Support thread for survivors of childhood sexual abuse PART 7

[CailinDana]

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The purpose of these threads is to allow survivors of childhood sexual abuse, their partners, friends, or parents, to talk in a safe place about what they think and feel. Nothing is off limits or taboo, just say what you want to say.

Had a lovely day went for some retail therapy on my own in a shopping centre first time in months I've managed it got a bit panicky but never mind then to sisters went to Dobbies for her to get DD1's birthday present had a juice in country pub got what for off her for apologising and saying I'd caused my near breakdown and PTSD she said its his fault and I wasn't fine before this even though I thought I was.

Cailin, I'm not sure, I think it's good I'm angry with him and not myself, normally I internalise it. I'm going to let myself be angry, then be good to myself, I have some new Lush bath bombs, going to treat myself tonight, I deserve it.
Sounds like a lovely weekend, and the roast chicken sounds good!

Hi dotty, I'm glad you had a good day and well done on the shopping, did you get anything nice for yourself?

Glad you had such a lovely day dotty, and I'm really pleased for you that your sister is so supportive, that's worth a lot. Did you buy anything nice?

That's the thing, using the anger in a positive way rather than directing it at the wrong people.

I've had a really good weekend but have endured vomiting bugs so you have my sympathies.

I don't think mn is the healthiest place to express what's happened to us but I use it to figure out how I'd cope if someone found out about my past and used it negatively, bit like bombproofing myself. Tbh people don't give a shit and do tar you with whatever brush.

Chips, so sorry you had to see that.

Yes new clothes got rid of bigger ones and put weight back on oops will lose it again went from a size 22-8 being to big at christmas now a 10-12.

Now sitting in car on the prom waiting for a text to say their coming.

Olympic why do you think MN isn't the healthiest place to express what's happened to us?

Think MINUTE is ok as long as you stay away from some areas some downright nasty vindictive people on here I was told on a thread a few months back that I only suffer because I allow it to affect me and I should move on and forget it ever happened luckily people lynched her.

Stupid phone mn

MN is for everyone, it's anonymous, you could be posting to anyone, there's no way to be sure of anyones intentions, if you're really struggling, unsupported, it's best to find rl support.

MN is a good place to raise awareness and campaign and direct those who need it to rl support.

You've also got to be good at taking abuse

Dotty, it's good that people supported you but there's a lot of insidious abuse towards victims which isn't stepped on and that causes damage to people who are really struggling and unable to defend themselves, emotionally from it, wether supported or not.

Yes you've also got to be able to accept the hurt when someone who appeared to be a friend suddenly drops you and ignores you.

Olympic it was backing from mnetters who I'd formed a bond with on the sn boards and a few others was really nasty was told not to upset myself as well by them.

I've dealt with so much hurt over the years that its nothing new Amitola.

Whose dropped you as a friend Amitola?

That's point I'm trying to make Dotty, there are a lot of people on MN who will tell you how pathetic you are, if you don't have some support somewhere that will be a difficult thing to handle.

A thread I was one had victim blaming, myself and other posters I didn't know stood up to it but one rape victim went away feeling she had been responsible for being raped. That's where mn doesn't work and victims should be directed to rl support.

What thread was that Olympic?

The one that went to 1000 posts :o

It's in relationships might go and find it as it's obviously dwelling on my mind.

I think I know the one you mean.

Oh I think I remember lurking on that one. Awful.

The Bumbleymummy one?

I'm assuming that's the one.

Yes! that's the one Offred, you were there Can't find it and couldn't post to say :o

Oh pissed off today not getting on well with my assignment, can't concentrate! still working two nights in a row of starting at 9 and still working now :(

:o nights are a headfuck, what time do you finish?

Only doing uni work Olympic, finish when I run out of steam :(