The Braves Babes Battle Bus - NOT stopping at the pub!!

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Hello

I'm Mouse. I've been sober for over a month now, thanks to the support of posters on this and previous threads.

No matter where you are up to with your sobriety, you'll find someone here who has been in your shoes!

Come and meet the other Brave Babes........

And here are the other threads for those who want to read them.

JWN's original thread (and the reason we are all here!)

Thread two

Thread three

Thread four

Thread five

Thread six

Have a ball JWN!! xx

That's what I'm hoping JWN, I'd really love to remember this one......and look & feel fab to boot

Have a lovely evening

Double - glad to hear you've made it through another day. I've fidgeted my way through the X Factor and am trying not to neck all my choc at once
I too will be PJing very shortly.

Double - you are doing so well!!! Pjs and all!!!!

Pj time here too. Lots of pain tonight due to over-doing it yet again.

Early to bed as DH was up at 6am!! Nemo soon after.

Men!!!

Hope you are all ok Babes.

Night. xx

I am like nearlybedtime and munky.

1st September the latest date to fail self imposed goal to stop drinking.

I so need to do it for all the obvious reasons and because H left at Christmas and I want more control of my life , to lose weight and stop using it as a crutch to show myself I am moving on.

Alcohol ruined my marriage H was a HUGE drinker but has gone away and dealt with it. Dont drink like in the past but still its a habit that controls me.

Have hesitated because think I would be only single one I know thats pathetic and shouldnt be relevant but its how I feel.

Anyway I will come back tomorrow - I think - because so many of you seem sooo nice and really doing amazingly . I would love to be part of that

thought

I'm here.

I can talk if you like.

Hi thoughtitwas, welcome and well done for posting tonight.

Hello to other new 'faces' too, Nearly, Murky and Silver was there too I think. Your posts were great, really open and honest. Those sweaty anxious early mornings took me back too!!

I don't post much but this thread has really helped me so I would like to cheer you all - old and new

Another Saturday night on the wagon here but haven't ventured into PJ's yet. Sorry to hear you are in pain again tonight mouse. x

Thought I am also still here for a while.

I totally know what you mean about it contolling you.
Over the lst few weeks I've come to realise how obsessive I have become about alcohol over the years, not necessarily just the drinking it but all the thinking about it, plotting when I can get it, debating whether I should have just one more, hating myself every morning after another crap night, kicking myself for giving in, making promises to myself (that last about 8 hours while I'm at work) and then starting the cycle all over again.........it's so tiring and quite frankly I'm totally pissed off with it all.

I really hope you give it another go

Hey pav

Missed your regular posts. How are things? How far in are you now? Thanks. xx

So Munky, have you resorted to dancing around the front room?? I never considered that but I think it may have put a smile on dh's face or a least a raised eyebrow from behind his laptop!

Just a general question. How did you know when enough was enough?
Was there a defining, shitty moment when you thought "I can't do this anymore"?
I am so in awe of you on this thread. I haven't got the courage/balls to even try to stop drinking right now.

Pavalova Heh! Heh! Not yet, I don't have the energy today, feel totally zonked despite the elevated coccy levels

Hi Mouse I am on day 27 and it is reaching a new record for me. THAT January years back was more of a term start (around the 6th) and a last weekend of the month finish. Not so much of a month after all! But I still used it as proof of my control for years.

How are you?? I have read your posts and I was sensing that things were pretty hard going this week?

Thanks.

Its one of those where do you begin things which is another reason for hesitation.

Also sorry but whenever I take a peep at thread everyone sounds so upbeat and "Oh I feel so great not drinking" and I think how can that possibly be true. I once gave up for 3 weeks and every day felt like 3 weeks and I just cant imagine cheerily giving up and not failing.

There was a line in friends the other day where a character says to Monica who is pigging out on cookies "Remember its just food not love" and I thought yep thats me and wine.

I looked at AA website yesterday ( I must be getting serious) and a story on there resonated with me along the lines of the person didnt enjoy controlled drinking and hated her "normal" drinking so thought why am I doing this. Thats me but I do love those first couple of glasses but then its just a clockwork toy getting up and trotting to the fridge until its bare.

Positives.

I have 2 wonderful happy healthy dc . I have lots of friends and a great family . Its a good thing my marriage over wasnt treated that well or really loved for a long time. Not an acrimonious split given he has ow but when I think about it beggars belief he has cut down drinking after leaving his family and whilst mine hasnt worsened I want to be a casual drinker. After reading AA website think that may be a fantasy.

Thanks Mouseface

Yes Munky your post is me

Phew!!!

Rush of traffic.....

Luci - who was your question to or just general?

Pav - Life sucks big time at the mo. Nemo is having a rubbish time, lots going on at the house, I am in a heap of pain and my physio has been away for 3 weeks.

It all adds up. Off to the docs next week for a full MOT!!! I need to address other areas of me now that I have addressed my alcoholism.

27 days!!!! WELL DONE YOU!!!!

thought

Better to let it all out here than it build up and you go on a huge bender!!!

Lucil, Hi

For me it wasn't a crisis point but a gradual feeling of being bought down to my knees. Anxiety, guilt and shame and almost a year of consciously deciding I must not drink tonight and then drinking tonight. Wanting to have a break in theory but needing for it not to be 'today'.

Stumbling onto this thread hit a chord in me and I had that first night without and I hung on. I think you want to and the day you decide to try may be closer than you think, even if you can't imagine it. Keep reading and posting. x

Just dodged a curveball.....DH is home with a bottle of single malt, I have politely declined and am sat sipping strawberry and elderflower with soda while having palpitations!

Thought - I too did 3 weeks last year after a trip to Windsor for my aunty's 50th. I still have very little recollection of that night except for the horrendous 6 hour journey home the following afternoon. I basked in my ability for months, using it as my proof I did not have a problem. It was a very long 3 weeks!

Luci - what Pavalova said, not a crisis point but a creeping feeling that something must change.

Hi to double, mouse, pav, lucil and special hello to munky and thought.

Thought there are no barriers to posting on here - there are women, men, older, younger, with tiny babies, with wee kids, with teenagers, with no kids, lesbian, high-heeled, meditating, runners, widowed, married, co-habiting.... all sorts. The one thing we have in common though is that we recognise that our drinking has been / is / has the potential to be out of control. If that is you then post away. Please don't worry about trying to be positive, just be yourelf. It sometimes gets a bit silly on here - we've become comfortable with each other and joke around a bit. But sometimes for me those moment on the pc are the only thing that is keeping me away from having a drink. And there are times when I've posted on here in desperation, you'll see posts like that from most of us. I thin that becuse the others on here really, really understand what I am going through and the ways in which i would have behaved before they can encourage me to be truthful about how bad my drinking really was and the small delights of being sober. Whatever happens, keep on coming back - there's a place for you.

Hello SAF.

Stay and read for a while longer.

Luci - read my posts from here

You sound like me. I was NOT ready to give up drinking. I'm still not. Not for life. But, I can't keep drinking. It is killing the life I want.

Drinking is killing me. Mouseface. I have missed so much already. Time to get that time, those days, weeks months back.

Hi SAF, don;t be scared, take your time and be brave.

When I say almost a year of trying not to.. I have spent many years drinking but had previously mostly managed to kid reassure myself I 'just liked a drink'

Mouse, you are up against it at the mo it must be dreadful seeing nemo have a rough time and with your own pain. I hope the MOT leads to some solutions. x

Thought - I know what you mean about the upbeat tone sometime, you don't want to be the negative voice but I think its ok. We all feel negative too but I think people tend to post more when they are bouncy.

Venus, what a reassuring and kind post. Also I loved your quote yesterday