on now and just be able to have this baby here with us and alive. I really don't think I'll relax for this pregnancy at all. People have said I should try to relax and enjoy it, I know they mean well, but it's just not as simple as that. Easy for someone to say that's never been through what we have.

razz It's really hard isn't it, thinking about that 1 in xxxxx, I assume the worst a lot of the time. Really hoping for good news at our scan next week. Ouch, hope you feel better soon

I cracked a test yesterday but it was obviously too early but with Sterre I tested positive 12DPO...
I'll wait a bit longer...
But I do like this Fertility Friend thing... think if I'm not lucky I will have to start putting in data about my cervical mucus as then you get even better analysis of your cycles!

hi girls waves and pulls up a big comfy chair (would be a beanbag but wouldnt ever get up again!)

razz mmm now i fancy a mcdonalds brekkie

blue hope you tested too early and fx for you and green

lets hope the positives we had at the end of the last thread continue on this :-)

razz sounds like your siactic nerve is playing up, not sure what exercises you can do. I hope your scan goes well.

Thank you green, I have to say the closer I get to tuesday the more Im beginning to brick it. So desperate for things to be good, I even keep on saying to him in the sky I dont mind being sick every day for the entire pregnancy and having bad backs/legs if it can all just be alright in the end. Please make it alright.

Razz, I was going to say the same about sciatica. I think it's linked to SPD/pelvic girdle pain when it happens in pregnancy, and if it continues then you should get referred to the physio and they'll give you exercises. I got the sciatica feelings with Thea quite early on and then it switched around as she got bigger and all the pain was at the front of my pubic bone. She settled head down quite early on, which I think had something to do with that. Praying for you for Tuesday!

Blue, quit testing so early! You know it'll only upset you. FX for a positive later in the week!

Totally agree Cheese about the wishing to be further on. I can't quite believe that even after all that I'm still only 16+5. I feel like I ought to be 25 weeks at least! I started reading that thread about PPROM last night and it struck me out of the blue that if my waters were to go I'm still so early that there would be no hope. Hang in there, baby Bean! Now I know the results I wish I hadn't risked the amnio, which is silly. It's just that the doctor went through all the risks and said my risk will always be higher of miscarrying or premature birth as a result of the procedure.

Ciwi, same with the movement - it is so sporadic and light at the moment that I'm never sure it's there. I wish Bean would just kick me constantly! Hopefully in a few weeks I'll be regretting saying that, but hey.

Sterre's memorial stone had just arrived! I've uploaded a pic on my profile if you want to have a peek! It is absolutely wonderful!

blue that is beautiful!

Hi all. What a lovely thread name x
Had a meeting with management and HR and they both acknowledge that the way I was dealt with was unacceptable. Training points have been raised and will be dealt with. I feel total relief about it all .
Will catch up properly later on xx

good news mel it is a weight off your mind when they realise they were in the wrong and put you under stress isnt it!

Blue, that is a beautiful stone. to go with it!

Oh good, Mel, glad it's all been sorted out and HR are on your side! Really pleased for you.

This is a historic moment. I have just taken my first Rennie's of this pregnancy. I must have been eating them every 3 hours towards the end with Thea. It was one of the few things I welcomed post-partum, the fact that the heartburn vanished immediately.