I've been posting on my monthly thread but feel the need to jump over here for some support please.
While I'm happy that people are losing weight, reading that they only have 2, 3 or 4st to lose its just so demoralising. I know everyone's journey is individual and I feel bad diminishing anyone else's feelings, but their agonising over how much they have to lose and how it's going to take them months just makes me want to scream and cry.
I have over 10st to lose. It's going to take at least a year (maybe two). I'm just so disgusted with myself for getting to this weight. I'm so overwhelmed by it all.
I can't bring myself to say how much I weigh or my BMI but I'm class III obese. I'm weighing in kg because I don't have much concept for how much that is and when I converted it to st/lb initially I was totally horrified. Mentally I can't handle looking at the st/lb numbers. I keep meaning to take my measurements but I've been procrastinating because I don't want to know the numbers (will the tape measure even go around my body?).
Just completed wk3 on 2.5mg and took dose 4 last night. I've lost 6.1kg (13lb) which I'm both happy and worried about. Worried because it seems too fast, although I lost 3.3kg (7lb) water weight in my first week so maybe it isn't too fast when I take that into account.
I'm trying to think positive and give myself credit for starting this journey, and for what I've achieved so far, but it feels a bit hollow.
Not sure why I'm posting this all really but felt the need to get it out of my head.