Morning troops, how are we all doing?
For me, Christmas food is now over so I need to refocus as I have lost my way the past week.
Another distraction lately has been horrendous constipation, however I can report that we have had movement in that department. I believe the movement was because I purposely ate full cream and drunk copious amounts of baileys.
Planning on doing a shop today where I will get flax seed to see if that will help prevent constipation.
Also I think I need to be more conscious about calorie counting as I feel that has gone down the slippery slope too.
i am a great one for reflection and yesterday I had a bit of a light bulb moment as to why I haven’t told a single person in real life I am doing this.
I think I carry so much guilt.
Guilt for eating, guilt for not being able to or want to exercise, guilt for pressing the self destruct button when you know you shouldn’t eat something but you can’t stop yourself, guilt for buying the wrong food items, guilty for consuming addictive items be it chocolate, UPF or alcohol. Guilt, guilt , guilt!
Which then affects your moral, self worth and self esteem.
I have this secret as I feel guilty that I am sneakily spending money on MJ, I didn’t think I could afford it but as I am seeing the savings as I’m not spending on addictive items, I can now justify it.
I feel guilty as I am spending money on myself, when I get pleasure from spending on others and treating them.
From today, no more guilt, I am making these changes for a healthier me and I am proud that I am taking things in hand.
i am not yet ready to “confess” what I’m doing, but like weight loss, all in good time.