The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Brewery!

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Hello.

I'm Mouse and I've been on the bus for 2 months now and not fallen off it as yet. It's much more comfortable than The Wagon!

Anyway, this is thread number nine!

Everyone is welcome to join at any point of the journey, drinking or not, wanting to stop or just to cut down.

Jump on board, you won't be judged, just supported whatever you decide.

Here is the history of The Brave Babes if you want to have a read.

JWN's original thread

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Morning JWN Hope you get your work done and manage to squeeze in a shoe shopping trip at some point! The shoes sound fab!

Red glad that you've got your AA meeting tonight. It's not something I've ever considered doing. Don't know why really.

Christi just wondering how you are? Let us know if you're about.

Hi Red X posted.

I'm feeling a million times better today and really positive.

DD slept through the night, bless her, so I got a lot of rest and feel really refreshed. Got some jobs done round the house so all good.

As I mentioned I've got my friend coming round tonight to watch Strictly Come Dancing (Im a big fan!). This may sound ridiculous but having a TV programme to watch like that would be a big excuse to open up a bottle of wine.

Im determined to avoid this though.

JAB - as you now this is not an AA thread or even an abstinence one but I cannot recommend AA highly enough. You get all the warmth, support, laughs and so on that you find on this thread. It's totally annoymous and non-judgemental. I know it's not for everyone but if you find you are struggling please consider it.

And now I have cross posted with you! I love SCD but I will have to record it as I will be at my meeting. So glad you are feeling a bit better today. Believe me you will feel better and better each day.

SCD will be just as good without booze by the way!!

Yay, a fellow SCD fan!! I'll be recording it as well as watching just in case DD decides to have a 'moment' during the programme!

I don't feel the need to go to AA at the moment but I'm glad that it helps you.

No worries re AA - just remember it as an option.

Re SCD - for me, nothing has ever beaten Mark and Karen's Argentine Tango!! God, I loved that!

Don't get me started on SCD! I could talk about it all day

Loved that tango too but also loved Jill and Darren's jive!

Christi, how did it go at the doc's?
My drinking is very closely related to my depression (off and on all my adult life). I only realised this recently . (incredible, I know)

SCD is the only 'reality' show that I watch! It's just so fab.

Good morning. I've been thinking.

Last night I was cooking and I managed to open a bottle of red wine, pour a little into the dish, close the red wine, put it back in the cupboard and not have any at all. Made couple of cups of tea and went to bed stone cold sober.

So, I know I can do this, so why can't I? If you know what I mean.....

I'm already having such a tiring debate in my head about whether I'm going to have a drink tonight or not. Obviously I know I don't really want to, so why the hell am I having this irritating conversation in my mind. Flickering again, always flickering.

ginger I am totally the same with depression and drinking. I always wondered what came first: did I drink because I was depressed? Or was I depressed because I drank? In the end it didn't matter, I am a drunk! However, I know that my depression pretty much went away during the 11 months of sobriety I once had.

Good morning pickle, only you can decide if you choose to pick up tonight. One thing I can say is that 'normal' drinkers don't have this internal dialogue about booze. If they want to drink they do. They are not constantly thinking about it.

Day 1 for me again, drank bottle of wine with friend last night, (bottle each I should add):(

Morning desire, good to see you here! Hope you are not feeling too bad (well, you deserve a hangover !) Don't beat yourself up, just keep going!

Hi Red day 10 thats great. I would like to go to a meeting but there arent any that close, about 25 minutes drive is that the norm ? Also I only have 1 ds night free a week so its a bit awkward. I know there probably are some in the day but as you say its the evening thats the vulnerable time. Going ahead I will have to find a way -where theres a will and all that. How s things with your H sounds like theres a lot to think about.

SAF you sound really upbeat I know you can make your 7 days.

Wasin I got 5 hours and feel rubbish but I dont have to go anywhere ,tis true you would feel worse with alcohol sloshing around in you.

Christi are you ok today ? How did it go at the docs ?

Mouse hope you are feeling better.

Well the school I have just applied to to work in just rang to confirm receipt of my application and I am stressing I didnt make a good impression Sigh !

Oooh Yes I love SCD too

Oh believe me Red I have a hangover:( Serves me right though! Strange thing is when I drank on a regular basis I didn't have hangovers.

Hi, The doc was a bit useless. I told her I was drinking too much she made no comment at all, just wanted to give me ADs on top of my existing ones.

Hmm.

Morning getting, most of the meetings I go to are about half an hour drive away. There is one in my home town so I can walk to that. I don't have DC so it's easy for me to go in the evenings.

Things are OK with DH. Spent yesterday evening with him and we got on fine. I think that we are both very confused at the moment. However I think he finds it hard to understand that I have things to think about too. I think he thinks it all depends on him and forgets that this is not all down to me.

Fingers crossed for the job application!!

mouse how are you today lovely?

desire just stay away from the poison tonight and you will feel better tomorrow. Promise!

christi sorry that you did not find the doc helpful. Maybe try to see another one?

Hi Red that's what I was trying to say yesterday, you have choices and decisions to make too not just your husband.

desire I know what you mean. It's hard because when I am getting over a binge I am so remorseful and full of shame that I would agree to anything (turn into a doormat) but as I recover and feel mentally and physically better I am more like my old self. It is probably confusing for DH. Oh well!

I feel NO guilt about loving SCD. It's fab!!

Hello to you SAF. I think that's what DH and I are trying to do. My FIL divorced over 20 years ago from my MIL and is still a very, very bitter man about it (although I love him dearly!) I don't want this to happen to DH or me. Even if we do split up I want it to be as amicable as it can be. Also we live in a very small town and DH is well known and loved so it would help if he wasn't slating me all over the place as I need to live here too! Hope that doesn't sound too selfish!