Support thread for survivors of childhood sexual abuse PART 7

[CailinDana]

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The purpose of these threads is to allow survivors of childhood sexual abuse, their partners, friends, or parents, to talk in a safe place about what they think and feel. Nothing is off limits or taboo, just say what you want to say.

Is that to replace your psycho neighbour Natural? I'm not bad wee bit low but expect it tbh trying to process so much again talking helps DH asked what happens and I snapped that it was my business he doesn't deserve this

Could you do something distracting if you feel like you're going to snap? Something obvious like pat your head? so he knows your feelings are awry? rather than snap? Just after therapy is a difficult time to do normal stuff and I find it easier to have a "me" evening, just to get rid of the "gunk".

I'm trying to find alternative actions for my worst behaviour.

Yes she is replacing psycho neighbour.

Do you know where Cailin is?

Hello everyone.

Sorry I joined then disappeared. I just don't know what to say on this thread. I feel like a fraud as you lot seem to have been through a lot worse then me.

I hope everyone is feeling ok tonight!

Say what you want SP, I've been waffling about eagles all day :o

Can I ask you a question?

SP I get told off for comparing for me its trying to minimise it realised it today as talked in depth about me doing it. We've all had a hell of a life its what we make of it that matters in the end at this moment I'm terrified of screwing everything up though

Ask away natural

SP sometimes I just talk crap anyway

Natural we were out he's not that happy that I'm going on a Tuesday as its our night out since I started this us time.

dotty I think that's what I'm doing. I always down play what happened so to me it doesn't seem that bad as people have been through worse.

Cailin was only getting back today perhaps she's tired Natural

I questioned what I had to say today for the first time felt so humiliated still do and its over 8 months ago but it's so they can guage the severity of it always said it wasn't bad

Ah, was worried as I thought she was back here today, d'uh

Dotty, that's true about minimising, I don't feel like what I went through is anything in the grand scheme of things.

SP, why Russell Howard? :o

I just feel like what happened to me is nothing compared to what others have had to deal with.

I wish this sort of thing was around when it happened to me though. Think it may have helped more. I didn't receive counselling or anything afterwards

natural because he is my current crush and I'm proving I am not embarrassed

SP have you had any councelling now?

None at all. It happened 6 year ago at 15 and at 21 I am still just dealing with it alone.

SP what happened to me stopped 29 years ago only just getting counselling since disclosing didn't even know it was called disclosure this time last year how thick am I

SP my first lot was at rape crisis they got me through the worst of it really hard for me to think of it happening to you my oldest daughter is your age I'm so so sorry xx

What is disclosure?

Rape crisis is good, they can offer support and rape councelling.

online there's NAPAC for information. Grounding techniques are good if you get flashbacks?

Reporting it SP

I don't get flash backs any more just the odd bad dream now and again.

I see the basterd who did it wondering the streets at least once a month and that is like a trigger if that makes sense.

Reporting what dotty?

Think I need to give mr google a break was remembering questions I was asked today during my interview as a lot of that day has been blurry was to determine the aggravating factors of the rapes.

Disclosure is telling someone

My phones playing up so having probs if I disappear got to duct tape the charger

Disclosure is what I did when I reported the sexual abuse to the police