Support thread for survivors of childhood sexual abuse PART 6

[CailinDana]

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The purpose of these threads is to allow survivors of childhood sexual abuse, their partners, friends, or parents, to talk in a safe place about what they think and feel. Nothing is off limits or taboo, just say what you want to say.

Lays out red carpet, special vip area, cake and

Ok, found it.

What's up mashed?

How's you? I'm really glad it went ok with your DH, spill the beans, my head was a bit mashed :o with infected tooth, antibiotics working now so feel much better, have some

My mother gave me a special photo of my childhood dog as a puppy, made a big fuss over it, same colour, same size, same collar, face half hidden by a rug. Even ds says it looks the spit of my old dog.

It's a fucking charridy card of some dog called benny!

There's no hope for me :o I'm up psycho street without a paddle.

That is mad! Mashed, absolutely bonkers!!! [shocked]

All talked out now really, very exhausted.

Hi Cailin,

Pyscho creek ffs :o

I'm either seriously stoopid or she's the queen of manipulation.

I ain't skilled psycho enough to counter attack that.

Lays out doormat with psycho deterent on it.

She also now thinks I want to keep her stuff! what planet are you on ma! huh huh! grr

Why does she think that? Just put it out FFS! She can have it!

Crazy!

Hugs offred

I know but somehow "I've left your stuff in the shed, the key is with the neighbour" gets translated in her twisted little mind too "I want to keep it"

I'm presuming she's planning how to convince me to keep it, this has been going on a year, I should have just dumped it.

Surely you can still! Dont let her dictate. There'll just be endless silly games. Give her a choice of ways to get it and a time limit and then either chuck it or drop it at a police station.

I know sigh, this is the woman who tracked me down across 2 countries.

My psyche is going to help me prepare, hopefully!

T minus xdays and counting.

"You make me wanna die" changed to "oh do fuck orf goodbye"

How's even one else?

Throws out fredjackets lifejackets see :o

Your mum is a nutter mashed.

I'm good, have had a quiet evening.

How are you feeling Offred?

Wow! No words!!

so tired, can't sleep.

I don't know cailin! Ok. Have done things today. Was not a write off. Done a lot of talking and sorting out feelings in a lot of ways. Big dcs saw their dad (dreading) but was fine. Dd1 was ok going to school and coming home (trouble settling in) which was good. Couldn't have dealt with the stress today!

Swapsies anyone :o

When do you visit yours Cailin?

Deep breathing Offred, very relaxing so boring you'll be asleep in seconds

xpost sorry.

Sounds like a positive day,

End of July Mashed.

I'm going to head to bed. I'm glad your day wasn't too bad Offred.

Hope everyone sleeps well, see you all again tomorrow :)

Morning. X

Morning Offred, how's it going?

Ok, still feel a bit numb. Things are a bit weird. What about you cailin?

morning
trying to have a quiet tea and toast before school run
dcs kicked off at bedtime yest after a busy day - put them to bed at 7pm and crashed myself right through (medication helped ahem)
Hate the noise when overtired DCs kick off - really reminds me of back then, stupi I know- but am proud that I didnt resort to any other methods my mother would have used...I ended up telling them i wont buy any more biscuits this week and gave them a hug (????) but it worked, calmed them right down, they got the message and had a story.

Now, I do ask myself, this morning, why the f* couldnt my mother have just adapted her behaviour like that when things were not going as planned in her 'home' rather than resorting to violent outbursts to us all?

loser

enjoy your breakfast all

Will prob pop back in again later with a coffee and a quiet house when both are at their places of learning today

still exhausted from her weekend visit according to DH anyhow

Morning all early night done me good bit beyond a joke how early though, couldn't find my pills woke at 10 and 12.30 so not bad for me.

Sorry got distracted by toddler issue! I'm fine Offred thanks. What do you mean when you say "things are a bit weird"?

Belle I think some people enjoy screaming at and beating children, it makes them feel powerful. Why else would people defend smacking etc? There's no need for it, yet some parents still insist on using it. The only reason could be that they actually want to do it.

Glad you slept well dotty.