How's everyone doing today - especially those of us who are finding it harder or more emotional than we had expected?
I'm beyond exhausted today. I feel like I haven't slept properly in weeks, and in the past few days' heat I've slept worse than ever (as has DD, which has hardly helped). It's our busiest time at work and I am leading constant training sessions, standing a lot of the time - I'm in awe of those of you who are teachers! Plus adding what feels like stress of DD starting school next week and making sure she has everything and it's all sorted and labelled, and the growing realisation that the baby is coming soon and we need to start buying baby things... My head feels so frazzled all the time.
I'm still too emotional - this morning DD woke me at 5.45, she went back to sleep straight away but I ended up on the sofa sobbing with tiredness for an hour. Cried on DP when he woke a bit later too. Fingers crossed I can manage to not cry at work today...
Having said that, I know I am in a slightly better place than I was a month or so ago, and I'm feeling more interested in and connected to the baby. We've started to buy a few things and I have odd flashes of being able to imagine having a baby son in two months time. It's nothing like it was first time around (and I'm not above admitting how jealous reading everyone else's awe and excitement can make me sometimes) but it's getting better slowly.
Spotty, I know exactly what you mean with everything works against each other. The tireder I am the sicker I am; the sicker I am the less I obviously eat and drink or keep down; the less food and drink I take in, the tireder I am... I don't know how to fix it right now!