Early loss / MMC TTC support - the club nobody wanted to join 💔🌈

TinyBitChaotic · 2026-09-06T14:57:46+00:00

I thought I’d start a little thread for anyone who has been through an early miscarriage, particularly an MMC, and wants somewhere to find people who ^get it^ - wherever you are in the process. This definitely isn’t intended as a pity party, or to suggest that one loss is harder or more significant than another. Every loss is a loss, and everyone experiences it differently. But I do feel like an MMC can be a particularly cruel and surreal experience. Finding out at a scan that your pregnancy stopped developing some time ago, often when you had absolutely no idea, and then having to navigate the physical process afterwards… it can feel incredibly lonely. So I thought it might be nice to have a little corner for people who are going through something similar and, eventually, want to find their way back to TTC. No pressure to be positive, no pressure to “move on”, and no pressure to have the right words. Just somewhere to check in, vent, ask questions, share little wins, or remind someone else that they aren’t alone. I’m 35 and have a 4-year-old DD. I found out on Thursday at what should have been our 8-week scan that I’d had an MMC, with baby having stopped growing at 6 weeks. I’m currently on day 2 of medical management, so this is all incredibly fresh for me. I’m devastated, but also hopeful that we’ll eventually get our rainbow. Realistically, I’m hoping that once I get my negative pregnancy test in a couple of weeks, I’ll be ready to try again. For now I’m thinking very low-pressure - no OPKs, no BBT, just seeing what happens. I know that might seem like I’m rushing ahead, but having something to look towards and some sense of control helps me process things. Anyway, sadly welcome to the club nobody wanted to be part of. ❤️ Hopefully we can support each other through the horrible bit, whatever that looks like for each of us, and eventually find our way out the other side. 🌈

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TinyBitChaotic · Today 16:42

Janey3090 · Today 14:37

Hi all, this is exactly the sort of thread I was looking for! I am two weeks post D&C which I had at 9+1 (though baby stopped growing at 6+5.) This is following on from a chemical/early loss in April. The loss this time though hit me really hard and the grief felt overwhelming at first. I am feeling a lot better now though and ready to start looking forward again.

I have one DD who will be 4 at the end of the year, and she is my whole world. I'm just so desperate to try again, just hoping my body will kick back in quickly this time! I only had bleeding for one week post D&C and my pregnancy test I took yesterday was really faint, so nearly all the HCG is gone. So I'm keeping everything crossed 🙏

So sorry you've all been through losses/MMC's, I wouldn't wish it on anyone xx

Oh man, I am so very sorry for your losses! It is so bloody hard. I am sending you a big squeeze. You are so strong. We are SO strong. I keep thinking to myself “a man could never”. Although my DH has been an absolute rock, we go through so incredibly much as women.

Glad to hear you’re doing better mentally, and your tests are getting fainter. Hopefully we all get our rainbow babies soon! 🙏🏼🍀

I got a real squinter today, I hope for a total negative in the next day or two! We also DTD yesterday for the first time in weeks. My sex drive was absolutely gone during pregnancy, then I had 10 days of bleeding/spotting, which has stopped and I have been feeling really horny the last week or so! 🙈

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Janey3090 · Today 14:37

Hi all, this is exactly the sort of thread I was looking for! I am two weeks post D&C which I had at 9+1 (though baby stopped growing at 6+5.) This is following on from a chemical/early loss in April. The loss this time though hit me really hard and the grief felt overwhelming at first. I am feeling a lot better now though and ready to start looking forward again.

I have one DD who will be 4 at the end of the year, and she is my whole world. I'm just so desperate to try again, just hoping my body will kick back in quickly this time! I only had bleeding for one week post D&C and my pregnancy test I took yesterday was really faint, so nearly all the HCG is gone. So I'm keeping everything crossed 🙏

So sorry you've all been through losses/MMC's, I wouldn't wish it on anyone xx

mycatyells · Yesterday 20:12

@TinyBitChaoticI will be so happy to see our negatives ASAP, ideally this week!!
And totally see where you’re coming from with the OPKs - it is SO easy to get obsessed. When we found out about our miscarriage I remember weeping to my husband ‘I can’t believe we have to start TTC all over again’ because last time I found it so stressful 🥲 However saying that - it just feels kind of normal now to track and graph and project manage my body. But it is what it is!

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TinyBitChaotic · Yesterday 10:09

mycatyells · Yesterday 08:39

Definitely getting there!

I got my first squinter today, and my LH tests are looking slightly better. Hoping I ovulate in the next week, I usually ovulate pretty early in my cycle so assuming it’ll be a bit delayed but things are looking/feeling good! Have stopped spotting too.

We DTD this morning for the first time since. I keep reading stories online of women who’ve got pregnant the immediate cycle after miscarriage and feeling so much hope, could you imagine.

I genuinely think we are in the exact same spot, maybe +/- a day! We are inching closer towards that blooming negative!!! 🙏🏼

Well done for DTD!! We haven’t yet. I don’t know why! I’ve also read about how fertile you can be after a miscarriage, so I totally get the hopeful feeling. Let us both be lucky! 🍀

Only difference is, I’m not planning to use OPKs… because I think I’ll obsess and I don’t want to, if I can help it. Although now I’m wondering if I should?! 😂 I just really want to let this happen serendipitously. Like, we weren’t trying, we weren’t preventing, we just happened to have sex twice and BOOM - healthy, happy pregnancy. Is that too much to ask?! 😂🥹❤️ That’s the dream anyway!

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mycatyells · Yesterday 08:39

Definitely getting there!

I got my first squinter today, and my LH tests are looking slightly better. Hoping I ovulate in the next week, I usually ovulate pretty early in my cycle so assuming it’ll be a bit delayed but things are looking/feeling good! Have stopped spotting too.

We DTD this morning for the first time since. I keep reading stories online of women who’ve got pregnant the immediate cycle after miscarriage and feeling so much hope, could you imagine.

Early loss / MMC TTC support - the club nobody wanted to join 💔🌈

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TinyBitChaotic · Yesterday 07:56

We’re sloooooowly getting into very-faint territory but annoyingly not yet negative. 🫠
I am hoping by mid-week it’s gone stark white…I want it over and done with already!
Also probably TMI but had some brown spotting yesterday, so I wonder if that’s the “thingy” she saw on the scan? Hopefully!!! 🙏🏼

How is everyone else doing, feeling?

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TinyBitChaotic · 19/09/2026 10:33

mycatyells · 19/09/2026 10:06

@TinyBitChaoticthat’s such a frustrating result from the scan but your tests are looking great! Are you still bleeding??

This is my test from today, 10 days after miscarriage. I am still spotting which is annoying as my libido has made a surprising return (it was pretty low when I was pregnant!) but I don’t want to risk it until I’m actually negative.

Haaaate this waiting game and never thought I’d want to see a negative test so badly when for months I was praying to see a hint of a second line.

That looks really promising! I think we’ll get our negatives right round the same time.

I am the same! I didn’t have ANY sex drive while preg but the last week I have been ready to go lol 😆

Bleeding stopped end of last week; right around 7-8 days after the medical management, I then had spotting for 4-5 more days but have had absolutely nothing in the last 2-3 days!

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mycatyells · 19/09/2026 10:06

@TinyBitChaoticthat’s such a frustrating result from the scan but your tests are looking great! Are you still bleeding??

This is my test from today, 10 days after miscarriage. I am still spotting which is annoying as my libido has made a surprising return (it was pretty low when I was pregnant!) but I don’t want to risk it until I’m actually negative.

Haaaate this waiting game and never thought I’d want to see a negative test so badly when for months I was praying to see a hint of a second line.

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TinyBitChaotic · 19/09/2026 08:06

We’re slowly getting there! Today is exactly two weeks post medical management. I hope that is totally negative by early next week! 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

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TinyBitChaotic · 18/09/2026 11:25

Morning!
So, I had my scan today, exactly 2 weeks post medical management and… it was a tiny bit anticlimactic, to be honest.

She said everything has gone except for a tiny bit of something (she measured about 1cm - blood? Clot? Tissue? I honestly have no idea 🤷🏻‍♀️), but said this is very normal to see at the 2-week mark and she is absolutely not concerned. It doesn’t need any further intervention - no more medication or surgery, and my body should deal with it on its own over the next week or so.

The only thing is that I need to go back in another 2 weeks for one final scan, just to confirm it has all gone.

On its own, that was really reassuring, and my tests have become even fainter over the past day or two, so I fully expect to get a negative in the next few days. The only frustrating bit is that I had really hoped she’d say, “It’s all gone, you’re in the clear!”. I wanted this chapter to SLAM shut today, and instead it’s slightly ajar for another fortnight. 😩

She did say something that I found a little confusing, though. Apparently once I get a negative pregnancy test, I can start TTC again. But she also advised ideally waiting until that final scan in 2 weeks, because if I fell pregnant while my body was still dealing with this little bit, it could cause unnecessary stress.
I took that to mean she was basically saying: technically you can, but save yourself the potential mental gymnastics if you do get pregnant and then your body decides that is the perfect time to expel the last little bit of whatever is hanging around. Because obviously that would send me into orbit. 😵‍💫
So her advice was actually really thoughtful and sensible.
BUT… for some reason I’m feeling kinda ready to just… see. 👀😬
Like I don’t want to time things, but I don’t want to prevent…and now I have a wrinkle in my plan…for two loooooooong endless weeks!!!

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mycatyells · 17/09/2026 09:27

@TinyBitChaoticoh wow they’ve gone down quickly! Let me know how you get on with your scan tomorrow, I’ve got everything crossed for you ♥️

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TinyBitChaotic · 16/09/2026 18:33

mycatyells · 16/09/2026 12:50

@TinyBitChaoticso glad to hear you’re feeling better! The hormone crash is crazy. I’ve been feeling super up and down, today just feeling empty. Not back to work until next Monday which is nice and oddly kind of looking forward to it as I’m definitely stewing a bit, but at the same time I do keep randomly bursting into tears so I’m going to try and avoid too many meetings.

How are your tests looking? I’ve started testing today even though it’s only been a week, but HPT is relatively light considering it was a dye stealer about 10 days ago. Started using OPKs too because I’m a psycho but not even a hint of a second line there so will put them down until the HPTs get to a squinter. Just want to start trying again desperately.

I totally get that. I have a similar feeling of “I just want this over and done with so I can get on with life again”. My tests have become much more faint these past 2 days. They were complete and utter dye steelers up until mid next week. Today felt encouragingly fainter, I hope it is negative by Monday-ish! 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻
hoping yours go negative soon too! I think I’ll try to avoid OPKs for a while, and just see how we get on…

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mycatyells · 16/09/2026 12:50

@TinyBitChaoticso glad to hear you’re feeling better! The hormone crash is crazy. I’ve been feeling super up and down, today just feeling empty. Not back to work until next Monday which is nice and oddly kind of looking forward to it as I’m definitely stewing a bit, but at the same time I do keep randomly bursting into tears so I’m going to try and avoid too many meetings.

How are your tests looking? I’ve started testing today even though it’s only been a week, but HPT is relatively light considering it was a dye stealer about 10 days ago. Started using OPKs too because I’m a psycho but not even a hint of a second line there so will put them down until the HPTs get to a squinter. Just want to start trying again desperately.

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TinyBitChaotic · 15/09/2026 09:57

Hello again. It’s me again.

I think I must have had some sort of a hormonal crash around mid-last week before I felt such devastation and hopelessness Wednesday and Thursday and just couldn’t help but cry. I think that was when I last posted here.

But I woke up on Friday and weirdly felt brand-new. I felt in control of my emotions and they felt so much more level and stable. The weirdest thing, I genuinely think it was something like the baby blues you get (or I got with my DD).

So, anyways, just wanted to resurface here and share that I feel much better mentally. Also physically, bleeding and spotting has now stopped. Tests are continuing to fade which I thought I’d be sad to see but am finding oddly satisfying. I have my follow up appointment at the EPU on Friday morning and hoping the scan shows that everything has cleared. Fingers crossed!!🤞🏻

How is everyone else doing/feeling? Here if anyone wants to talk. ❤️‍🩹

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mycatyells · 10/09/2026 11:30

TinyBitChaotic · 10/09/2026 11:21

Awww, good news in such a shit situation. I am glad you’ve had a positive scan and managed to avoid surgery!
I still have a week to go until my check up and scan, and hope to be given the all clear.
I must admit ai have been feeling really emotional the last day or so and today. It’s exactly a week since we found out I’ve had a MMC and it feels like it’s all catching up to me. It might also be some kind of hormonal crash. I’ve just been crying lots, and feeling sorry for myself. Ugh.

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Thanks my lovely. I hope your scan comes around quickly ♥️ and sorry you’re feeling so sad - it’s such a crash isn’t it, from such exciting highs to the worst of lows. I keep thinking ‘this time last week I was pregnant and planning x, y, z’. This weekend we were supposed to be going public with the news. And now I’m empty and it’s over and it was all over so FAST.

I’m right here with you, we can wallow in the sorrow together.

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TinyBitChaotic · 10/09/2026 11:21

mycatyells · 10/09/2026 11:17

I can definitely see what you mean on the latest test, not just you going crazy!

Update from me - I ended up naturally miscarrying yesterday, over a very intense two hours. I called the EPU for advice and they said to still come in today and they’d scan me - had a TV ultrasound this morning and looks like I passed the overwhelming majority. There was a tiny bit left by my cervix which they removed with forceps. Uterine lining was very thick but as I’m still bleeding they seemed confident that would pass, and I’ve got to test in 3 weeks to check it’s negative and HCG is cleared, and then they said we could try again right away.

Really hope for your scan you get similar news, it was such a relief for me to not have to get the surgery today!

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Awww, good news in such a shit situation. I am glad you’ve had a positive scan and managed to avoid surgery!
I still have a week to go until my check up and scan, and hope to be given the all clear.
I must admit ai have been feeling really emotional the last day or so and today. It’s exactly a week since we found out I’ve had a MMC and it feels like it’s all catching up to me. It might also be some kind of hormonal crash. I’ve just been crying lots, and feeling sorry for myself. Ugh.

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mycatyells · 10/09/2026 11:17

TinyBitChaotic · 10/09/2026 09:23

Idk why I’ve been torturing myself with daily testing in the hopes the line starts fading. I know I am being impatient, but I’m trying to feel some sense of control. On Monday evening I got basically a dye steeler still. Pretty much same on Tuesday. Yesterday, I felt it was a smidge less intense. Today is the first day i can see the control line is darker than the test line. Do you see it too? Or am I having the opposite of line eyes and wishing it away? I need some kind of proof that my medical management has worked and things are starting to fade…

I can definitely see what you mean on the latest test, not just you going crazy!

Update from me - I ended up naturally miscarrying yesterday, over a very intense two hours. I called the EPU for advice and they said to still come in today and they’d scan me - had a TV ultrasound this morning and looks like I passed the overwhelming majority. There was a tiny bit left by my cervix which they removed with forceps. Uterine lining was very thick but as I’m still bleeding they seemed confident that would pass, and I’ve got to test in 3 weeks to check it’s negative and HCG is cleared, and then they said we could try again right away.

Really hope for your scan you get similar news, it was such a relief for me to not have to get the surgery today!

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TinyBitChaotic · 10/09/2026 09:23

Idk why I’ve been torturing myself with daily testing in the hopes the line starts fading. I know I am being impatient, but I’m trying to feel some sense of control. On Monday evening I got basically a dye steeler still. Pretty much same on Tuesday. Yesterday, I felt it was a smidge less intense. Today is the first day i can see the control line is darker than the test line. Do you see it too? Or am I having the opposite of line eyes and wishing it away? I need some kind of proof that my medical management has worked and things are starting to fade…

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TinyBitChaotic · 09/09/2026 13:54

I am finding myself in a really weird mental space today. It’s only day 5 post-medical management. I don’t know if this is hormone-related, but my moods are all over the place. One moment I feel calm, hopeful, positive. The next I am overwhelmed with sadness and feeling really anxious and hopeless. It is really rough, I feel as if I have no control over my own emotions and I hate it.

In other practical news, EPU called me yesterday to check in on how the weekend has gone and said everything sounds very positive. They also said my appointment with them next Friday is actually in person and that they will scan me too, which I didn’t expect and gave me a massive peace of mind. I just hope that when I go they say everything has passed.

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TinyBitChaotic · 09/09/2026 13:50

mycatyells · 08/09/2026 20:17

This thread has come at the perfect time for me!

So sorry that we’re in this club together. I was supposed to be 11 weeks on Saturday but found no heartbeat at a private scan. Went to EPU today and missed miscarriage confirmed, baby measuring at 10w5d. We’d seen them last at a private scan at 8 weeks, measuring ahead and with a heartbeat.

Because of the gestational age my only two treatment options were for medical management in hospital, or surgical. I would’ve rather had medical at home but seeing as either one has to be in hospital, scheduled for surgery on Thursday morning. And then that’s the pregnancy over.

I feel the same as you - I now just want the negative test and to jump straight back into TTC. This pregnancy took us a long time to get to so really hoping we catch early next time. Although I need to lose some weight first - gained 10lbs in these 11 weeks!

Sorry, it’s all so shit x

I am so sorry, hoping it all goes well on Thursday. It is so rubbish. It feels devastating, yet it’s also so common, the number of women I have confided in who said “yes I’ve had something like this happen to me too”… I was very naive and oblivious because I had no idea this world really existed and it was sadly so common. Sending you love! ❤️‍🩹

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mycatyells · 08/09/2026 20:17

This thread has come at the perfect time for me!

So sorry that we’re in this club together. I was supposed to be 11 weeks on Saturday but found no heartbeat at a private scan. Went to EPU today and missed miscarriage confirmed, baby measuring at 10w5d. We’d seen them last at a private scan at 8 weeks, measuring ahead and with a heartbeat.

Because of the gestational age my only two treatment options were for medical management in hospital, or surgical. I would’ve rather had medical at home but seeing as either one has to be in hospital, scheduled for surgery on Thursday morning. And then that’s the pregnancy over.

I feel the same as you - I now just want the negative test and to jump straight back into TTC. This pregnancy took us a long time to get to so really hoping we catch early next time. Although I need to lose some weight first - gained 10lbs in these 11 weeks!

Sorry, it’s all so shit x

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TinyBitChaotic · 08/09/2026 16:20

GoneWithTheWind4 · 08/09/2026 13:41

Hello. I’m in this club too :(
sorry for your loss and for the emotional ride you’re on.

I have two kids - 7 and 5. But had 2 MCs last year. The shock of having two! Couldn’t believe it would happen again. I started bleeding with both so perhaps less of a shock than a MMC, but long and drawn out and just sad processes.

TTC a few months after the second but drove myself mad symptom spotting. So took 7 months off trying and am now on my first TWW after trying in August. But feel really sad today as feel period pains; and just not sure I can or should keep trying.

I am really sorry for your losses and your heartbreak ❤️‍🩹

The TWW is its special kind of torture. But as slow as it goes and as mad as we go symptom-spotting, it’s also such a hopeful time. I have everything crossed for you!

I think one thing I’ve learned from this MMC is that I won’t obsess over tests and symptoms. Because apparently, they can mean absolutely nothing. As and if I feel ready to try again, I don’t think I’ll test before my period is due. And once I get a positive, I don’t think I’d keep obsessively testing to see the line getting darker. If you can’t tell I tortured myself like this back in July, and what did it bring? Nothing but false promise. Oh well, famous last words I guess, but that’s how I feel right now

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GoneWithTheWind4 · 08/09/2026 13:41

Hello. I’m in this club too :(
sorry for your loss and for the emotional ride you’re on.

I have two kids - 7 and 5. But had 2 MCs last year. The shock of having two! Couldn’t believe it would happen again. I started bleeding with both so perhaps less of a shock than a MMC, but long and drawn out and just sad processes.

TTC a few months after the second but drove myself mad symptom spotting. So took 7 months off trying and am now on my first TWW after trying in August. But feel really sad today as feel period pains; and just not sure I can or should keep trying.

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TinyBitChaotic · 08/09/2026 12:23

Ughhh it’s such a mind f*ck , isn’t it.

If I could go back to EPU and get a scan that would be ideal. It would give me such a peace of mind that everything has passed, or equally if it hasn’t I just want to do what I need to do and be done. But they don’t do scans as a routine.

I also don’t understand how it works practically. The people who get pregnant before even getting their first period back, not that I plan to do that, but practically, how? When supposedly it takes 2-3 weeks sometimes much longer for that neg test. So how do you know everything is gone and you’re ok to try again, if you wanted to?

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Springcloud26 · 08/09/2026 12:06

@TinyBitChaotic I’m showing a very faint line still after 7 weeks (stopped developing 6 weeks, started spontaneously at 9 weeks). Had a blood test today to check hcg is still going in the right direction. (it was 68.7 2 weeks ago). AF has finally arrived now though!