The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Offy!!

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Well, this is our tenth thread so we are throwing a little party!

Everyone is invited! No booze of course, soft drinks and mocktails only!

I'm Mouse, hello.

There are all kinds of drinkers on board the bus. Come and join the journey, whatever stage you are at, drinking, cutting down, wanting to stop or sober already.

Everyone is welcome to post here. Come say hi.

The journey so far is below.

JWN's original thread

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Just marking my spot for tomorrow then I'll set up the new thread for you JWN.

I hope that you are all ok, well, as ok as you can be.

Take care Babes........ xx

goodnight all! , a bright shiney new week awaits!, guess what?. wel we all enjoy it cos

WE WILL NOT BE DRINKING!!

see you tomorrow lovley babes!

L XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Night Campers

Gerald is leaving early tomorrow so go and grab yourselves some beauty sleep - that's what I'm off to do

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Just saving my spsce. Have fucked up again. 2 beers, half a bottle of wine and 3 secret measures of brandy from FIL's secret supply.
Slept for the last 2 hours and missed the X Factor.
Am on poorly toddler duty (2 yr old is ill) so DP is leaving me to it.
He dosn't know about the brandy..is suprised by how pissed I was.
Oh God!

I feel so crap I hate myself. Am so worried about DD2's lack of talking I am dealing with it in the only way I am used to. Worrying my self to death then having a "break" by getting hammered.

hang in there lucilastic. I was planning on corking this bottle 3 glasses ago....pathetic. keep me a seat will ya?

Hello everyone...
I've been lurking a little and have finally plucked up the courage to join the bus. I'm drinking too much. I hate it and love it. Above all I want to be less dependant on that need to drink to wind down at night. Currently, I drink most nights -- maybe 2 nights off during the week, but I make up for it at the weekend. I hate that built in feeling of needing to drink to excess off a weekend, but I do it every time. My DH hardly drinks which shold make it easier in many ways, I suppose. My target this week is to make it to Thursday but worried that I will binge then. Will check in everyday to keep my head above water. :)

By the way, can I sit at the front...might throw up after my wine tonight elsewhere...

Off to bed. Night babes xx

Hi there Weeindie. Welcome. Mouse, Venus, JWN would (I think) tell you to stop projecting. Just one day at a time. And ex-drinker would tell you to try Allen Carr. I agree with them all, btw. I find it helpful not to have alcohol in the house.

day 12 - all is well - well aside from the legs - running a 10 k with out preparation isn't a smart thing to do -

Will stop counting in 9 days when it will be 3 weeks since my last bender.

Still get cravings about every 72 hours which was more or less my drinking pattern.. Suppose these will decrease over time in intensity - just need to be right on top of them .. and always remember what the end game is of me even having a single drink and what it has cost me over the last 9 years ..

next up my other crutch - cigarettes -

Anyway have a day off and will spend the morning at the pool and sauna in recovery :)

Morning all -slow start to the day today and I am going to be late for work - but not because I am hingover - just because I am feeling lazy - which is quite a nice, guilt free feeling.

diabolik pool and sauna sounds like a very nice way to spend a Monday - especially when you know you really deserve it after the run.

luci - what supports do you have in rl llife? It sounds like you have so much to loose if you carry on like this and you seem to be really struggling at the moment. The comment from you DP about being suprised about how pissed you were rang real bells for me. I always knew that my ex had been drinking in secret, as well as what he drank in front of me - it's just that I couldn't prove it. It was that that drove me to despair - the dishonesty, and the way it messed with my head.

Work out what you need to help you through this luci - AA, counselling, your partners support - whatever.
Take care
x

Oh and today I will not be drinking, and I will work out better ways to 'treat' myself when I think I deserve it.

What the hell is a hingover?!

dunno - but it sounds painful Witchety

i think a hingover is was you get after frinking!

anyway, here i am!, old bossy drawers! ready to kick arse!!

STOP BUGGERING ABOUT AND GET ON THE BUS!!

i speak from experience, if you dont stop the lying, the self pity and the delusion that no one else knows what you are you could lose everything!

you came on this thread because you were unhappy - you KNOW what causes that unhappiness, you are bright, intelligent lovley women, now, FOR FUCKS SAKE GET A GRIP!!

its monday morning, lets get on with the day, do what we have to do and start the week with a new deterimination and positivity!

YOU CAN DO THIS!!

laters babes, have to get ready for work!, this month i am keeping up with my deadlines!!

Morning babes and blokes,

diabolik your morning sounds perfect, am very jealous.

Luci i hope you are ok today, you were doing so well, I know that you can do this - just get yourself the support you need IRL as well as here. am thinking of you.

Am ok here, only going to be on intermittently for the next fortnight as we move on Friday (eek). Add to that a backlog of work, broken washing machine (with beloved spare teddy's face pressed up against the door, can you imagine - have had to tape up the door so DD can't see it) and DD full of cold. Its a bit stressful / busy / real life.

I drank on Friday. I am wondering if I can do a Mouse-esque occasional drink but not so sure. It was nice to have a couple of glasses but not sure it was worth it.

Good news is that I didn't slip back into drinking on the weekend which was a big worry, in fact I was relieved to get back to soft drinks and not worry about it all.

And DD is starting to use her potty. For those who held my hand through poo-gate (Mouse and Red in particular) ... am sure you will appreciated that this is a Big Deal for the Gees. I can't believe how much she has changed. I have no idea if it is connected to me not drinking but I can't help think it must be in some way.

anyway, better go DD now helpin0-g me type

x

welcome weeindie - everyone is very supportive on here, even JWN who wields a large whip to crack over us when we slide
I am angry with myself for finishing off the bottle last night and consequently woke up with a headache after not sleeping well. I have decided not to "treat" myself by drinking poison anymore....FFS what is the point?
today i will not be drinking!!

Morning Brave Babes.

Hello to weeindie who I am getting confused with WasindieNial already! And hello to dipso? I hope I've remembered your name.

diabolik - well done on the 10K run!!! I bet your legs are sssoooooooo sore!! And well done for staying sober for nearly two weeks!!! A much deserved morning for you I see.

Luci - do you remember a while back when a few of us suggested that maybe it was time for you to add some RL support into your battle to give up drinking? At the time you managed to stop for a while and you seemed take control.

Reading your recent posts makes me think that this is no longer the case.

You appear to go around and around in circles with your drinking habit. And it is a habit to some degree in that if you are having a bad day, feeling low etc, you turn to alcohol to 'relieve' those emotional symptoms.

Does that make sense?

I fear that you are trapped in this cycle and do need more than your own 'willpower' to get out of this now. Would you consider going to talk to your GP or local alcohol support team? I think that you need help to set yourself a few small goals.

Is there anything that I can do for you? Can I look into support in your area for you? I'm happy to do whatever I can for you xx

New thread here

morning everyone.

diabolik well done on the 10k - welcome weeindie - i'm a week in and last week was where you are now. this is a great thread for support.

so...last night - two glasses of wine with dinner and then stopped, and was self controlled and everyone else carried on. this is a big thing for me - being able to exert some control is a big first step. And it was great waking up saturday and sunday and monday without any fuzzy feeling!

DH read an email I sent to my dad and it touched on saturday night and the fact that he pretty much ruined it and that i'm trying not to drink so much. He got pretty pissed off with what I had said to my dad but it seemed to ram the message home - he is now saying he wants to join me without drinking during the week and then stop at 2 glasses of wine on weekend nights if we have anything.

My goal for this week is to drink only on saturday night as we have people here for dinner.

daddy - WELL DONE!

Doesn't it feel great to take control? I was out with friends on Saturday and took control of my drinking.

The last time I went out, I got so utterly pissed I can't remember a thing about it. This time, I remember everything and had a fantastic night.

I was totally in control of my drinking and for a change, I was not worrying about one last drink before bed, just one more.....

If you can do that, only drink once a week or when you have an 'occasion', then fantastic. If it works for you as it does for me, and you can keep control of that, then go for it.

I didn't drink last night and I won't be drinking tonight. I'm not planning my next drink. I'm still taking it a day at a time and am VERY aware that I could easily go back to 90 units a week.

Daddy, that sounds brilliant about your husband. And manageable, not too forever...

thanks! it's definitely a control thing for me. if I can get to the point where I can control it easily that will be a huge goal.

What I should ahve said is that I want to get to the weekend drink free. I'm not planning that i will drink on saturday, but I can see it will be a real possibility and I want to be able to get to saturday without having had a drink.

Dh was unbelievably badly behaved on satruday evening - he was verbally abusive to me in the way that he kep whispering poison into my ear at the table and thinking no one else was noticing. then he insulted pretty much everyone else at the table. then when I was outside waiting for our car to turn up, and concentrating on spotting the car, he left the restaurant (everyone else thought he had gone to the loo). When the rest of them came down to the door we then discovered he wasn't in the restaurant. He then refused my calls, we had people checking the loos for us. Turns out he was sitting across the road watching everyone, and calling me stupid because I hadn't realised hed left the restaurant, when I wasn't expecting him to, and was concentrating on making sure our cab was coming....

And the best thing was that our visitors were people I hadn't seen for almost a year, and when we all got home and he finally deigned to go to bed rather than sleep outside (meaning we couldn't set any alarms, which in Joburg is a huge no no), they were just so concerned for me - so ruining the evening.

He basically got so verybally abusive that he told me that he didn't want us to be married anymore.

sorry just had to unload that.

Thank you for your support everyone. I am not feeling as bad today as I deserve to.
Mentally all the usual feelings are there of course.
This time I feel hopeful that I can get back on track. For a couple of weeks I was doing so well then it all went wrong. I just stopped caring again. I needed to turn my brain off from worrying about DC2.

I appreciate the offer of help mouse but I really think with DP's support I can stop drinking.
I am going to talk to him tonight and be completely honest about the full extent of my problem.
Ironically he still believes I am just an irresponsible drinker and after last night, something of a lightweight.
I have to be entirely straight with him.
I owe it to all of us.
Am jumping on board the bus again. I've bought a season ticket and am here to stay.

once you've been completely honest with him it'll be so much easier. admitting something to yourself is one thing, admitting it to someone else is an entirely different thing and brings with it a whole basket of other worries and issues.

It will be easier with his support, I would think.

Good luck, will be thinking of you luci

Hello all! Sorry that I have not been around. As I was not at work it was quite difficult for me to get on here. Back in work today but leaving shortly. How's everyone doing today?