Wave your snorkel in the air like you just don't care!

[serialtester]

Open.

Lost, say something wise!

CleaningLikeFuckingMotherTeresa ?

That was a touching post, Cleaning. You're not a failure, you're witty, ambitious, kind, driven, have a lovely husband and son and you're good at cleaning and making eggs look like carrots. You rock.

13 days is incredible cleaning. You should be very proud of yourself.

Off out to buy Easter eggs in a bit, oh the excitement!

Morning surfers, I am still surfing silently alongside here. You are all doing great and keeping your amazing sense of humour.

Not a lot of laughs at CA, it's all pretty full on. But I am ready for that, and I get my giggles from watching you lovely lot.

I am doing well, not so much in days clean, but in getting to grips with how this addiction works, and I am finally beginning to see that there is a way out.

Last night I avoided falling off the surfboard by telling myself the following (something my sponsor said)

The addiction tells me

1. It will feel good
2. That it will be different this time (comedown won't be bad)

The absolute reality is;

1. It won't feel good
2. It won't be different (comedown will be the same and likely worse)

This reality hit me square between the eyes last night (ouch!!)

Just sharing in case this helps anyone, I suppose it's the same as winding the tape forward.

Anyway, will pop back once I am 30 days clean xx

So pleased you're doing well Flat (aka the silent surfer ) and sticking with CA. Having a sponsor will help massively, I hope you have found one that you can open up to x
Well done last night. As we all know, when the cravings hit and the tunnel vision starts it's damn hard to keep it real and not lose your head!

My aim is to be a month clean, which I haven't managed for a very long time so hopefully we can cheer each other on.
Have a good Easter break

Serial Hope you had fun egg shopping.

Had a good day out in sunny Eastbourne. Now home and cravings are moderate to quite bad . I've opted for a cold lager as substitute. Mmm lager.

Gearing up for a heavy weekend here as Mr D has a friend coming to stay. All kinds of bad influences on each other. I've said I'm going to limit use to one day, my nose can't take any more.

It's going to be a long weekend Dusty I'm already predicting myself in the DANGER ZONE from tomorrow night onwards.
Well done going for damage limitation. Your nose will thank you I think you need to reward yourself with a large chocolate egg if you manage it!

Long weekend a worry here too. bloody bank holidays!!

I'll hold your hand Serial
Idiots Guide to Kicking Cocaine: Chapter 10 (surviving an Easter Weekend)..
A) Dress yourself in a ridiculous Easter Bunny outfit rendering it impossible to venture out or answer your door to a dealer for fear of being a laughing stock.
B) Eat your own body weight in chocolate eggs making it difficult to do anything but lie down.

Evening lovelies, I have taken myself to bed as Dh has got supplies in as it's his birthday coming up. It was RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF ME!! I really really wanted to do it but I didn't. I know I will be so happy tomorrow but god it was hard to resist.

Hi Everyone, just a quick check in from the caravan park mini break. Glad to see you're all doing well. Great work Sunday you will be so smug tomoz

Easter weekend is a bit of falling overboard tradition for me and had big naughty plans for Friday but now stopping off to see friends on way back from said mini break so won't happen. There's hope yet

Hope you're all having a nice Easter break, there's been a mini heatwave here down south today and the wine is flowing x (but this is not a drunk
post for once)

Also we'll done Cleaning on 13 days, Flat you are awesome,Lost and Serial do your best and Choc don't beat yourself up, none of us are perfect. Dusty look after your nostrils and Bonkers starkers? High five! x

It all sounds great down at the old caravan park, Hooch I'm loving the sun too. We can be high on life (and wine) there is hope yet for us all

Sunday wow you have won today's Balls of Steel award

Evening all, sending love and armbands to all!
Had a top up therapy session and it messed with my head a bit so been a bit quiet.
Glad everyone is going great

(( hug )) for Pickle. I think you've got your head screwed on just fine my friend. In fact, you could be the sanest of us all Chin up x

Thanks for the arm bands. I'm all tucked up in bed like an old lady but they'll come in useful for surfing The Danger Zooooonnnnnneee..
Reinforced surfboard and grippy shoes required..

Ah thanks lost, in tucked up too, fully bathercise and pyjamarate at 9.30 sharp!
I just went for a reminder on various things after mental woman at work episode.
Tiring in the head. I exhaust myself some days!
I may need my electric air guitar to get through the da da da danger zone this weekend, I don't crave it but occasionally god I could murder 2g and a bottle of vodka.... This too shall pass...

Maybe a Jon Bon jovi style wig....

I think that was a good idea, Pickle (The therapy, not the Bon Jovi wig)
You've had a shit time at work lately.
I can imagine it's exhausting. My head would probably explode if I saw a therapist.

Night all x

Night all, off to sleep for hopefully 8 hours. Fingers crossed x

Weekend guest has already offered and I have declined- well it is a school night and MrD gets up at 5:40. Need a pair of those stretchy waterproof shoes, in black and dayglo green

It can't be easy having a weekend guest who keeps offering it to you, Dusty I'm impressed at how strong you're being.

Have a great Thursday all

Day 14 the longest two fucking weeks of my life lol.

Have done this long since last summer- I did a month.

I seemingly need to leave the UK to be clean Trying to stay positive for now though.

Luckily no danger zone for me as not back til Sunday and have a heap of work to do on Monday

Have a good day everyone. Well done Dusty

Haven't done

Go Cleaning, 14 days clean! It doesn't matter how you did it, you did it.
You must feel all detoxed and great. You don't do things by halves do you? I think kicking the fags at the same time makes it doubly hard.
Your Balls of Steel award will be waiting for you when you get home.

Hi Lost, I thanked you in my previous post (I loved the egg and carrot reference!) and said hi to Flat but it got chopped off somehow!

Ah yes, my dm has oftened commented that it's all or nothing with me but always more of a criticism than a compliment.

I had a cheeky cider last night but still didn't smoke! Have made a non-smoking friend out here and dh tries not to smoke around me and ds so the cravings are getting easier. I make him chew gum and wash his hands before he comes near me too. Dh, not ds