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Can somebody please catch a train down and see me for a real hug :(

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coff33pot · 07/09/2012 09:43

I need a real body. I am heartbroken and destroyed.

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starfish71 · 07/09/2012 09:45

Oh coff what has happened? xx

wasuup3000 · 07/09/2012 09:47

:( I hope someone can! Sending you loads of love xxx

TantrumsAndGoldAndOrange · 07/09/2012 09:51

Where are you?

What's happened?

auntevil · 07/09/2012 09:52

Love being sent your way.
PM if you want me to call you.
xxx

FalseStartered · 07/09/2012 09:55

i wish i could coff

{{{{{{{bug hugs}}}}}}}}

FalseStartered · 07/09/2012 09:55

if i did come down though, they would be bIg hugs Blush

come on, chick. let it out {{{{hugs}}}}

coff33pot · 07/09/2012 09:58

Its dd and I have found out she is taking cocaine :( a friend told me it was so she can control her eating. I am dreading telling DH because we couldnt work out how we worked so hard but had no money from the shop. Its been short last 3 weeks on a sunday. I stand to lose our home as I owe thousands but now of course I know why :(

I have let him down and her because I didnt spot it. I love him very much but I dont expect him to take this on board he is so tired and worried we have all been. This is going to hurt him.

My ex H was a drug addict I ran away from him when she was 3 and I never ever thought she would do this she was always anti drugs I cannot confront her I am afraid to hear it :(

She is also refusing to get help now as she wont lose the control she says I really dont know where to turn and no one here will understand. She stole DS meds yesterday as she cracked I managed to find them before the kids did. She is so lovely why does she have to do this :(

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coff33pot · 07/09/2012 10:00

DS is having a meltdown so I got to go he went head over heels on his bike and he needs the docs but wont leave the house I have to go and help him.

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FalseStartered · 07/09/2012 10:01

coff

i have seen DS2 through coke use, we can talk here or on PM if you like?

starfish71 · 07/09/2012 10:02

Sending strength to you and your family, pray you find a way to help your DD xxx

TantrumsAndGoldAndOrange · 07/09/2012 10:05

You haven't let anyone down. Please please believe that.
It's not your fault that your dd is using cocaine and it's not your fault you didn't spot the signs.

Now listen, there will be some people here who have gone through a similar situation. You are not the only person to have a child who has/is using drugs. And they will have advice and help and support for you.

Of course your DH will be shocked and upset. you are shocked and upset. And angry and all the other emotions running around you right now.
But you can get through it together.

Sending you lots of love.

bochead · 07/09/2012 10:13

She's been self-medicating in the abscence of any appropriate medical support poor thing. Things have been so bad for she became suicidal - where was the professional help before she got to that point? It's not the same as a wayward teen's casual experimentation & therefore you shouldn't react to it as such (easy for me to say I know). The professionals shouldn't treat it as such either, but should help her so that reality becomes a better place than oblivion.

FalseStartered · 07/09/2012 10:39

we didn't know about DS2s coke use until he rec'd a court summons for a bank debt. (the bank debt was unenforcible as it turned out (a long drawn out saga but we ended up going to County Court and winning by having the CCJ set aside) DS avoids confrontation due to his autistic traits (not officially dx'd but very Aspie).)

if hadn't got to the post before him the day that summons arrived, he would have tried to pay it.

i then transpired he was already in debt with his real bank account, the dealer was watching our house for him and he had sold all his possessions. he owed lots of people very small amounts of money, he was lying about where his wages were going (he had a very well-paid job at the time) he was constantly borrowing items that were never returned (probably sold them)

all that and we never realised what was going on.

he self-medicated with coke to socialise. he bought it for his friends too.

thankfully he had the presence of mind to recognise that coke turned him into an asshole, and since we've been having assessments for DD, we are recognising a lot of ASD behaviour and traits in him - he able to recognise them too, and he's done a lot of work on himself.

none of this was anyone's fault in a way - it was circumstance and mis-understanding on what was going on inside his head i reckon.

your DDs substance use is not your fault either {{{more hugs}}}

lisad123 · 07/09/2012 10:43

Where are you?
So sorry to hear this, but please know its not your fault.

zzzzz · 07/09/2012 10:44

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TheNinjaGooseIsOnAMission · 07/09/2012 10:54

coffee, sending much love your way xx

ThoughtBen10WasBadPokemonOMG · 07/09/2012 11:03

I wish I could get down there to give you a hug :( I do think of you every day and the struggles you have. Has DS started at Juniors yet? x x x

StarlightMcKenzie · 07/09/2012 11:26

coff , will read the whole thread in a min but just wanted to say that as devastating as this is, it is simply the unravelling of her problems and getting down to the detail. It helps explain stuff and when you become an expert in this, which you will become, it will hold less fear.

Drugs have touched my life too. It's crap but now you know what you are dealing with you can seek out appropriate support. I think it would be wise first to start with support groups/people FOR YOU. Where drugs are concerned you 'can' enter a world so far removed from reality you forget what reality is like, so touching base with normal people who have been through it will protect you from that.

merlincat · 07/09/2012 11:29

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ouryve · 07/09/2012 11:37

{{{coff33}}}

I wish I could come and give you a real hug. Just please don't blame yourself. It's not like it's a normal thing to wonder if your child is doing coke, so why would you suspect unless something was really, really obvious?

Chundle · 07/09/2012 11:37

Oh no Coff so sad for you :( I'm near you if you ever need a chat or a hug get in touch and wr can meet up xxx

StarlightMcKenzie · 07/09/2012 11:48

And coff, I would have come down but it's my own dd's birthday on Sun and she has been overlooked for most of the year.

Please keep posting if you can. Many posters here are very genuine.

coff33pot · 07/09/2012 11:51

I am all the way down in Cornwall and I dont know a soul with a child with SN or drug use. When I ran I ran for good and cut off anyone I knew but that was easy for me as I wasnt a partying ppl person anyway and just wanted to protect DD. I thought I had. But part of this life she is leading is due to what he has done to her psychologicaly. She had to take him to court at 14 because he made her do it to not go see him but him visit. Courts made me take her there every 2 weeks since she was 3 despite me nearly going to prison for refusing 3 times. She was nearly kidnaped to scotland (which is why I hate that place and its laws) Its been hell for her and so we protected each other. He wasnt bad person but drugs made him a verbal abusing bastard who played a lot of mind games. He isnt much better now and to be honest I fight with memories still.

She has had so much hurt in her life and I couldnt keep it all away

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Firsttimer7259 · 07/09/2012 11:57

Hey hang in there, so sorry for what you are going through. Where are you? What can we do for you if you are too far away from us for a RL hug?

I think many comments above are very wise about self-medicating and once the shock wears off this can be dealt with. I know you must be distraught and angry and it is so sad its come to this but you can do it. How can we help?