DRY 10!!!!

[CheesyNachos]

Welcome! This is the thread for those of us who want to abstain from alcohol. We are all at different stages of our journey, and many of us have some hiccups along the way, but we are committed to an exciting, fulfilling, joyful life alcohol-free.

Previous thread is here.

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Everyone is welcome!

Hi, I just wanted to mark a day 1. I deliberately didn't post after posting for the first time some weeks ago; a combination of denial and lack of ability to actually proactively do something. It's weds morning. I feel like crap after another clandestine session last night. Ended up fighting with my husband. He still has no idea what I am up to. The absolute guilt of what I am doing to myself and my family eats me up. I keep thinking I am either going to have an accident or develop a health complaint. Why oh why do I develop amnesia of how I feel right now when I crack and start in a few days time. I wish I could record the memory of a hangover and the feeling of awfulness so I could play it to myself before I pick up a drink. Anyway I wanted to say hi and I hope that you are all doing ok.heres to day 2..

Hi. I've been here before (more than once Can I come back? Am trying really hard this time. Going to weekly therapy, trying Smart recovery online and listening to the Andrew Johnson app each night. On day 11 today (longest since pregnancy!) Have been so tired it's tough. Find it hard to focus on just today and worry about events months from now! Feel a bit better this morning and could use the extra support on this site. you are all doing so well.

How are you managing, loubilou? Remain strong! Remember all the good reasons why you've chosen to do this. You can get through your conference!

And hello too, cheesy. I hope things start to get less busy or at least more manageable for you.

*clarise" your post reminds me of so so so many times I've felt exactly like that the morning-after-the-night-before. Use this thread! Post here as much as you need to. It really really helps to know there are people out here who completely understand where you're at. For today, make yourself a mug of hot sweet tea (I don't usually take sugar but it can be comforting when you're feeling rubbish) - maybe get a nice cosy cardigan or blanket or something to wrap round yourself - and remind yourself you'll feel a lot lot lot better by mid-afternoon. This is a learning process. You only learn by making mistakes. Here's to day 2!

And hello to yellow. Well done on day 11. I'm struggling with extreme fatigue too. I was expecting to feel all full of the joys but I'm simply KNACKERED!! I try to remind myself I got in this pickle over YEARS of alcohol abuse, and to try to be patient while my poor body tries to repair itself as best it can.

I had my first listen to the app last night. I see what people mean about how he says "NOWWW" but otherwise I like his voice. Slept through most of it but had good sleep so I suppose it doesn't hurt! Anyone know what he actually says on it? I have mild paranoia about him implanting weird messages in my brain while I'm "under" (even though I know that is ridiculous!) Seems weird to allow a total stranger access to my subconscious...

Anyway - onward, everyone!

lol Preces! He tells you to stop drinking NOOOWWW.....! Also you have no desire to drink and the benefits of not drinking. I like to think I am smashing an old neural well worn pathway in my brain and creating a new one. Constant messages to not drink to my brain can't hurt. I feel better today than yesterday, I think I was in denial of the damage a half bottle of vodka a day can do to your body and mind

Thanks Preces. Slowly coming around. I'm not sure if it is hangover or the constant need to appear normal that's harder.

Clarice and Yellow welcome.

Getting through a hangover is awful - been there so many times.

Today was one of those days that I would normally try to forget though drink. Lots of things going wrong and it was all generally frustrating.

Luckily, I have no booze in the house so can't be tempted.

Going to have a bath and a cup of coffee instead.

Thanks for thinking of me Preces I am absolutely white knuckling right now the team event is WINE TASTING!!!!! Happening in 10 mins...

My company are complete lushes as well an no one gives two hoots how much anyone drinks in fact it's almost a sport as to who can drink the most...this is harder than I thought it was going to be!

Oh God, Lou - that (wine tasting) would test me to the limit!

Hope it goes well and you don't get too many people nagging you to drink.

Thanks orange - hiding in my room for the monent

Loubilou fucking hell you poor thing!!! PLAY THE TAPE FORWARD NOW!!! THEN INVENT A REASON TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF THERE IF YOU CAN......AND KEEP PLAYING THE TAPE FORWARD.....YOU CAN DO THIS!!! keep posting too xxxx

Preces the "now" thing was a bit strange to me at first but doesn't bother me now. I'd never got to the end until early hours of Sunday when I woke up and listened again. Don't worry, it's fine. You can also listen on wake mode, I did that after work on Friday last week and again, it's fine. Thoroughly recommend X

Clarise welcome back. Please stay here this time, we can look out for each other
Read as much as you can, there's lots online. Lucy who posts on here has a fab website and blog here ahangoverfreelife.com so have a look at that.
Just post on here, maybe download the Andrew Johnson app that we've been talking about??? And maybe consider AA....I don't go there (at the moment) but lots on here do and recommend it.
Be kind to yourself, please xx

Final post for now......regarding the Andrew Johnson app which is self hypnosis.....I have a friend who I'll refer to as B.....who is the most sensible lady I know. She's quite a bit older than me, had a long career in the teaching profession and basically doesn't hold with any crap. She's also the most sceptical person you could meet when it comes to stuff like hypnosis. About 8 years ago a good friend of hers asked her to accompany her whilst she was hypnotised into believing she had been fitted with a gastric band!!!! Because she is such a good friend, along she went......thinking it was a load of rubbish. Long story short, it worked for B but not for the other lady. She told the hypnotist her problem was cakes, biscuits, chocolate etc and since that day, she's never eaten or even craved them since. Seriously, it's amazing! Not only that, she started to eat fruit which she never enjoyed before!!! She lost and has maintained a 2 stone loss and still struggles to believe it worked!!!
That's why I gave the app a go in the first place...

I am sorry I might not be welcome here?

I succumbed - I am with 48 drinkers and I lasted all through the wine tasting but I am sorry but I have drunk three glasses of wine :(

Lou

Course you are welcome here!

I think the circumstances were rather tough - I don't think I'd abstain if I was in a wine tasting.

Lou Bloody hell that was going to be a tough one.

Lou under the corcumstances I think you did well only having 3 glasses.......and if you're anything like me they would have been large glasses.
Today is a new day, just start over

I wouldn't have stopped at three. I would have been paralytic and would have staggered into my house and passed out on the floor.

Don't be hard on yourself Lou - if it helps to draw a line under it, ask yourself what you would do differently next time for a different outcome. All slips can be learned from... :) Even now I would not go to a wine tasting because in all honesty, what is the point? Did you have to go? Sometimes it helps for me to try to imagine it from someone else's point of view. If I knew there was a recovering alcoholic (or a person who had decided they had a problem and was trying to cut it out, to word it differently) in the company, do I think that the other people there would expect them to attend a wine tasting evening? I don't think anyone would think badly of that person for making their excuses and not going.

Aww thank you guys! Yes was really tough - we are staying in a private chateaux where everything is free you just help yourself to whatever you want and trying to find a tonic water near enough impossible! Unfortunately after I posted I of course ended up having more and being one of the 10 or so revellers thst pushed it to the limit! I do remember just getting up and leaving but I am quite vague about going back to my room and am now cringing hoping I was okay.....my room is next door to a really senior person in the company and I am having mild panic attacks that something happened...by that I mean I was helped to my room etc. I am sure that is just drunken paranoia because I put my phone on charge, got undressed etc so doubt I was that bad but it's the drunken paranoia getting to me....I have just seen her and I think if there was something I needed to know she would have told me! What a complete arse I am!

There were three of us doing "dry January" and we all failed. My company are big drinkers and I was sat with the boss who was wielding a nice bottle of Sancerre and telling me I was mad to have a dry January, I was nearly at the end of the month blab blah blah...I feel like crap now and it really wasn't worth it!

Hungover paranoia I mean not drunken paranoia - I am not drunk now promise! :)

Shh just saw you post Orange...yes pretty much what I did! Nightmare...

Ahh not shhh

Typing on an iPhone is a nightmare!

lou I gree with Teapot every slip can be learned from. Good luck today.

I am going to an AA meeting tomorrow. A new one has opened up near me.

Thanks everyone for your kind wishes re my family issues.

Good luck at your AA meeting Cheesy. Is it during the day or in the evening? I'd be interested in hearing about it if that's OK? Friday is a good day to have an AA meeting isn't it? I hope things are calming down for you now xx
Not heard from Marry for a while....hope she's OK XX