I need to lose weight. I feel and look awful. I know what I need to do to drop some weight. But I just don't. Every week is the same. I have a bingey weekend and promise myself from Monday I'll start eating in a calorie deficit. This maybe lasts until Wednesday and then I'm back snacking. It's the snacks that kill me. My actual meals aren't too bad but I get the compulsive need to snack and can demolish about 300-400 calories in a minute or two just on crisps, crackers and biscuits.
At the weekends I just write it off completely because booze, bacon butties and takeaways are a standard part of our weekend routine. We rarely go out and so I guess I see it as a well earned treat that I look forward to all week.
But I'm starting to hate myself. I hate the way I look and I hate my lack of motivation and willpower to change.
I walk for miles but I do little exercise and ultimately it's my diet that needs to change. I'm pushing 40 and it's becoming so hard for me to drop weight like I used to when I was younger. I just don't know where to find the determination to succeed. I see food and alcohol as a treat, a joy. I don't want to give them up totally but I can't carry on like this and expect change.
If anyone has any tips on how to totally transform my mindset and lifestyle please let me know!!!