The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Head To The Summer Of Sobriety

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Hello

I'm Mouse

Welcome aboard The Brave Babe's Battle Bus. There are a whole host of lovely posters here who will support your journey to sobriety, however you choose to get there.

We are a Bus full of drinkers, non-drinkers and those who are somewhere in between.

BUT - we will never judge or leave a poster out in the cold. So, find a seat and settle down for the journey ahead.

And HERE is the last thread and those before it too. Just follow the links to read the journeys so far.

Evening

QO - I take beta blockers for anxiety, always took more with a hangover or you could try rescue remedy - the pastilles, because the drops are in brandy.

Sorry so many of you are having a hard time. It must be an epidemic because we've had teenager problems again which resulted in me calling the police yesterday when she smashed all the crockery. Again. The police were very good though and asked us what we wanted them to do and didn't immediately go in for an arrest which would be on her record. She got a stern talking to instead, and she did apologise afterwards.

Anyway... I'm feeling very crap. I failed yesterday after the trauma and drank. Stupid woman. Nine weeks down the drain

I need a slap round the face with a wet kipper. I am going to a smart recovery meeting this thursday, perhaps they have the magic bean that I need.

Golly!!!!

I had begun to wonder where you were. Sorry you are struggling again. You are in my thoughts x

Roght Brave Babes - I'm signing off. Super tired and CSI all time top 10 beckons.

Still shitting myself about the new hospital on Thursday so may need some hand holding tomorrow.

I hope you are all okay out there tonight.

Night xx

Hi everyone. Checking in again. Sorry to hear about your troubles Golly, that must be hard for you. Hope your meeting goes well.

Was reading through my diary tonight and struck by the amount of space I've taken up just writing about drinking. It's all about feeling crap when I have been drinking, feeling so much better when I haven't, vowing never to drink again one week, telling myself I can just have one or two the next. I'm getting to the stage where I'm thinking there must be more to life than obsessing about it and it would be easier to resign myself to never drinking again. Moderation doesn't seem to work for me, I always end up back at square one. Has anyone else been able to moderate succesfully?

One Year X

Missperrier
CONGRATULATIONS , and wishing you many more of them .

Golly Algee Qo, I hope you are all feeling better this morning, and have good days.

I have just lost a long post because my laptop did a "freezing" thing when I clicked "post", how very annoying.

Anyway, I have to get ready for work now, but just wanted to send everyone my love. Also to say thank you for being here, I think I may have ended up in a bit of a pickle after Sunday, if I hadn't been able to come here and talk. As it is, I have woken up yesterday, and today, thinking "I never have to feel like I did at 2am on Monday, again". My call I know. To think I used to do it all the time .

Mousie Have you got things planned for today, to take your mind off tomorrow? Everything will be fine. You are a strong lady, and you and Dh know whats best for Nemo.

Speak later Babes xxxxxx

Morning Lucyboots. I don't know if it's possible to moderate or not. I have been on the same awful merry-go-round of drinking, feeling shit, vowing never to do it again, trying to just have one or two and I have more or less failed every time.

My bingeing has in fact got a lot worse as a result. I am not thinking beyond today. I don't know if I'll drink tomorrow or next week or on holiday. I do know without a shawow of a doubt I won't be drinking today.
Hope you and all the other brave babes have a great day.

Right, off to wake the little ones...

PS: Massive congrats Miss Perrier!

miss P that is wonderful

MISSP YOU ARE A STAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well done! Wow, you must be so proud of yourself. I remember when you first started to post on here. What a difference a year makes eh?

Massive Congratulations To You!!! xx

Morning Babes

I am shitting myself over tomorrow. I have some valium from the GP so plan to take some in the morning. I'm not a great passenger after my car accident so the journey is as stressful as the actual event.

thurso - I know you're right but today I can't shake the feeling of fear that is bubbling up inside me.

I'm going to keep busy

Room for another one...? :)

Mouse, so sorry you're so scared. Keeping busy is a plan. I am doing much the same today. Just finished a pile of ironing done to the background of This Morning and DC (aged 4.5) talking my head off about plastic toy ponies and singing me Justin Beiber songs.
Hop on board Littleblue. There is always room on the bus.

Hello littleblue. Tell us about yourself (if you want to). Have you been around long?

Hey LittleBlue - lovely to meet you.

Thanks Luci - I heart your DD, your posts about her make me smile. Bless her.

Morning and welcome Littleblue

Do you have to go far tomorrow Mouse, as Luci said keep busy

I have done better drinking wise the last few nights which I feel happy about as I was worried I was getting back into the bottle a night habit. I went to my neighbours house for dinner (he has since moved) last night with my DC's and his 3 DD's, they are adorable. His girlfriend is now living with him and I have met her several times and she seems nice.

Not seen DP since Saturday and he is busy this week when I don't have my DC's.

My DS is excited as a football scout from the city's team saw him play at the weekend and asked him which local team he plays for.

Qo

Sorry you didn't like my post.

I think I thought the post would help because you didn't seem to be making the link - nothing is going to cure anxiety if you are drinking heavily, it is just going to get worse and worse, so the fact you were asking made me think you either didn't realise this or had forgotten it and wouldn't mind being reminded.

But you say you do realise this so sorry if you found it unhelpful.

"Anyway... I'm feeling very crap. I failed yesterday after the trauma and drank. Stupid woman. Nine weeks down the drain" - I know it feels like that but it really isn't the case. Whatever you do or don't do from now on, nothing can take away the fact that you did 9 whole weeks sober. And if you've done it once you can do it again.

What will happen then (I expect) is that 9 weeks will become a mental block and, as you near the 9 week mark, you will start to worry that you can't do it. Well, you can and, if you want to, you will. If you're like most people (even alcoholics) you managed at least 12 whole years without a drink at the beginning of your life under immense and real stress. How did you get through teething without a drink? Those 18 months when you couldn't even speak must have been pretty hardcore too. And as for your first day at school ...

Maybe you think I'm being flippant but I'm not. Those were extremely stressful times and of course you didn't drink because drinking wasn't an option and would have made you feel extremely ill. If you accept that, now too, drinking is not an option and will make you feel extremely ill; and that you have proved to yourself, now and then, that you can go long periods of time without getting drunk; then you will make it through this and come out the other side.

You seriously thought that I didn't know drinking heavily the night before had caused my anxiety? Really? I find that a bit patronising to be honest, and would probably put some people off posting if their anxiety levels were high.

I was looking and asking for support to help me through a horrible time, maybe I should have just kept my mouth shut eh? as I caused it myself by drinking.
Actually I'll just back off from the thread a bit for now as I'm getting a bit irate, and for a website to make me irate is not a good thing.

Hi..yes , been on mumsnet for some years..on and off..and posted at some length in the past about drinking..
Got out of control recently..last nights two bottles of wine is still hurting now..and I'm disgusted with myself.. I treat booze as medicine , my stresses are very high currently.. will get in the spirit of the thread (no pun intended) when ive read back thru a bit..

qo, please don't back off the thread. MIFLAW has really helped me since coming here. I honestly don't think he meant for a second to patronise you. Sometimes (for me anyway) I need the obvious consequences of my drinking pointing out to me and miflaw delivers it in a straight to the point, minus the [hugs] and kisses.
Stick around. I know EXACTLY how you felt as I was wracked the major anxiety as a direct result of my drinking on Monday. I had so much I felt pissed still when I took DD2 to nursery. The shame of that is awful.

It's taken me till today to feel "normal" again. Here's some [hugs] .

Luci X

Now listen here you! No-one gets off this bus. You can take a back seat but you can't leave.

Think Hotel California

"you can check out any time you like, but you can never leave!"

I was hoping the lovely Mouse would be along to lighten the mood and she was.

Mouse I saw The Eagles in '77 at Earls Court , I was a baby!
Qo now I've admitted to that, you Have to come back .

I can beat that with ELO in 1975, I had to miss the end of the concert to get the last train home. My Dad went mad when he realised that the boy I went with had refused to miss the end and let me travel home on my own.

Ah, memories

I was born in 1975.

I'm just gonna leave that there.