On holiday and burning with rage

[RagingInTheSun]

What is WRONG with me? On holiday with DH and two kids (aged five and one) and I am so, so angry.

I put so much time and effort into finding this lovely place, making sure DH and the kids would love it and extra surprises like an upgraded room. Packing, organising, planning - no else had to do anything, I sorted it all. But we're on day 4 and I'm miserable. The older child's behaviour is diabolical and I'm constantly telling them off and/or removing treats as consequences. The younger one has a cold and is whingy and unhappy. DH can't seem to see how bloody lucky we are to be here and is grumpy/finding fault with everything. Also he looks to me for everything instead of using his initiative or asking a member of staff.

I didn't build it up in my head, or have unrealistic expectations or anything - I just thought it would be better; that we'd be happy and have a lovely time.

I'm so sad

I came to the conclusion belatedly that holidays with kids are just "same shit, different location".
I took myself off for a short break alone to Lanzarote last April and it was bliss!

Holidays with kids are always difficult until they're older. It's shit but true.

I am always a bit suspicious of all the social media posts of happy families on holiday.

This. Especially with small kids. Nothing changes just (usually) better weather

Did you pack your DH's suitcase for him?