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Intense dejavu episode

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flowngo · 02/10/2023 21:26

Posting for traffic as spooked -

Have spoken to my best friend who's a GP but also posting to see if anyone has experienced similar.

This eve was waiting for my boyfriend to ring me to catch up about some future plans, we had been together with my child earlier this eve, low key dinner and chill time, no alcohol etc.
around 2030 I thought I will just go up to bed (out of character for me at 2030) and he can wake me up to chat later on. As I thought this, I had a phone call from him, except it was like a pocket dial as he sounded a little far away but he was saying things like "...stripper pole and don't give me any bullshit about not drinking, I know you drank in Barcelona" - of course I was immediately thinking is he ok, has he been drinking, who is he talking to, what's going on. I hung up and immediately texted to say call me asap, and googled intense deja vu to see what on earth was happening. The words were consistent with something we would have a bit of a row about a good while back.

He rang me and said he hadn't realised he had pocket dialled me, and was confused about the narrative I had heard.
Of course I was completely spooked by this, my friend said to contact the GP tomorrow morning, I know that Neuro won't see me overnight at ED so unless I have any symptoms of an upcoming seizure I'm not sure what to do!

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flowngo · 04/10/2023 16:40

Zonder · 04/10/2023 14:48

Does he acknowledge that he did phone you then?

He did once he checked his call log, I imagine he would deny saying anything rogue anyway, as most people would if caught out unawares.

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flowngo · 04/10/2023 16:39

Rainbow890 · 04/10/2023 15:21

Hi OP
Hope you are feeling brighter now and feel settled with the neuro reg's reassurance of nothing sinister. Im sorry if this thread has taken a turn for you.
Dont be doubting your relationship (unless you see appropriate) and dont go overthinking the episode. Just put it down to a weird thing we all get from time to time.

Post viral is best explanation. I definitely was a little weird, and answered wrong questions/conversations when i was just out of covid. I also struggled to read simple instructions. Would be alarming if i wasnt so close after covid. You maybe think it was a mild virus you were recovered from but im so certain your brain just filled in gaps subconciously when you hardly heard your bfs butt dial. I bet without realising, you had recenty thought about that argument or saw something similar on the tv or whatever.

Anyways....i would just leave this thread now as its a shame for you to feel attacked. People are just concerned for you but that can appear harsh.
Take care....

I did Covid test today as I developed a loss of smell and taste, but -ve. Would be staying at work even if it was +ve but would've be interesting to know if it was linked as I have been feeling super run down.

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Rainbow890 · 04/10/2023 15:21

Hi OP
Hope you are feeling brighter now and feel settled with the neuro reg's reassurance of nothing sinister. Im sorry if this thread has taken a turn for you.
Dont be doubting your relationship (unless you see appropriate) and dont go overthinking the episode. Just put it down to a weird thing we all get from time to time.

Post viral is best explanation. I definitely was a little weird, and answered wrong questions/conversations when i was just out of covid. I also struggled to read simple instructions. Would be alarming if i wasnt so close after covid. You maybe think it was a mild virus you were recovered from but im so certain your brain just filled in gaps subconciously when you hardly heard your bfs butt dial. I bet without realising, you had recenty thought about that argument or saw something similar on the tv or whatever.

Anyways....i would just leave this thread now as its a shame for you to feel attacked. People are just concerned for you but that can appear harsh.
Take care....

Zonder · 04/10/2023 14:48

Does he acknowledge that he did phone you then?

xILikeJamx · 04/10/2023 14:22

It would appear to me he was about to call you, was talking to a friend in the background about an argument you had previously (possibly taking the piss out of the situation) then realised he'd accidentally pressed 'dial' and you were on the line.

BurnToastAgain · 04/10/2023 14:15

BlurredEdges · 04/10/2023 09:04

It would be cruel of me to point out some fairly significant inconsistencies in the way you present yourself both within and across threads. But I think your insistence that there are no mental health issues at play is misleading a lot or posters.

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I agree. The OP has an unusual style of communication, is obviously (and why not because it’s a valuable job?) proud of being an NHS bed manager and likes to pepper her posts with medical jargon to illustrate her knowledge of medical terms. Most people keep the jargon at work where it belongs, thank goodness, but in this case none of the abbreviations are difficult to understand.

I’m not sure what advice, if any, was being sought on the forum but, as is often the case, none was taken since the OP apparently has immediate access to a raft of qualified professionals with actual clinical knowledge that the OP feels may be pertinent to her “case”.

I too looked at her previous posts and found many egregious inconsistencies. I still hope OP manages to get suitable help if she feels she needs it. I could expand on that, but I certainly don’t want to add to OP’s woes if she feels that she no longer needs what she refers to as “signposting”.

Highlighta · 04/10/2023 11:02

Me too. And tbh I didn't even know that I was doing it! I only realise now how much I do it as when dd came home for a visit, she actually mentioned it. So now I am just more aware of how often I do it😀

I speak to the dogs too, but that doesn't count.

McIntire · 04/10/2023 10:32

I speak to myself all the time and I’m not schizophrenic! Certainly not alcohol induced either.

Libelula21 · 04/10/2023 09:28

Tangential unsubstantiated theory here: back in the day, when I’d had a heavy night drinking the night before, I’d find myself talking to myself. And when you alcoholics on the street they’re often talking to themselves. My unscientific hypothesis is there’s something unique alcohol, compared to other substances, which makes you have a wee rant to yourself!

overdrawn · 04/10/2023 09:27

Luciansmum6 · 04/10/2023 09:25

@overdrawn thats to your dog so it’s different.

well, before I got my dog I also used to sometimes have conversations out loud... as evidenced by this thread, it's quite common and certainly doesn't mean someone is schizophrenic!

Luciansmum6 · 04/10/2023 09:25

@overdrawn thats to your dog so it’s different.

overdrawn · 04/10/2023 09:23

Luciansmum6 · 04/10/2023 09:11

If you are post viral I think it could be a fever induced hallucination. Or he’s schizophrenic and you heard him talking to himself.

Speaking to yourself doesn't mean you're schizophrenic! Lots of people do it.... I speak to my dog all the time when there's no one around (and if I'm thinking about something I'm annoyed about or have argued about might rehash it with her to get it out of my system 😂)

andynarwhal · 04/10/2023 09:20

I think, then, the simplest explanation is he was caught out talking to himself or to someone else on a pocket dial.
Have to agree with other posters though, there are some significant omissions in your posts and someone with your recent history probably isn't in a good place to be in a relationship. Particularly with someone who wants you to drink (why? what difference does it make to him). Maybe take some time for yourself, access some good therapy, re centre yourself and then look for someone to share the good bits. There's no rush. You have, understandably some signs of significant anxiety and your GP might be a good starting point. I've suffered with anxiety all my life and had at one point some pretty weird episodes of depersonalisation. Sertraline and time have both helped me. Take care.

Luciansmum6 · 04/10/2023 09:11

If you are post viral I think it could be a fever induced hallucination. Or he’s schizophrenic and you heard him talking to himself.

BlurredEdges · 04/10/2023 09:04

flowngo · 04/10/2023 07:42

I see the armchair psychologists are out in full force - I've no dx or medicated conditions, I've chased various things due to my family hx of bipolar etc but nothing which would lead me to the conclusion that I don't have anything?

I do manage to hold down a pressured and fast paced job and seem to be respected and liked by my colleagues and teams, as well as running a home etc. I agree that I've had a challenging last decade, as well as a less than ideal childhood but I think I've come out fairly ok the other end!

No alcohol consumed by either party that evening. Was word for word or incredibly what he had said months ago, even similar inflections.

Whatever it was it did throw me hugely at the time, having spoken to a Neuro reg yesterday we concluded it was either post viral fog as I haven't taken much time off work whilst being sick or a popular theory from this thread, ranting out loud to himself! The conversation then shifted to her saying she wished her boyfriend would ring her more often Grin

It would be cruel of me to point out some fairly significant inconsistencies in the way you present yourself both within and across threads. But I think your insistence that there are no mental health issues at play is misleading a lot or posters.

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flowngo · 04/10/2023 08:47

andynarwhal · 04/10/2023 08:25

@flowngo did you ever ask your boyfriend if he'd said what you heard?

Yes and he said absolutely not, he was just taking the shopping and that was that. Asked if he had been drinking, he said not at all that day. He had no idea what I'd heard.

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andynarwhal · 04/10/2023 08:25

@flowngo did you ever ask your boyfriend if he'd said what you heard?

McIntire · 04/10/2023 08:21

flowngo · 04/10/2023 08:15

@beastlyslumber just apart from all the posters who inferred that he was cheating with the OW. Just because I find it crazy that people rant to themselves out loud months after an event, doesn't mean that I don't believe that it can happen.

You do realise that cheating with the OW was a possible answer too don’t you? You may think it’s a crazy suggestion but you also think the ranting to themselves is crazy too.

All replies here were valid

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flowngo · 04/10/2023 08:15

@beastlyslumber just apart from all the posters who inferred that he was cheating with the OW. Just because I find it crazy that people rant to themselves out loud months after an event, doesn't mean that I don't believe that it can happen.

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beastlyslumber · 04/10/2023 08:05

McIntire · 04/10/2023 07:56

@flowngo
I love the way you ask a question on here about a fairly strange situation. Posters give honest replies.
You then accuse them of being ‘armchair psychologists’ but also infer many of them are a bit crazy because they admit to ranting to themselves.

However, that surprising revelation appears to be what your expert friend thinks could be the answer.

Haha yes, this exactly!

How about, "thanks for your support and suggestions, turned out to be what the neuro consultant thought too."

McIntire · 04/10/2023 07:56

@flowngo
I love the way you ask a question on here about a fairly strange situation. Posters give honest replies.
You then accuse them of being ‘armchair psychologists’ but also infer many of them are a bit crazy because they admit to ranting to themselves.

However, that surprising revelation appears to be what your expert friend thinks could be the answer.

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flowngo · 04/10/2023 07:42

I see the armchair psychologists are out in full force - I've no dx or medicated conditions, I've chased various things due to my family hx of bipolar etc but nothing which would lead me to the conclusion that I don't have anything?

I do manage to hold down a pressured and fast paced job and seem to be respected and liked by my colleagues and teams, as well as running a home etc. I agree that I've had a challenging last decade, as well as a less than ideal childhood but I think I've come out fairly ok the other end!

No alcohol consumed by either party that evening. Was word for word or incredibly what he had said months ago, even similar inflections.

Whatever it was it did throw me hugely at the time, having spoken to a Neuro reg yesterday we concluded it was either post viral fog as I haven't taken much time off work whilst being sick or a popular theory from this thread, ranting out loud to himself! The conversation then shifted to her saying she wished her boyfriend would ring her more often Grin

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MeMyselfandI2 · 04/10/2023 03:05

I mean this with the greatest respect, but OP do you have a drinking problem? It’s the only way all of this makes sense to me. An argument about drinking- you saying he complained about you not drinking with him, but was it perhaps him asking you not to drink because of issues which arose when you drank with friends? A phone call where you believe he was again frustrated about your drinking- did you drink and that’s why you went to bed early? Etc. Again, I mean no offense.

VanGoghsDog · 03/10/2023 23:27

Moonlightdust · 03/10/2023 12:09

It does happen more than you think. Phones can be compromised and adding more apps can give a hacker more gateway. I’ve read of people answering a call only to hear their previous conversation being played back to them.

The OP stated it sounded like a faraway recording with a tinny sound (she even checked to see if her phone was playing a video) and says it was exact wording her partner had used months ago. I don’t think you would remember 30 seconds of a whole conversation from 5 months away.

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Neither the poster nor her dp would remember exact words from 5 months ago. So her saying the were the exact words has to be taken with a pinch of salt.

cuppycakey · 03/10/2023 22:20

OP hasn’t been entirely honest about this relationship or their health, so there’s not much point in the thread as nobody can advise properly (assuming previous threads and comments are truthful)