It's just been posted on Reddit and I'm interested to see the views of posters on that forum:
Hi everyone, an older XY woman here (I'm approaching 40). Back in February I heard a voice in my head, it was a little girl's voice and it promised happiness and 'real feeling'. Once I realised that it was my 'feeling voice' there was an explosion of emotion which came with symptoms of CPTSD (or masked autism?) eg light/music/taste sensitivity etc. I was also able to see people in an emotional light without the need for alcohol, which I now have no need for as I used it primarily to feel emotions. As part of the dialogue with this voice, I thought I had sorted out my identity as the voice readily said that I was 'a boy'. (The symptoms have settled down, now.)
Recently, after 3 months of therapy and prompted by my therapist asking after the gender of my 'inner parent', I asked my feeling voice what I meant by 'boy' and I said 'not mum'. I asked it what I looked like, and was shocked to find that I looked like a woman. I don't physically look like my mum, being an XY woman, but my emotional body is that of her gender. With the techniques from therapy, combined with a heady dose of my own, my emotions are now settled and I can eat and sleep and function again... so I'm preparing to meet the practical challenges of being an XY woman.
So, firstly, hey! I guess you're my folk, now :) The only stuff I know about trans people is what I learned during suppression, so I don't know much at all, really, and I have no trans friends or any friends I'm really close enough to to talk about trans stuff in detail, readily. Oh, also, I tend towards the term XY-woman. Is that okay?
Secondly, I have seen some posts about suppressed emotion on here pre-realisation and about emotional release. Given what happened to me, I would be very interested to hear about any similar instances of suppressed emotion and emotional release. Thanks for reading.