The Braves Babes Battle Bus - NOT stopping at the pub!!

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Hello

I'm Mouse. I've been sober for over a month now, thanks to the support of posters on this and previous threads.

No matter where you are up to with your sobriety, you'll find someone here who has been in your shoes!

Come and meet the other Brave Babes........

And here are the other threads for those who want to read them.

JWN's original thread (and the reason we are all here!)

Thread two

Thread three

Thread four

Thread five

Thread six

Good plan SAF. And don't forget to have fun and enjoy yourself

Hey getting

Thanks for the honesty. And for telling us who you really are.

Hi gettingeasier and well done on posting under your usual name. I find that so much of my drinking life was about hiding things, and it good to be honest with yourself at least.

I know exactly what you mean when you describe your social circle, and I know because I was always noticing and measuring what they drank (not lierally ) so I could reassure myself that I din;t have a problem really.

You know your list of reasons (excuses) could be turned around to give you exactly the reason you need to not have a drink today:

Last day of the school holiday fresh start tomorrow: Start the new school year without a hangover or guilt of any sort
Start on Monday: Wake up on Monday knowing that you have already made a start.
Start the day I could get to an AA meeting if thats the way I go: be able to go to an AA meeting and say I am ONE day sober - one whole day already. They will cheer.

Oh and if you are looking for excuses to HAVE a drink, just read some of the past threads, we could all give you many e.g.
the sun is shining
it is raining
I've got a period pain
I've not got period pain
I've got a new job
I've lost my job
it's nearly dinner time
it's ages until dinner time
I'm meeting friends
I'm lonely

All those reasons were a crock of shit. The reason I would have a drink is that I have a problem with alcohol. Initially the reason I din't drink was also because I have a problem with alcohol. More and more though, I am choosing not to drink because I like myself better as I am.

Miflaw - I am beginning to think I'm more scared of drinking than stopping.
The shitty thing is the booze isn't working like it used to. The social drinking, unsocial drinking, slipping yet another sneaky one from te wine box when no one is looking. It's starting to not be enough. What's the next stage to get the effect? Beer and wine with breakfast?
I don't want it to get any worse.
I have to try and moderate it.

Are you drinking now Lucil? Can you alternate alcohol with non-alcoholic drinks?

I could yes...that would be wise. We have family over. I don't want to start slurring again. I'm pathetic.

Luci

Hello lovely. I'm only here to tell you that you're not pathetic.

Not at all. x

hi luci!! just a quick one as im at work!

you are NOT pathetic!!

you sound very low and frightened though!

please read the other threads! you will see that we all started out feeling very similar - i promise that that feeling does begin to lift as time goes on!

How are you doing Luci? Keep on going with the non-alcoholic drinks as often as you can.

Try brushing your teeth (with lots of tootpaste) just before you have an alcoholic drink. The taste is horrible and it might buy you another half hour delay. And have a non-alcoholic drink instead.

Hi all, hope you are all well.

Good to see you again getting, I can totally relate to everything you aid earlier, the AA questionnaire, the social circle spying monitoring and the delaying excuses (my favourite is telling myself on Wed/Turs I'll start next Monday, on a weel;y basis!)

I evem contemplated a bottle of wine on Fri eve while stood at the local shop, despite feeling like a crock of shit, telling myself it would make me feel good .

Day 3 for me, coming up to trigger time as I am about to start cooking tea. I've neglected to buy any wine today so no cooking tipples available and I am currently choosing to ignore the 1/2 bottle of whiskey sat in the cupboard.

Today I will not be drinking!!!

Am aware quality wine selection ended 7 minutes ago.

Just the garage and local shop to go .

Sigh

I am going to start tomorrow. My pact is to to stop drinking day by day.
It's not helping anymore. I used to think I was a "better, more interesting person slightly drunk" but I'm not anymore. I can't leave it at being tipsy anyway.
The thought of never having the comfort blanket of booze scares me shitless.

But what about my kids? They are 3.5 and 2 yrs. They're going to notice soon.

Tomorrow is another day right? My partner, BIL, SIL, MIL and associated kids have gone to the park. I didn't want to go. The wine box is here.
I go to the park nearly every day (SAHM. I get little joy out of such activites.
I'd rather be on the sofa pissed.

luci! why not start this evening?, start monday morning as you mean to go on!

why not wake up feeling a bit fresher!, a bit more hopeful and a bit more in control!

btw, never is a long time, as they say!, dont think 'never', just think 'not today'!, makes it all so much more 'bite-size'!

You are right of course Jesus. Stopping right now (2 beers and 4 large glasses of wines in) would be a good idea.
Am going to try. I really am. Wish the wine box was finished though...it's so tempting.
Think I have a huge problem. Have been kidding myself that I am a social drinker (aided by the fact that DP is indeed a social drinker - can drink 2 pints in afternoon and leave it at that. I can't) but once I've started it is so hard to stop. I am trying to maintain/achieve a state of wellbeing/happiness with booze that is starting to appear even to me as totally false.
Tomorrow I will wake up..probably in the early hours wracked with anxiety and guilt about my drinking. I'll have a 2 and 3 yr old to deal with (inadequately) but later on in the day the feelings will lift and I'll crave the release a drink brings again.
BTW, my partner does not think I have a drink problem. I am secretive though.
Just wanted to say this. No need to reply. Honestly. It helps just to type it.

Luci, put the wine box in the garage. Get the kettle on and have a cup of tea. When you wake up in the early hours, you will be glad that you have done it.

Hi Munky, well done on the 3 days, just keep on going through the evening. not long to go now and then you can go to bed.

Getting, bet you don't even like the gut-rot wine from the garage! Go on, your doing so well so far.

So far so good. I know I shant be popping to the garage for a bottle of vinegar

About to watch a movie with ds by which time there wont be too much of the evening to fill empty handed.

May I join you?

Am I an alcoholic, I don't think so. Can I afford to keep drinking as much as I do - NO WAY.

Tonight I will not drink.

Back story, my father is an alcoholic, my husband is teetotal (coincidence? No, I don't think so).

Two years ago I started drinking regularly (daily) as a direct result of some enormous stress. Stress which has led to antidepressants in ever increasing doses. Alcohol, I love it! I like wine...a lot!!!!! The combination of wine and ADs guarantee sleep so superficially a win win situation. But I am now drinking a bottle a night, and guess what my antidepressants are not working as well.

I also take regular opiate based analgesia, again alcohol enhances the action so win win? But, not if I reach for the codine for the headache in the morning.

Yeah I know...so no more alcohol for me for a while.

Hello,
I'm back. Not doing too badly - still very bloody tired. I've managed a weekend (yay!) - i'm keeping busy and i've realised i don't need a large G&T in hand to enjoy X Factor.

In fact, my office has never been so tidy - i'm still doing it now...

How are you all doing? Are weekends the worst for you too?

On my way to bed now. Am really frightened of not sleeping though am very tired..and stone cold sober!

Sleep well starting

SAF - great! Well done! It's more than I did at the start.