Support thread for survivors of childhood sexual abuse PART 7

[CailinDana]

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The purpose of these threads is to allow survivors of childhood sexual abuse, their partners, friends, or parents, to talk in a safe place about what they think and feel. Nothing is off limits or taboo, just say what you want to say.

Natural keep getting told off for it or told I've done nothing to apologise for some have banned me from saying it and go apeshit if I do it can't help it.

I've had the same from people Dotty, it's really difficult to stop as it's such an ingrained reaction.

I have a genetic disorder which affects my co-ordination and was really clumsy as a child, my step father would punish me for it so everything I did I apologised for.

Natural so sorry about that life really sucked for you didn't it.

Ditto for you and everyone else Dotty.

I have to go to bed now, will be around tomorrow misses Cailin already

Night Natural just watching Slumdog Millionaire ironing to put away then bed for me as well.

Morning all, still here for the moment, heading away later. We're going to visit the ILs so not exactly a holiday although they will look after DS for us. I just don't find their house very relaxing. But we must do our duty!

Hope everyone is ok today.

Morning Cailin at least you'll get a break from little one I'm sure he'll love it.

Morning dotty. DS loves MIL but isn't keen on FIL - the boy has good taste! BIL will be there on Monday and we'll meet his gf for the first time so I'm looking forward to that. BIL is lovely and I hear his gf is great too. Time to suss out if I'll be having a new SIL in the not too distant future .

MIL is lovely she's just a control freak so we never know what's happening from one moment to the next, she just pushes us around like small children. She'll just announce that we're going somewhere, no asking if we want to go or anything. I'm wrecked at the moment so I think I'm just going to tell DH that I'm staying in bed most of the time and he and his parents can have some alone time with DS. I usually end up getting dragged around with MIL while DH lounges around back at the house (only because MIL is lonely and I want to keep her company) but I'm going to tell him he has to do that duty this time and I'm being the lazy one!

How are you doing?

Had a better evening last night no tears so thats a start, I was speaking to MIL about a week ago she's a little dissapointed that DD2's not coming on holiday with us told her so was I and that I'd tried to get DH to take DS alone as I'd have no female company, her reply was well we can spend a couple of days together she's lovely she actually his step-mum but more a mother than either of us have had.

They met my mother took her on holiday with us a couple of times and are furious that she knew, FIL's exact words where what the hell is wrong with your mother when I saw them for the first time after they where told. We didn't want him to know because of all his illnesses but she told him anyway bizarre as it seems I thought he'd see me different told her this without realising phone was on speaker and he couldn't of been nicer. When we await in May she knew something was wrong the second time we saw them was day after I'd had a call to arrange the next statement DH went to restaraunt with dad and I her and we had a long chat on the way told her the latest developments really wish they lived closer but can't have it all.

Cailin, spot on being lazy, you've got the wee one, the early mornings. It is tiring when they're small so get them all to let you have a rest.

Ds friend was causing trouble late last night so I'm pissed off now and knackered. I'm terrified she's going to accuse ds of doing something so I don't know wether to go to police or not whilst the bruises are still there????? crap.

Morning everyone.

Natural I would also take photo's of them yourself, neither of you need this crap. xx

Dotty, thanks, I sometimes feel like my life is stuck on shit mode.

But, massive huge gigantic but my mother is going to remove her stuff ds sorted it.

That's fantastic no more photos of the P in your house/shed wherever x

hopefully Dotty, fingers crossed.

Hope everyone's ok, we have glorious sunshine so trying to send it south for the tennis.

Fine here DD1 came over after work broke her heart crying on my shoulder she's been doing so many hours lately and had a spat with her bf, she's now off for 19 days their off to Ibiza for 10 days he got it for her 21st. She feels better now does you good to have a good cry I've found that out myself she's pissed of as she never lets anyone down can't say no and she's always getting let down her bf's sister was supposed to be doing her hair she's a hairdresser and her best friend she's to tired to do it now, she is someone who always lets her down she persuaded her to book a holiday for earlier this year then dropped out so DD went with her bf. I've told her the only problem is she's to damn nice.
Very warm here but cloudy today got washing out yet again.

Hope she has a good time in Ibiza. sometimes this life doesn't do nice hope she's ok and gets to the stage she can think "oh fuck off" to people who let her down.

So do I Natural she says she can't suddenly say no as she'll look the bad guy. Told her I was back at counselling she's glad of it.

I think she needs to spend time with her bf she's either working or sleeping ATM needs this holiday more than anything.

Hope they enjoy it and your councelling goes ok, how do you feel about it?

how's everyone else?

Not got it until Tuesday not sure how I feel I do feel really at ease with her though then will have a break as my holiday. DD1 said to make sure I enjoy it and stop saying I don't want to go. Since when has a daughter meant to talk more sense than a mother

I'm considering deregistering, might be banned though so if anyone wants to find me I'll be on fb under this name for a while.

Hope everyone's ok though.

You ok I'm in bed although don't know if I'll sleep after hearing the news we've been dreading.

What's going on NN?

Hi Dotty, I think it's so lovely that your daughter can come to you when she's upset, shows what a great mother you are.

NN, you could get the assault on your DS recorded with the Police, just in case you decide to press charges at a later time? Hopefully it won't come to that if his friend gets the help she needs.

I hope you are having a good relaxing holiday Cailin.

Offred, how are you doing?

She's gone chips tried to pm her and I couldn't.

She was coming up after work anyway as soon as she walked in I could see there was something wrong she very rarely cries quite a strong young lady. Problem is her bf has OCD and is constantly hoovering and cleaning when he's not at work even when she's trying to sleep which is hard enough after a long nightshift.

I'm still here til Cailin gets back, the pm's don't work properly.

Chips how are you?

Dotty, what bad news?

I'm watching murray in the tennis then button and hamilton in the f1 highlights today.

Hope everyone has a good day.

Oh and DiResta, see I didn't even know there was a scot in the f1.