January 2015 #7: Glowing & growing? Rock on 2nd trimester!

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Onwards into the 2nd trimester, where hopefully the bumps will overtake the poo factories!

Stats here.

Chesire that sounds like a horrible situation but I think you handled it really well! I would have hidden in the toilets all day.

I am feeling really miserable today. The TV crew came, it was for a piece on my specialist area of knowledge but I asked my boss to go on instead when they originally contacted us, as I thought he would come across better on camera. This morning I was talking him through what to say and I realised I am articulate and know my stuff and I should have probably done it. Really gutted I missed out the chance to do it and feel my boss hasn't really acknowledged how much research and knowledge I have. It's my own fault though. Then on top of that I was put in charge of handling a new department at work a few months ago, and we had our first major specialist sale in that area today and it really didn't go well. It wasn't my fault, it was an experiment but I did a lot of publicity for it and I feel like an idiot now. It's my first 'failure' at work, my usual department is consistently one of our best.

Sorry for the rant. Pregnancy hormones have made me super sensitive and I just want to go home and have a cry and move on.

Katniss - your last line is good advice for anyone having a crappy day!

A bit of a me me me post - apologises in advance!

So the review of DS birth - really it was what I expected - as in no answers other than confirming he needed to come out when he did due to distress which blood gases confirmed. There was no evidence of anything being the cause, and therefore impossible to say what could happen this time. The notes do suggest there MAY have been a placenta fault but this is only a "thought" and "not fact". So all in, I am just as blind as before.

I have been told to see the consultant next week (existing appointment) and the lead will see me again in 2 weeks to "assess my thoughts".

She asked if I thought counselling would help, but in honesty I only get upset talking about the future birth or DS birth in relation to future birth - so not sure if it would help or if it would be selfish to take a space away form someone who may really need it - so need to think on that.

She (lead MW or whatever her title is) asked what I wanted for this birth and I said "In all honesty I don't mind, I don't give a monkeys if it comes out my nose sideways - I need to know it will be ok that'sthe real issue as no one can promise me that" - which then lead to talking about they can offer extra checks etc. but it is extremely unlikely they would do birth at 37+5 weeks (which is when DS showed "proper" signs of going down hill before cs at 38+1) which I knew but part of me was hoping there was something in the notes that would make them induce or cs at 37+5.

So now sitting tight till next week and see what Mr consultant has to say and then more discussion with lead MF lady.

:(

Have to keep reminding myself I am very fortunate to be here and stop worrying about the mythical tomorrow and just enjoy now

Shitty day today ladies. And an interview to prepare for tomorrow... joy!

Baby vs guts space wars definitely going on here too! Went to bed early last night with mega tummy ache Think I'm feeling some fluttery movements now tho

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Best of luck for scan tomorrow Viv! Mine is next Friday... definitely getting a bit scanxious here too

Sorry you're all having shitty days!

Jesus definitely kicked me today I thought I'd felt a few tapping sensations but thought it could be wind but today he/she properly booted me a few times!! I tried to see if I could feel it from the outside but no luck yet, DH is desperate to feel his future everton star (ha!)

Off for burritos and then seeing the new inbetweeners movie, part of DH's plan to help me feel like a normal person again instead of just a tired, miserable, puking incubator.

sleep I'm glad the meeting went ok but sorry you don't feel any further on from where you were before. Do you think you might prefer an elective section this time? Will they do that at 39 weeks? I would definitely go for extra appointments around the time you had issues arising with your last baby, but that's just me. It's not a foregone conclusion that the same will happen so I see your quandry.

vivi your birth centre sounds so fantastic I hope it lives up to your imagined description!

I wish I was having my scan at 19 weeks instead of 20+5...oh no am I getting scanxious?!!

Ooh let us know what the film's like Sara ... Mr P's desperate to see it. Not a fan of the series but have to admit the first film was quite funny

Oh no sleep! Sorry it didn't go as planned / as well as hoped.

Sara- that movie looks hilarious! Must go watch if it's any good?

I have just been scouring pics of me pre baby and mourning my old body- really missing it which is so shallow , but true.

Anyway as sleep said, I am really lucky to have such a wonderful daughter and a son on the way. This puts such trivialities in their place!
Thanks sleep!

Ps I am 18 weeks today , Yas!

Ooh Sara, me and DH are off to see that tomorrow as the first part of our anniversary celebrations (lunch on Sunday being the second part). We're so rock and roll lol

Film was great very silly and juvenile but just what I needed :)

Good luck vivi

So here I am, 20 WEEKS TODAY! I am officially halfway through this shit and celebrated with a morning like, how lovely

That was meant to say morning puke, argh I need sleep

Morning everyone. I hope all those who had rubbish days yesterday have better days today. Failing that, at least it's nearly the weekend. saras poor you, fx things look up from here!

pg yoga last night was nice, though a million miles away from the kind of yoga I usually do. Very relaxing, lots of breathing, no chance of breaking a sweat. I like to get a bit more exercise so I'll try a few other classes, but it was really nice to be with other pg ladies and really focus on the baby. Made me realise that normally I am too busy to stop and think about being pg all that much.

On a less fun note, trip to the dentists this morning. Ah well, at least it's free atm.

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ps scanxious is officially the Best Word Ever!

20 weeks! That's amazing that this bus is already approaching that point. In the first trimester I wished the days away to this point & now time seems to be bloody flying, I wish it would slow down a bit! Amazing.

Happy anniversary Looby! Enjoy the celebrations. You guys sound as rock and roll as we are.

Well done you, yesterday cheshire. Enjoy your hols! Sounds like you earned them!

Ah sleep I'm sorry the meeting didn't make things too much clearer about this time round, though I guess it's good that it's not at all definite that this pregnancy will have any problems? I hope you can negotiate a care plan with the consultant that you feel comfortable and secure with.

Going shopping for some bras in That London today. Lord knows these girls really, really need it! Wish me luck finding something that's a) not extortionately expensive and b) still vaguely sexy & attractive! I know I"m about to become someone's milk machine, but I'd rather not feel like a cow in harness, thanks.

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Good luck today vivi

Rum I think I will give baking a go actually! Need to get some baking equipment in though as I don't have any and have my human dustbin also known as Dp who will love a munch on some cakes with his coffees.

Oh how exciting we're all nearing closer to the half way point. I remember desperately waiting for my 12 week scan and now very scanxious for my 20 week because I'm absolutely desperate to find out the gender. I think after that I can start to enjoy myself and my bump a bit more.

Yes, littlecat my DH is very fond of my baking habit! He gets sad now if I don't find the time to bake something on a weekend.

Or knitting could be another good hobby? Especially for our winter babies. Though by the amount of unknitting I'm currently doing on this blanket, I might not be the best source of advice on that front.

Ooh yes, good luck with the scan today Pru!

Good luck today vivi and congrats on making the half way point (or more than half maybe!) it's a big milestone. Not long til these babies of ours are big enough to make it on the outside!

I am roasting all the time with this little portable radiator i'm carrying. Anyone else?

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(The 20 w comment was meant for saras)

Camsie I'm sure she had no idea what she was talking about but I can see why it would spook you out a little.

Having a little panic right now. Last night I was inserting my progesterone pessary vaginally(TMI sorry). I have been on them for about a month now but last night I could feel the thread/ribbon that they stitched me with sort of like it was lose or like the bow from a lace after it's tied. I have never felt this before and it is totally freaking me out. Worried my cervix might have dropped or something although there is no pain or bleeding. Am now working myself up to calling the local midwives for advice. I know they will tell me to call the hospital and that terrifies me incase the ask me to come in and then do another internal exam. They did one almost a week after the stitch and I have never felt anything so painful in my life not mention I bleed for over a week after.

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Oh forgot to add good luck to all having scans today :)

Mummyk I am sure you think this already, but probably is best to get it checked. Hope its something of nothing, and just a first time you noticed it.

Good Luck to all with scans today :)

Sorry for the misery post yesterday. I do feel better today. I think I was just disappointed because there were no clues to what happened last time, so it remains a possibility this time.
DS birth notes are exactly as I remember the birth and no know causes why things went the way it did - only the evidence with the blood gases it was the right decision.
Consultant next week and Lead Midwife again couple of days after scan (week after cons) - so hopefully after that week I will at least know what is in place monitoring wise so I can relax.

Mini part of me prefers the elective, as this will give me a definite date to worry until - but really I don't care, its just that I can't see any other option that would make me worry less than knowing I only have to get through until XX

It will be fine. One way or another (positive thought for the day!)

Glad to hear you feeling more positive sleep good luck with the rest of your appointments :)

mummyk8 maybe it is nothing to worry about, just the excess stitch string? Maybe just calling them will put your mind at ease and no internal would be necessary. They probably wouldnt want to examine you without any bleeding or any cramps?

Happy holidays mad enjoy your unplugged time, I am jealous!

Sleep, sorry you didn't get any answers yesterday but glad you are feeling better today.

Hope you're okay mummyk8, maybe calling is a good idea so they can reassure you.

Good luck today Vivi, and I hope the birth centre is as magical as it sounds!