I'll try not to be too vague.
As a single mum, full time worker, part time student, I have very little time.
I was, and still am, ridiculously happy being on my own after a long long relationship which declined for five years (no intimacy for three) but my mind occasionally thinks of whether I'll be lonely in five years time.
Trouble is, who the hell would want to date me? I'm loud, opinionated, very busy, used to paying my own way, used to being fully in control of everything. I also feel like I'm 25 but have very much the body of the vicar of dibley and the fashion sense of Eddie from Ab Fab. I don't want to change.
The men I see are either hot but late twenties, no kids, no commitments or older, podgier, boring. The young ones won't date someone who's got so much on and the old ones will want sympathy, ego boosting, to be a stepdad... I don't want that at all.
I can think of so much I don't want. I don't want domesticity, I don't want to mother someone, I don't want to be looked after, that it feels like there's no real solution. If I was hot I feel like there would be more options. I don't get any male attention apart from the occasional leering builder or man in a van.
It's all so depressing. Please cheer me up!