Hi everyone, sorry to post here, I just needed some quick responses.
I have anxiety and a couple of my main symptoms are being easily startled and overthinking to extreme levels.
I am home alone almost every weekend. I manage fine in the day but once it hits night time and I'm in my room, I feel terrified. I have very noisy neighbours (screaming, shouting, crying, banging for the majority of the day, everyday) and because they are so loud, it sounds like the noise is coming from my house, like someone is stomping upstairs. I also cannot get used to the noises the house makes, mainly creaky floor boards when the house cools down. Because of all this noise, I get so paranoid that someone is in my house or that the banging is someone trying to break in.
When I get tired, I find myself trying to fight the sleep as I'm too scared to fall asleep, I also keep a baseball bat next to my bed. I've checked door handles and windows multiple times to make sure they're locked and checked all of the rooms in the house. I have to check that the doors are actually locked and I have to film myself locking them otherwise I end up convincing myself that they're actually open, same with the windows. I usually check everything 4 times or more otherwise it doesn't feel right.
I appreciate that this sounds nuts but could really do with some advice to help me get some rest tonight.
Thank you x