The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past The Brewery!

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Hello.

I'm Mouse and I've been on the bus for 2 months now and not fallen off it as yet. It's much more comfortable than The Wagon!

Anyway, this is thread number nine!

Everyone is welcome to join at any point of the journey, drinking or not, wanting to stop or just to cut down.

Jump on board, you won't be judged, just supported whatever you decide.

Here is the history of The Brave Babes if you want to have a read.

JWN's original thread

Thread two

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Thread five

Thread six

Thread seven

Thread eight

Red I found the first year of marriage to be the worst and DH and I had been best friends before then and dating / living together for 5 years. It nearly finished our relationship and I ended up moving out within the first year. It took a while but we made it back.

I think that marriage can do very strange things to relationships. DH and I both seemed to be proving (ok, mainly me) that being married did not stop our independence, plus I was having the barmy counselling at the time which I read as giving me licence to do what I wanted and act selfishly.

I just wanted to say that I understand - you don't expect things to really change after the wedding and its a shock when it does (for the worse).

MsGee thank you for that. Wise words. My parents and others have told me that early marriage is tough. Obviously the situation has been totally confused by booze on both sides.

OK Babes, I am nearly off for the evening. I know that you all missed my fond farewells yesterday!

Have wonderful, sober, safe and serene evenings if possible. (And if not, don't hide from us!)

Deep breath......

Hello all. Have namechanged for this. Two nights so far. Tonight will be my third. I'm torn between terror and mild puzzlement/misjudged pride.

I feel like I'm lurking at the next bustop, not exactly waiting for the bus, but not exactly NOT waiting for it either.

Bye Red

JWN - my best friend died five years ago and at the funeral, we all wore pink hats! She had Queen's Don't Stop Me Now!

Thanks to Cadbury's, and everytime I hear it elsewhere, I think of her.

Hey Pickle

Hello pickle and welcome to the bus (if you decide to get on that is!)

Well done on reaching Day 3 - a fantastic achievement already. Is there any other details you want to share at this point? No worries either way just a big WELCOME!

Thank you Red.

It's a horribly long wine-drenched story of regret and futility and waste. And rainy gutters, laddered tights and large unexplained bruises on the backs of my legs.

Shame is my very good friend.

Par for the bus, I imagine.

NO WAY Pickle - I would NEVER wear tights!!

Hello

Hi pickle glad to have you on board.

What is it with me and food and alcohol? I really struggle at meal times - cooking, eating and after. Still, day 6 and still NOT DRINKING (shouting at myself).

I am sorry to sound so flippant . I remember all too well the big step of writing on here for the first time. You have already got to day 3 which is fantastic, WELL DONE. I felt very vulnerable and at the beginning. Be kind to yourself x

Hello all and thank you for your welcomes. Don't worry Pavalova, I didn't think you were being flippant.

It's very hard to ignore the constant prompts in my head about how I somehow ought to have a drink in my hand right now. It's like my brain is flickering like an old film reel.

And yet, in my mind I know I don't need a drink. I didn't last night or the night before. Obviously, because I didn't have one, and no small furry animals died.

I don't need a drink tonight. I don't actually really want one.

But still I flicker......

hi pickle - I can definitely identify with what you're saying.

JWN have you heard about your DF?

MIFLAW - I have admitted to myself that I have a problem. However, what I meant was do I have to admit it to those close to me?Although my DH knows that we both drink too much, I still can't bring myself to say " I think I've got a drinking problem". Hope that makes sense?

Hello to everyone.

hi Babes

I'm lurking - no need to explain why - that is what is so fantastic about this thread - not driving the bus tomorrow - would be over the limit. Not feeling bad or good - just getting away with it.

M before you jump in, if you do - don't.

love you all

will post again soon but before I go

the bus tomorrrow will be once again be leaving early, because we have a long way to go - sit back, relax, listen to music, contemplate (again), put your life into perspective, believe in yourself and what you can achieve, what we can all achieve, thank yourselves for the good things and say 'fuck you' to the bad things. move on from our troubles and take control of the future.

we can all do that.

can't we ?

YES

xxxx

AND AT THE END OF THE DAY WE ARE ALL ON HERE FOR THE SAME REASON.

TO STOP.

but it's not as simple as that is it?

if it was there would be no thread.

I might be boring you all to death but I need as much support and help as we all do.

so see you tomorrow babes.

xxxxxxxx

and a big welcome to new posters and those coming back - sorry to be so rude and not remember names.

I went to visit a neo-natal unit at St Marys Hospital today - for work research reasons - but seeing those tiny tiny babies - and their parents. That's real life. And that is reality. That is just so so awfull.

FUCKING HELL - all we have to do is not pick up a drink.

SIMPLE.

night babes xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Silver,

It isn't easy to stop and stay stopped at all. I really want to drink like a bastard every night and not pay any price for it. I have even been jealous of people who have got away with more and sometimes think 'well I could have a few more years yet' but it doesn't make that much sense really. You are not alone and you are certainly not boring. You are a great source of kindness and support on here and what the hell would we do without you driving this bus? I suspect you would give any other driver too much of a hard time anyway!

Hi Pickle and Jab. I hope you are managing to distract yourselves this evening.

ahh silver!, you'll be alright, just stop drinking now - have glass of water and get to bed!, see you tomorrow!

welcome pickle! - yep, it sure is scary for a while, it really does get better though!

dm has called, df is back in his room, very sore but awake, hopefully he will be fine now, his physioterroist is starting on him first thing in morning - poor bugger! i expect some of you here have lost parents and found a way to cope - i am a total baby at the thought of looseing my dad - im a bit ashamed to say im still his princess , it goes a long way to explain my very spoilt behaviour

btw - not rubbing it in or showing off, but i have reached the four month mark!, im arnt half pleased with myself!

Hi silver are you ok?

Well done JWN that's fantastic! You deserve to feel proud and pleased. Have you found that your urge to drink has lessened over time?

Hi pav no temptation to drink at all this evening - still feel hungover. Im already in bed and looking forward to waking up feeling healthier tomorrow.

JWN - glad to hear your df is through the operation but a little concerned about the physioterrorist As for the four months - Fabulous. What an amazing achievement. x

Ahh, the bed, a good and reliable strategy. Enjoy waking tomorrow without the regret

Bed is a lovely place! Particularly with having a 12 wk old. I cherish every moment I get in it!

Another reason to give up the drink - makes the sleeping and bed time far more pleasurable!

I've made it to 9pm, so I know I'm safe for tonight.

I don't feel terrifically great about it though. I just feel a crushing sense of inevitability that I won't be able to keep this up. I'm unconvinced by myself.

It's quite depressing.

Still, at least I won't have a hangover tomorrow, so that's a plus.