The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Head To The Summer Of Sobriety

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Hello

I'm Mouse

Welcome aboard The Brave Babe's Battle Bus. There are a whole host of lovely posters here who will support your journey to sobriety, however you choose to get there.

We are a Bus full of drinkers, non-drinkers and those who are somewhere in between.

BUT - we will never judge or leave a poster out in the cold. So, find a seat and settle down for the journey ahead.

And HERE is the last thread and those before it too. Just follow the links to read the journeys so far.

I saw it this morning. Cockends. As I (and someone else) said, I think they excelled themselves this time, getting pretty close to libel/slander.

The sad thing, thought, is that I can imagine myself posting that sort of shit if this thread had existed while I was still "active". I don't know why they're doing it, but for me it is easy to imagine me so terrified of stopping that it would be far easier to go to town discrediting all the supposed ways of stopping - "you see, I can't go to AA because THIS is the sort of people it's full of, and if AA is the only thing that works - why, then I'll just have to keep drinking!" And I think it is telling, in this respect, that none of our "valued friends" EVER, despite repeated polite enquiries, tell us WHY they are posting all this or where they personally come into it.

I strongly suspect that these people are running scared - because, apart from anything else, why would you bother? I mean, I am firmly convinced that paedophiles are over-represented in, to pick an organisation at random, the Boy Scout movement - but I don't spend my free time bombarding scouting websites with links to horror stories.

Very sad.

DementedMa

What, exactly, made you press the "fuck it button"? And what effect did you think it would have when you pressed it?

Not nagging you - these are serious questions, and the answers may help you avoid doing it again (and again and again).

Morning all.

Hope you all had good week end. I haven't been to a meeting in ages but will go tomorrow, to a lovely ladies group. I'm going to a festival this week end and don't want to be derailed. I know the choice is always mine, but sometimes I revert to my teenage self, full of insecurity and desperate to assimilate. My friends are good but they don't know that I've been sober since 10th December. I've only seen them on a couple of occasions since then and have excused my abstinence with various excuses. Such is life, I've got it, got to live it sober so will push through!

On the posters who attacked AA, to me they are no better than the people who haunt suicide forums, encouraging death. What they did is potentially no less serious. Alcoholism kills.

MIFLAW - there was/is a thread in AIBU that is more or less the same as the shit they were posting on here. And I agree that it's very sad.

Morning star - yep, totally agree that the invasion was dangerous. That's what annoyed me most, that they were upsetting vunerable posters that have found a place to post and feel safe writing how they feel.

Some for the first time ever. Let's hope that is the last we see of them on here.

Looks like thread was busy over the weekend! Been doing ok with regards to drinking but did have way way too much on Saturday which meant I wasted yesterday! Ma I can feel your pain and frustration coming through and hope that you are ok?

it's ok Mouse, I won't lose my job. have set up a meeting with a client nearer to home so can actually have a Work At Home day.
MIFLAW will think some about your question and come back to you..
Obrigada I'm ok. Just deadening myself to all the shit and letting them sort themselves out.....

Obrigada - hello lovely, how's your mum?

I have nothing useful to add to the converstion, but if someone could pass me those muffins and jam...?

I'm eating like - well, like someone who's been forced to subsist on three diet milkshakes a day, recently. No room for booze with all the Quality Street and bonbons I shovelled into my mouth today.

You okay Tortoise? Sugar overdose?

Hey Mouse, my mother seems to have settled in well and so far hasn't looked to come home so that must be a good sign!

I'm glad she's okay x

I'm fine, thank you Mouse. Just taken aback at how sodding much I appear to be able to eat, and that comes with lashings of its own guilt because I'm almost certainly developing gestational diabetes. But hey, at least I'm not drinking.

Also this thread is making me think more clearly about the behaviours I was in denial about a few months ago, which is making me feel sick. For some reason when I joined in I was all la la la, I was never very bad, tch, probably not even really a problem, still, best to tackle things before the whole 'rock bottom' thing, eh what? And now I have perspective again, and I am thinking...shit, did I really used to [redacted due to shame]?

Well done on not drinking Tortoise, there is nothing you can do about what has happened in the past when you have been drinking. You sound as if you are feeling down today, is there anything you can do to cheer yourself up ?

swipes muffin from mouse
Tha's a bit of a surreal thing to write....
Where is Thurso these days?

She was around at the weekend Ma, think I remember her saying something about being busy this week with changes in work. Was actually wondering if there is any word of Isindie.

yup, where is that mad isindie?
and venus?

Am new. Am cutting down starting with a bit of a detox. Day 1's today. ran a half marathon yesterday, celebrated after with a farewell pint and am ready to go...

Well, Hello (in a Leslie Phillips voice )

Here I am, having slogged over a hot word doc. for the last three hours!
I'm packing up now, though, I'm going cross eyed!

Hello to all lovely new babes, welcome, this is a great place to come, whether you feel jolly, sad, happy or not. A good chat on here does wonders for stifling that urge!

I have had quite a few sleepless nights since I last posted on here (that would be two, then ) wondering if I have bitten off more than I can chew, workwise. I have been in a reasonably comfortable place, doing what I do, studying part-time, and just chugging along. Now things are all ratcheting up a notch...another years studying, and more responsibility next year, just what I thought I wanted to stop my brain from atrophying, just what I wanted . Nothing ventured, I suppose....

Mouseface How is your back, are the meds holding the pain at bay?

Ma I'm very sorry to hear you sounding down. Are things likely to get better, moneywise, in the near future?. I remember that Dh was going for a new job some while back, or a promotion, how did that go?
How are other things with your Dh? We are jogging along I suppose, he is happier, I am not so volatile (wonder why that is, then ), but I still feel like we are running on parrallel lines a lot of the time.

Where are you Venus and Isinde? are you both ok?

We are, as in me, and my Dh, not yours . I always do that!

I'm fine. Luton airport - no Campari and soda (for those that are old enough to remember Lorriane Chase).

Catching up briefly. Will post more once I've read the read the thread. x

I remember Venus . xxx At least no snow tonight!

Where are you JWN, hope you are ok? I'm missing your posts x

merlin - nope, not worth it unless you really want to lose the will to live?

Right you gorgeous lot, I'm off to watch tv with DH. Nemo has just puked so will be up for a while yet. The wolf has eaten more plants so DH is not a happy camper.

Mwahs xx

PS - safe journey venus

Jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesusssssssssssss, where are you?

Night xx

Thurso I would say go for it workwise. Nothing like a new challenge to help with empty nest syndrome, take it from one who knows