Mothers of Angel Babies United - wishing for, some of us pg with and some of us holding our Rainbow babies

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Here we go again!
lots of love to all our angel babies! xxx

Green you're allowed to feel sad about what you have lost. it's only natural, and these milestones hurt. We can cope with this though and you will remember your angel with love xx
Lemon welcome to this thread and sorry and congratulations at the same time. I lost Ruby at 27 weeks when she was stillborn. Am now pregnant, about 6 weeks so am terrified but excited at the same time x

Green, anniversaries suck. Poor you! Have a big hug and a or . I can get on okay for a while and then suddenly just be overwhelmed with sadness and need to cry it out a bit. I don't know if that will ever stop.

Blue, glad you've got Sterre's stone all sorted out and laid in place now. Hope you are bearing up okay - I imagine it was an emotional day.

Lemon, hi again. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, but what good news with the BFP! Congratulations! My daughter Thea was stillborn at 41+3 in March and I am now 17+1 with my second baby. Come in and join us - someone is always around to hold hands or give advice when necessary!

Have spent 3.5 hours in the hairdresser this afternoon and halfway through getting my hair dyed I started to panic and wonder what would happen if I started to miscarry - would I have to go to hospital with my hair still wrapped in the foils, cooking away? My single solitary symptom was backache, which is not exactly uncommon in pregnancy. I have calmed down now, at least temporarily.

I should find out the rest of my amnio results some time this week, including the sex of the baby. I am v looking forward to finding out the sex, but there is also a small voice at the back of my head whispering that there will be a rare chromosomal defect as well. This morning DH was teasing me saying the baby would turn out to have 72 pairs of chromosomes and be a potato, and I was furious. Bean is not a potato! I am still not quite sure why I was so offended by this.

Hi all.
Green do what you need to to get through the anniversary. I often find the actual lead up to these days is much worse than the actual day itself. Xx
Lemon huge congrats. As u know my Georgie was stillborn at 41 weeks on 10/10/10. I won t lie; this pg has been incredibly difficult emotionally but we got there & u can too.
Cheese hugs xx
Hi Jane, Razz,Shakey & Too. Oh & Ciwi hope I re ok??
We ve had a lovely day my MW visited bought me a bunch of flowers as I m a " special" pt!!! Apparently!!!. All good , we went shopping bought lots of food I ve not been able to eat in the last 2 years. Mmmm.,,.
Then mum,dad,Ant ,& Phoebe went for a lovely walk in the park , a lovely lunch ( including a lovely glass of cider) then a nice stroll back. The weather was great , got to use my pram. It was lovely , however tinged with a slight sadness as we should have had all this with Georgie. But, that's the way it will always be.
Love to all xxx

Hi Lemon, congratulations on your bfp, wishing you an easy pg. I suspect I'm a long way off from that still having just lost my DS3, Jacob in August at 35 weeks. I know it's where we're heading though IYSWIM, I'm prepared to be patient - this thread giving me hope that it can happen!
Angel glad to hear you're having good times with Phoebe and that feeding's better now. Bet it was lovely, in a sad way, to use your pram.
Green hope anniversary isn't too hard on you Blue like Sterre's stone, it's perfect
Too U're being hypochondriac again bean is most definitely not a potato!

Hi Mel how u feeling? X

Hi August so sorry for your loss. I remember it was really hard in those early days.

To the rest of you thanks for making me feel so welcome and I am sorry for your losses to. I think it takes someone who has been through it to know what it is really like. Heres hoping we all get our rainbow babies at the end.

Hi lemon, I am SO happy to hear you've got your BFP! Congratulations my dear and wishing you a totally textbook normal pregnancy and birth. It will be a really tough few months getting there and takes a heck of an emotional toll, but we're all here to hold your hand along the way. How are you feeling? Has the fact that you are pregnant sunk in at all?

Angel sounds like a lovely day and how sweet that the MW brought you flowers I hope you're coping with the lack of sleep, take it easy whenever you can and eat lots to keep the energy up! I had a basket of snacks by my bed for scoffing with the night feeds mmm chocolate raisins

green hugs to you, a horrible week. I've usually found that the build up is worse than the actual day.

too definitely not a potato, potatoes are not worth this sort of stress!! Are you at home this week too? Will be lovely to know what flavour bean you are getting. I found that really important this time - particularly I think because we hadn't been able to tell what Bobbie was when she was born and had to get through her burial service and 6 weeks before the test results came back to tell us. I HATED not being able to say "he" or "she" and would say massively convoluted sentences to avoid "it". I think as well, having lost a girl, I then needed to know if I was expecting a girl again because that would be hard (history repeating etc), and I also needed to know if I was having a boy, because having lost a girl I then felt like a mother of a girl and wanted one to hold. So really I just needed to know and have time to deal with either result emotionally, without leaving all that to the day of the birth which had enough stress of its own. And I had no wish for any surprises any more after the awful surprise last time.
Sorry that is quite waffly, hope it makes some sense!

I've been feeling lousy - had my flu jab on Thurs so wondering if that is why. Just been achy, headachy, sore throat etc. Freya's not been herself either and really tetchy and crying a lot so I've wondered if she's feeling off colour having picked up similar symptoms due to the milk?? No idea really. She also had her first set of jabs on Friday so could be that too. Horrible having to hold her down whilst they stab a needle in each leg She screamed so hard she went purpley Though I think it's worse for the parent - 5 mins later she was smiling at me again

Who was it who asked how much she feeds? It's very random still. Usually most hours during the day, but she does sleep for a good 2-3 hour stretch in the afternoon, just don't know when that's going to be so hard to plan around. The evenings are her clingy fussy time where she feeds on and off for a few hours, but it's so worth it because she then usually sleeps from 10.30pm through to about 3.30-4am. Perfect baby! So I guess if I fancy going for a swim I better see about a midnight dip [hgrin]!

arrgh mammoth post I am sorry

Spilt, it does make sense - that's just how I feel! I want to know if I'm having another little girl like Thea, or if it is a little boy, so I can start working through the differences in each case.

Sorry to hear that you and Freya are a bit under the weather - perhaps it is just the reaction to the flu jab. Hope you feel better soon! It must be awful to have to assist while your baby gets jabbed . I know it is for their own good, but it must be so hard to do.

It was me asking about the feeding times - I was wondering if you would have long enough between feeds to go out for a bit.

I'm back at work tomorrow but have the rest of the week off - BIL and family are coming up tomorrow night and staying until Thurs, and then we're going up to Aberdeenshire for a Halloween party and to visit Dad and my little half-siblings.

Angel, I think I will howl when I first use our pram!

Too " time between feeds??" don t make me laugh???!!!
At the moment Pheb' s has been feeding very regularly from 7 pm tonight. Last night 6 feeds between 1-8:30!!!
Wr are both so knackered!!! However, I am reassured this improves!!! My milk is through now so hopefully that ll help.seen MW today she's lost 12% of het body weight so her " care management plan" is to feed her every 3 hours!!! As I said to Chris " 3 hrs would be fab!!"
Phoebe will be re weighed on Tuesday I saw a lady from " little angels" today who spent 2 hours going through breast feeding with me.( breast feeding support group)
She s returning tomorrow to watch/ help again. She was truely lovely.
Hope everyone is ok?
I m not worried about Phoebe having her jabs she's tough!!! She s already had a cannula in and 2 days of IV antibiotics straight after birth!!!
Spilt Freya' s sleeping patterns sounds great. Did she always sleep through?
Love to all xxxx

pffff had been charting all this cycle. Took temperature this morning, had a big drop, so I had already figured it might not be this month and as I get up, yes AF was there! :(
At least last cycle wasn't so long... 37 days...

Boooooooooooo for the [hangry] witch!

Im struggling a bit this morning, dont feel well generally but also just feel really down, I suppose the rest of the week is going to be like this.

Its good to hear from you spilt, you dont ramble at all.

angel I hope the breastfeeding improves this week.

that boo was for you blue damn that witch for arriving!

thanks green I had a feeling she was coming, I had my typical AF headache a few days ago, and feeling very grumpy. But of course I had a glimmer of hope that I might get a BFP...
Think DH could see the disappointment on my face when he came up earlier :(
I had so hoped to be pregnant by the time Sterre's due date came along... which will be next week :(

its so tough sometimes is'nt it. If Im to go along with the past three months of AF they I am due either tomorrow or the next day, but if it doesnt arrive Im not testing till saturday as well it might be late. So a tough week of waiting.

green here to hold your hand! I hope you will be more lucky than me this cycle!

thank you blue you all really do mean the world to me.

and if not lucky, we will hopefully not be too far apart how long is your cycle now green? mine was 37 days this time.
DH was very sweet earlier and said we probably didn't try hard enough, I said it was quite difficult as I didn't really know when fertile days were. Said I roughly know for this cycle so he better be prepared! He even suggested taking a few days off

28-29 days now, it used to be 33-35 days. But I still ovulate around 16-17 days. I wonder if it will creep back up? Is 11 days enough of a luteal phase?

Hi everyone, I have not been around much over the weekend, I have had a heavy cold, just seems to be getting a bit better today. spilt round here loads of people are sick with colds so maybe it's just a coincidence that you are ill after your jab. I had my jab last week but DH had a cold as did a few other people so I think my cold after the jab was just coincidence.
too have a nice week, when does your angel sounds arrive? I must admit, mine has kept me vaguely sane the last few weeks x
blue sorry the witch got you, the dissapointment is horible isnt it? Fx that cycle monitoring helps you next month x
green Sorry you are feeling down, the past year for me has been full of down days and ok days, its only recently that I have had a good period of good days outweighing the bad ones, I just used to try and remember that the bad days won't last forever. Anniversaries are particularly hard x
angel hope the breast feeding gets easier for you, all the promotions of it say how much easier it is but I know all of my friends have said its hard at first, you are certainly not alone x
Hi to everyone else, mel how is it going? are you going to have an early scan?

Hello all, feel like I haven't been on for ages!! So busy!!
lemon welcome to the thread. So sorry for the loss of your baby boy. I lost my little boy, Thomas, in April this year at 22 weeks from a lethal genetic condition. I am almost 15 weeks pregnant now but it is sooooo hard to remain sane The ladies on this thread offer amazing support.
spilt and angel it is wonderful to hear all about life with your baby girls, do keep on telling.
green and cheese I do hope you are feeling a bit better now, tough days are so very hard.
too I am sure your results this week will be fine, how exciting that you will get to no the sex. I think I would like to no this time, as ciwi said I feel that surprises are really not required this time. I have no preference at all but am hoping it will make it all seem that bit real.
Hope you are feeling well mel
blue Sterre's stone is lovely. I am sorry that AF came but glad your cycle may be decreasing in length
Hello to August, shakey and jane really hope I havent missed anyone.

I am due back at oxford tomorrow for the pre-diagnostic scan and I have to say that I am so scared. I have suddenly popped out with a (too good) sized bump and swear I can feel movement (is it too soon??). Am so worried that my hope will be taken away again. So hard to be positive when you have been that 1 in 1 million and then 1 in 800,000 before .

razz its not too soon to feel something, my bbf felt movements from 14 weeks, with her second. Whens your scan? fx hun.

Hi girls, sorry the witch came Blue. I think we all know exactly what you're feeling though. There's nothing we can say really, I know that you'll be gutted about having to wait another month. Big hugs though.
Angel and Spilt it is so good to hear about your girls. Hopefully it'll prepare us all for some of the emotions that we'll go through.
That's me now on hols until the end of November. I'm feeling ok. DH thinks it's hilarious again as he can't come near me with certain foods again. Bananas are a no go area. Sense of smell is phenomenal. Don't have too much queasiness and haven't been sick so hope that continues. Been getting pains at the bottom of my tummy so completely paranoid. Is it too early to get the ligament stretching pains yet? I can't remember but that's what it feels like. Scan is next week, I'm trying not to think about it as I'm terrified. DH has said not to get too worked up as there's nothing we can do about it now. Men are so practical sometimes but I can't help worrying. Think he's trying to cover up his fear though!
Hi to everyone else this morning, I'm off to pick up some balloons for my sister. My niece turned 18 yesterday and we're having a family meal out tonight for her. How to avoid the wine???? Love to all xxx

Razz, good luck for tomorrow! I have everything crossed for you that this time will be lucky. I started feeling the odd movewment at about 15 weeks this time, but only very occasionally. So it could be baby.

Boo for AF, Blue!

Right, will post properly later talking to everyone - am at work and not supposed to be MNing.

mel I dont think its to early for stretching pains, I had them pretty early last pg.
To avoid wine (do they not know yet then?) tell them all you are on a health kick and have gone tee-total till christmas. But one glass will probably be fine, for the toast.

too Im supposed to be working to! just cant help myself.

Im beginning the paranoid am I pregnant phase of the month, Im desperate for a pee all the time, and Im very hot? God please stop I just want that BFP and then I can worry about the pg instead of worrying about everything!