Support thread for survivors of childhood sexual abuse PART 7

[CailinDana]

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The purpose of these threads is to allow survivors of childhood sexual abuse, their partners, friends, or parents, to talk in a safe place about what they think and feel. Nothing is off limits or taboo, just say what you want to say.

Ok thanks Natural thought it was that.

Did any of the police treat you negatively? What has the court been like so far?

Yeah course NN. I forget what my last strop was about now, hope you're ok with me? water bridge life short and all that crap :) I have a stroppy teenager in me who likes to come out and make my life difficult sometimes...

No not at all only seen 2 both DC's I am a bit paranoid of annoying them think I have done a couple of weeks ago. I'm not involved in court yet. Won't be unless it goes to trial.

Amitola, yep mines a hysterical bossy child and I've had to apologise on mn this weekend so going to take a break soon. I'm fine with you, just worried and I can't offer anything other than a listening ear.

If I don't come back my phones died I'm in bed watching da vinchi code

Was that the thread I mentioned if so I'm really sorry.

I'll have to catch up tomorrow, monkey awake again grrr

Hope it goes ok for you Dotty, it's awful to be going through, has anyone gone through the court process or will go through it with you if it goes to trial.

I wouldn't worry about annoying them, you're their main witness, they should answer your questions willingly and be supportive. hugs.

I'm just worried as I was older, not going into details but I'll be treated as an adult I think.

Night everyone just incase, am too not here to sleep. just going to try meditation I think.

Dotty, no, that one, t'other and a few others. Just need a break as everything feels hopeless and what I liked about mn is overshadowed by shite, mine and others, just tired.

Dana I didn't know a thread for this existed. Hopefully you will remember from a thread about wanting people to come forward.

I hope people don't mind me joining this thread but I would like too.

Hello SPs, CailinDana's away for a few days but you're more than welcome to join.

How're you doing?

Yes DC did when she phoned for a chat she was on nightshift and gave me a ring to see how I was doing this was before she'd even sent the paperwork in to CPS, I later asked her if she knew more than she had let on but she hadn't it was just a gut feeling and the amount they had against him the fact that it came back so fast really pleased her you could tell in her voice also meant the process was sped up a bit. She said she'll take me through to court and meet the important people and have a look around beforehand if it goes that far lots to happen before that I really hope it doesn't now want him to plead guilty as I'm worried I'll fall apart and screw it up which means he'd get away with it.

natural thank you. I just wasn't sure if belonged here or not.

I'm ok thank you. I thought I'd join as I was raped a few times at the age of 15 by someone who was meant to be a boyfriend. I went forward and told the police but nothing came of it.

SPs so sorry to hear that you where still a child after all so of course your welcome were a friendly bunch here

SP, sorry for what you went through, I was 14, 17 and 21 when it happened, so a little older than some of the others on here.

Amitola, I'm so glad counselling is going well, I'm currently in counselling and finding while it hurts, I'm learning things about myself and I'm finding it's helping.

Hi sp. I was assaulted and bullied at school from 11/12, raped at 17 and 19 to 21 I feel like a fraud being here too but think it is normal. Certainly when I was at women's aid counselling after my abusive relationship I thought I shouldn't be there either.

See we have a wide range of stories/experiences here don't worry.

SP, I was raped aged 12, 14 and 33, So sorry that happenend to you, you are more than welcome here as Dotty says, you were still a child.

Chips, glad councelling is going good for you too, it is difficult though.

Offred, you are always welcome but I know what you mean, I felt that way when I first started disclosing.

Dotty, I really hope he pleads guilty too. Good they keep you in the loop though.

Thank you everyone. Just like offred said I do feel abit of a fraud after what some of you have been through.

He was an older man who made me think we were in a relationship from 14 til I was 15.

Sorry to hear about everyone else

SPs I was in a similir relationship friends with a 43 year old at 15 he pursued me and we got into a 'relationship' at 16 he raped me first night I went to his flat but I didn't know better and eventually moved in with him where his abusive treatment continued the only good that came out of it was I suddenly realised that what had happened from the age of 4-12 was incest didn't talk about abuse back then. Stupidly never realised until last year that he had raped me from that age always knew it was intercourse told DC I felt stupid as well but she says its not as I blocked so much out.

SP, there are a fair few on here who have been abused in their teenage years, it's awful, the years when you should be enjoying becoming a woman and some shit decides to do that to you, it's fucking awful.

There's an awful lot of abuse of teenage girls which is disgusting as you're not prepared for going out into the world and dealing with abusive twats.

I'm so sorry you're trust was broken and abused in that way. You should have had the same right to be a young woman as everyone else.

Ok, I'm finding this quite hard but can I have a hug? needy

My mother is on imminate arrival and I can't handle it, primarily it's because she won't give a specific day so will just turn up and my heads in a mess, not grounded etc just not going forward and stuck in spinning round my head mode. I am getting rl help, just don't want to feel alone, crap shitty needy shite

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