The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Offy!!

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Well, this is our tenth thread so we are throwing a little party!

Everyone is invited! No booze of course, soft drinks and mocktails only!

I'm Mouse, hello.

There are all kinds of drinkers on board the bus. Come and join the journey, whatever stage you are at, drinking, cutting down, wanting to stop or sober already.

Everyone is welcome to post here. Come say hi.

The journey so far is below.

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Fly, alcohol makes things worse, not better. It never, ever, ever, makes things better. I always feel totally wretched and sometimes think I would be better off dead if I drink when I'm unhappy. I don't have enough experience to give you any advice as to what you should do. Hopefully, someone will be hopping on soon to be able to help you. In the meantime, hugs winging their way too you. Be kind to yourself today.

Me - 5 days no alcohol.

• up and away today -

Had a very deep sleep - still feeling groggy
I know this will stay with me for a while .

Client visit today - dont really fancy doing the meet the new person thing .. but then again I am a bit of a hermit (except when pissed ) . So ill survive ..

so for today I am not drinking ..

Oh Fly, I so know how you must have been feeling when you wrote that. I've done the whole drink 'till you don't know what time it is, then wake up and drink some more because you hate yourself so much you just don't know or care what else to do.

I got a bit pissed on Friday and was sick as a pig on Saturday. Ended up throwing up a crepe on Saturday evening. NOT NICE.

Every time I think about drinking, I think about throwing up that crepe. Gah.

So I stayed sober on Saturday and Sunday night and I feel great this morning. Entering my third week mostly sober and it really is getting a bit easier every day.

Please help me.
It's nearly 9. I have an interview at 2 for a job I really really want. I have been slipping into alcohol dependence for over 2 years since I left my daughter's father.
I've had a drink already after a panicky night. Nights are always panicky after drinking. I need to go out in an hour and a half to take dd to nursery and get to the interview. Help help help. My daughter is my world and I have wanted help for ages but been worried SS would take her away. Her father's new GF sexually abused my DD in February and things have really gone downhill for me as I have had to totally sole parent since then. I need to get out, today, to this interview... and tomorrow I need to get help with my drinking.

Hi. I have hovered on these threads for a while but now i really think i am ready to join lol. The booze is getting so out of hand, life is just so shite at the moment and i am a mess. today is day 1 and i am determined to avoid the drink from now on. x

saf!! - you poor love!!, i do know how you feel, the thing is though, i think that you should go and see the doc!, you sound so very low i think you need a bit of rl help!, please dont take that the wrong way - please carry on the bus journey with us, but tbh, your post has worried me and if i were a rl friend i would definatly be encouraging you to seek outside help! - in the meantime, just be gentle to yourself like wasindie said, look after the physical you, it can only help the emotional you!, have a little hug, a little kiss on the head and a from me!

well diabolik!, thats the first weekend done and dusted!, hope your meeting goes well!

pickle - why dont you just knock the booze on the head?, it dosnet sound like you had much fun with it over the weekend!

anyway - good morning all! lovely to see you all!

NOTEVEN!!, PUT THE DRINK DOWN NOW!!, go and clean your teeth, have a cup of tea and some toast! - ime the booze will only make you more panicky! - spend the next half hour SLOWLY getting ready!, dont start rushing about like a blue-arsed fly!, lets get you through the day, and then this evening i think you need to chat about everything else - your life sounds pretty messed up right now and your drinking will only contribute to the mess! i have to get ready for work now so i will see you later!

sobloody!, nice to meet you!, just take it a day at a time!, dont set yourself goals that can seem totally unachievable when you feel down!

Thank you. No more in the house. Am dressed and ready. Will do the teeth clean thing. And get ready for nursery. I need a serious talking to!

Noteven - Please just take a minute out to think about your lovely DD and how much you love her and how much she makes you smile and how much you don't want to make her sad by doing something stupid that will make you unhappy.

During some of the really awful times of my life when I have done, or been tempted to do some godawful stupid things, only the knowledge that I love and am loved in return - if only by one small person - have kept me going.

Think of her smile and realise you really don't want that drink after all.

Noteven
Well done, just keeping steadily moving forward - ready to leave the house, ready to take DD to nursery, prepared for interview (deep breaths), DD safely at Nursery, and lots of good luck wishes for your interview. Then, have a cup of tea and breathe. Drink will not help you with any of these steps.

SAF take care of yourself today and tip the booze away. You want to do this and you can do this.

Sobloodysad - welcome and could you aim today to not drink - just today - just for now?

JWN good to read your posts - I find them really encouraging.

Everyone else - hello on this bright and blustery morning (well down south it is). Great that Wasindie, diabolik and right pickle have clear heads for all that today may bring - hope others out there are in the same position and
Today we wil not be drinking.

Sorry - hello Kismetkitten - well done on 5 days.

hi all
no groggy head this morning, but still not sleeping well. Without crashing into an alcoholic stupour it's so hard to sleep.
Welcome to you sobloody!
Day 3 of the new regime. Today I plan not to be drinking.

Morning all . . this thread has certainly been busy since I left work on Friday. Haven't fully caught up but welcome to all the new people on the bus.
Back to Day 2 for me, but this afternoon I have my first counselling session with regard to my depression so looking on today as a fresh start.

Red if you are out there can you let us know you are ok, really missing you on this thread:(

Morning, just checking in.

I didn't drink last night so today is my 5th day to get through.

SwallowedAFly - I've been there, I've tried to stop and gone back so many times. Don't beat yourself up about it, it's done. Hope you are feeling better this morning.

Morning SAF, how are you today? I also drank half a bottle of whisky on Friday night and if there had been more alcohol around I would have drank that too:(

Morning Babes, just checking in. Feeling bloody marvellous this fine Monday morning........no hangover . I'm amazed at how much work I've got done!

diabolik well done on a sober weekend and hope all goes well with your meeting
dementedma sleep will come in the next few days my lovely......and it will be better sleep than that drunken stupor pretend sleep. You hang in there.
SAF Hope your feeling better today, you know you can do this.

Hi to all the regulars and a big hello and welcome to noteven and sobloodysad, hope you both stick around for a while, this thread is a wonder and has helped so many.

You've been so kind that I am all weepy now.
On train on way to interview. I will do my best today, and then I will face this head on. God it's so hard.

Good luck noteven. We're all right here.

Haven't had time to catch up, are you going for a job interview noteven?

Well done Depeche, just got a call from counselling centre, therapist has flu so appointment been cancelled till next Monday:(

Desiretochange
So sorry that your appointment has been postponed. Try not to let it deflect you from your aim not to drink for today.
LRD - 5 days fantastic, I hope that the clear head in the morning and better sleep are beginning to make not drinking for today worth the effort.
Depeche - I find it hardest on my own too - who would ever find out if I had one drink (if only just one!). But when I have managed to resist when on my own I feel that I have achieved even more.
Munkymaz - you sound very upbeat. I hope it's infectious.

Thanks WNT, was looking forward to it as feel like I am in a rut that I just can't get out of and was hoping the counselling would sort of kick start me, but you are right I will try not to let is deflect me from not drinking today, so for today I will not drink!!