Checking in as only just caught up with this thread. I've moved across to full time work for the first time in 18 years and it's am intense job. It's also the happiest, most rewarding job I've ever been in and my boss is amazing - so it's a real mix.
But I'm not on mumsnet like I used to be as I feel I'm in catch up mode with the rest of my life the whole time!
I'm now at 7stone loss since Jan which feels unbelievable really. I've still 4 stone to go to be into healthy and I know my weight loss will soon start slowing down but it's been good to be at this spot. I left my other job I've been in 10 years last week (I had both jobs part time since Jan) and the last few weeks I've had compliments from people I don't see often. I think because I was very morbidly obese me being "just obese" still looks very different. My mobility is so different and just ease of functioning. I couldn't have been full time this time last year.
I moved down from 10mg to 8mg as I was getting constant sulphur burps and stomach issues for 5weeks and now I don't usually get sulphur burps but I'm not sure I'm eating enough of the right things. I do feel I am not fussed by food at all now which wasn't ever really my goal.
I still think I'm both thinner and fatter than I am!! I have no real idea. I've got size 16 seasalt dresses and love swishing around in them - I think not wearing dresses that were far too big does show my shape more. I've got a white stuff dress size 18 in the excitement - but my stomach is still too round for it to hang right. I'm going to hang onto it though as it's not "awful" so will fit in a couple of months I think.
I'm often still surprised by things like the large gap between me and the steering wheel which was one of my first goals in my head just not to touch - and took a while to get to at the begining of the year.
And not worrying about benches close to tables sitting out somewhere. Or walking from a car park to a car.
I still don't know how I'm perceived by nomalr people that didn't know me before as I'm still obese. I kind of feel like I should be "there" now as in my body I feel so much slimmer. But there's 4 stone to go! Im thinking being "not obese" will be in sight soon though.
Im so grateful to you all here for sharing the ups and downs. I've had a very very dark and difficult time over the last 10 years and this year truly feels like I'm emerging. Both health, weight and mobility wise, but I also finished a long period of counselling, I was diagnosed autistic and Adhd early in the year and am medicated which has helped no end, and have finally transitioned to a more suitable job after years of keep failing at interviews which has done my self esteem the world of good and there seems like hope things can get better.
I'm not saying life is easy - I have kids with a lot of needs and a mum who is on her own and in and our of hospital and I am not sure how full time will work but I am just feeling more hopeful than I have in years.
Oops long post but I'm likely to post sporadically now and just wanted to say thankyou and also to share the hope for those starting out. There's people here that encorugaed me so much in my (very anxious) pre starting MJ time and those first few months.