Hello girls.sorry I haven't read outstanding posts but hopefully you'll forgive me when I explain that i've had maybe 6 hours sleep in total since monday and a pretty different birth to the natural hypno birth I had wanted.
Waters went on tues, as you know. Mwlu gave me 24 hours to get labour established, so I was awake most of tues night trying ti do that, but when it was unsuccessful we got sent to the hospital. They gave me a couple of choices as to what we could do but the risk of infection made us decide to try sticking around and breaking the fore waters, then maybe going for induction if that didn't work.
Long story short I spent most of that day hoping for progress, most of the night using my hypno breathing to get through the intense cx caused by the induction before finally begging for an epidural first thing this morning when we foundthat I was still only 2cm dilated despite getting 32mg syntocinon (a lot, basically).
I progressed well during the day and we were hopeful I could deliver naturally with the epidural, but baby's head wasn't descending and they were concerned about his heart rate dropping after cx. Eventually it was decided that c section was the only real safe option - classic cascade of intervention, but it turns out the cord was wrapped round his arm and that's why his head hasn't descended, so there would probably have been issues even if we hadn't had the issue with the waters breaking.
Our son, Leo, was born at 5ish (need to find out when, exactly, he was born actually!) on his due date and is the most beautiful and perfect baby I have ever met. He has his daddy's mouth, my chin, his aunty's ears and lots of blonde hair. He's very laid back despite his stressful start and is sleeping next to me in his crib.
I am a fucking mess. So sore, very disappointed at how things happened and boiling my arse off on an observation ward being ignored by the midwifes, though one of the ones who looked after me during labour just hunted me out to see how I had done, which was lovely. I can't fault my care during labour, it was excellent, but now I just feel tired and a messand I want my husband because i'm scared at looking after this little person when i can't look after myself.
Everything was worth it to get my little boy out safely, but I am feeling like a complete train wreck now.