Brave Babes...braving the Autumn

[Mrsmimsy]

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Morning.

Oh wise Faire, yesterday was a struggle, but I do not regret not drinking. In fact I'm really rather chuffed. This morning, I feel rested and lighter and ready for the day.

Lala did you manage to talk with mrL?

Morning all. No improvement here. Might sound stupid but I am reading other people's comments and thinking a lot.

It doesn't sound stupid, Walker, what're you thinking?

Trying to weigh up if I should attempt some AF nights or taper off. I have had very bad night sweats when stopping completely be fore.
I am never sick or have hangovers, barely ever drink during the day, never inappropriate when drinking. So I do have some level of control. Just not enough!

Thanks made I'm here, reading and hoping all are OK.
Not posting much as so short of time w work, kids all down to me...etc.
Haven't drunk, really wanted wine yesterday but managed not to buy. And once kids in bed no way to get out for any booze anyway.
GBBO tonight (little things) Sue and Mel I enjoy.
Nothing much from H, he's saying he can't do anything or talk to anyone cos he's so sad. Still going the pub mind you.
I feel a bit numb really.
Hope all your Wednesdays are good and there's a bit of sunshine for you today.

Morning all.

ma thank you that's a lovely thing to say. But who (or what) is midget Obama?!

made have you looked for counselling charities in your area? A lot of them have sliding scale payment schemes depending on income, and there might be one specifically for under 25s?

sweet massive well done for resisting last night, and glad you are feeling the benefit today.

lala has mr l mentioned the drinking to you at all? Were they empty or full bottles? Hope your doing ok today my lovely.

sober hope you start to feel a bit better soon. How are things with your mother now?

walker I also had bad night sweats and palpitations to begin with. How much are you currently drinking?

42 well done for resisting the wine yesterday. Sorry things are so hard at the moment.

I have made it to day 11, and weirdly don't currently want to drink at all. Even caught myself at work looking forward to my bottle of koperburg af cider (my current favourite treat drink...doesn't taste of cider or alcohol at all but the right amount of fizz and flavour to feel like a proper drink). In the middle of a horrible run of shifts (just under 60 hours in 5 days, then I get a whole 36 hours off to recover ). Nights today/tomorrow so just pottering about this morning, going to attempt a gentle run in a minute and then go back to bed for the afternoon to hopefully get some more sleep!

m.youtube.com/watch?v=oAeotgCHL3E

And cheesy as it sounds, this came on shuffle when I was blasting my music out in the car last night. It's now at the top of my running playlist. Feels pretty apt for me at the moment...

thanks elba hope you get some good sleep before tonight - I've done nights a lot on and off over the years, tis hard, KOKO

elba thanks for asking about my mum. Chemo is finished and she survived it pretty well with few side affects. However has been told that her type of ovarian cancer is likely to return
It is horrible to see her a bit frailer however she terrorised me as a child and I have very mixed feelings about her. Trying not to dwell on the past and provide support but it doesn't come naturally because she has never been there for me in any shape or form.
Anyway counselling has helped me to distance myself emotionally and I provide practical support where I can.......it's just so very very sad.
However it's not making me reach for the bottle
Going for another AF day

Great song btw .......soooo positive

ma sent you a PM. Hope you had a good time with midget Obama 😄

Tisme you are doing so well considering your situation. I think providing practical help is more than enough by the sound of things.

Thanks walker
I was at the dentist for 8.30 this morning bright and breezy. Got so much more time on my hands I find myself pacing and looking for things to do.
My need for sugar is through the roof and I don't normally have a sweet tooth.
Where is everyone..... was it something I said

hi all and good morning
stayed up til 12 last night working (not drinking, so can do things!)
then up at 6 for the day with the DC but...
it is all easier than spending each night drinking, losing more sleep (I have periods of insomnia anyway) and then feeling hungover.
Another AF day today and then I might not drink on Friday...
Hope all are okay .

Just dropping in quickly. On day 12 but finding it harder again for some reason- tiredness maybe. Nearly caved this morning and had plans of buying wine tonight for after work tomorrow but I haven't...I want to drink but also really don't want to if that makes sense. About to start work so got to run, hope everyone's ok

I did joey!!!

tis I’m sorry to hear that about your mum, well done for being so supportive. And well done for staying sober!
Ooh busy day theanswer, you’re right though it’s better than drinking heavily
Well done elba that’s almost another AF day down well done for resisting!
I’m good, sticking two fingers up at my advisor at JC because I have an interview Monday In another nursery bus it is closer to home and also, I’d be working with the babies which is what I prefer anyway (give me a baby who wants cwtches over a tantrumming 3 year old any day of the week) Also really enjoyed volunteering. Have had a small glass of wine but at least I can now stop at one – 6 months ago a ‘normal’ night would have been a bottle or two, plus 4 or 5 vodkas and 1 or 2 ciders. Shocking looking back. Also had a shock when in Bargain Booze earlier, drink is really too cheap. A bottle of cheap white gutrot cider for £3.99! For 3 litres. No wonder kids get drunk so easily. Same as when I was in my teens. A big 2 litre bottle of strongbow was £2.50 so I could get a bottle and some (shared between 2 of us) chips and 2 games in the bowling alley for a fiver. Shocking looking back, considering it wasn’t that long ago.

Epic fail last night"...............when will I learn
Climbing back onto the bus

tis good morning, I hope youre feeling ok, and well done for getting bsck onn, I know just how easy it is to disappear after a blip. Be kind to yourself babe

elba you said "I want to drink but also really don't want to"
This makes perfect sense to me and is exactly how I feel too.

morning made, the price of booze IS a real issue I think.
tisme good that you posted and that you're back on...I've not been here long but I reckon a blip here and there in the context of drinking far less is SUCCESS
hope everyone is having a good morning

Completely fucking awful night at work last night, was fighting back tears the whole time just because I simply can't be in 20 places at once (and because I don't like being shout d at because of this). Bought two bottles of wine on the way home, with two gift bags and cards to make out they were a present rather than I was buying wine at 10am. Been sat looking at the bloody things for over an hour, and crying, but now the first is open. would of been two weeks af tomorrow. Feels like a joke that this was all going so well a couple of days ago. Sorry, should really call it a day and go to bed just so pissed off at myself and yet still drinking?!

elba sorry that you are having such a crap time. I know it's not easy once the bottle is opened but do you think that you could chuck the unopened bottle away ? At least that way you could minimise the damage.
I really messed up last night and have spent all morning wishing that I could turn the clock back. It's really really not worth it.
Sending you a virtual hug and someand lots of

Thanks for the hug sober, much needed. Actually didnt quite finish the first bottle as I fell asleep! Can't help but think maybe I should of just allowed myself a couple of glasses and cut out the agonising over it. Would probably of had less that way. Feel like shite now though, lying in bed with killer headache and trying to make myself get up and make more tea. Also realised I've not eaten now for 24 hours...being sensible as ever prioritised a quick coffee and two cigarettes over food for the crappy 20 mins break I managed to get last night. Half tempted to just have a bath and order a takeaway then give up on today and go back to sleep. Totally shattered. Not tempted by the remaining wine though (yet) at least...

A bath and a takeaway sounds great
I am heading to the airport to visit family and won't arrive until after midnight.
So wish I could tuck myself into bed eat crap food and watch crap TV.
Can't you get rid of the wine .......I know that if it was staring at me I wouldn't be able to resist. Think of how good you will feel tomorrow
Where is everyone else.
Will check in from the airport as a distraction from the crowds in the bars

Done bath, clean pyjamas and waiting for pizza to eat in bed. Rock and roll Friday night for me . Hidden wine in the wardrobe...can't bring myself to throw it out for some reason. Hope the journey is ok and you're feeling better from last night xxx